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"Obey and feel pleasure..."
The young woman knelt with attentive obedience. Staring blanking into space, eyes void of any thoughts or emotions other than those they allowed her. Her mind wiped clean, sterilized of all past memories. Long gone unimportant, now replaced with new memories of obedience and servitude. Freshly implanted emotions and automatic response sewn deeply into her fertile mind.
"Whom gives you life?"
"Whom are you allowed to serve?"
"What is your name?"
Her mind swirled for an answer, which did not exist. As she struggled for a response tears slipped down her cheeks, emotions welling up inside her programmed mind. The feeling of being unable to perform as instructed completely foreign.
"You are unable to answer. Such thoughts are very painful in your mind. It is so hard for you to think. Hurts for you to think. Thinking makes you so tired, takes so much effort. Quit trying! listen and absorb the words, freeing you of the pain of thought. Obey and feel pleasure."
Salty tears stopped flowing and dried on the young woman's cheeks as tingling sensations began to appear in her mind. Her conditioned response, programmed deeply into the core of her mind, the center of all sensual feelings, her reward for obedience. Nothing else held any meaning. Nothing else filled her desires or thoughts or emotions. Her sole purpose to obey and feel pleasure. She would obey anything they asked of her. She was unable resist; unable to question anything they instructed her. Such thoughts had lost all meaning. Her being had been reduced to an object to be used by the others for the purposes of her Emperoress.
"Obey and feel pleasure."
Feeling a soft touch on the back of her neck, the tingling sensations electrified. Trembling quivers of pleasure flowed over her mind. Vibrations poured out over her body as she shook with such absorbing pleasure. Instinctively she gasped for breathe and moaned. The reward of her conditioning was always so pure, always so complete, always so addictive, forever craving.
"You need so badly to please our Emperoress don't you?"
"Correct you do. Obey and feel pleasure. Absorb these instructions. You will obey, you will please our Emperoress..."
Ali huddled by the window wrapped in her warm comforter. Gazing out into the steady rain. Days like this were particularly difficult. Thunderstorms were their favorites, holding each other as the sky came to life with the loud crack of thunder. Nature's energy amplified their love for each other. Such pure yet forbidden love. A bottomless void now dwelt within her. It had been six weeks since Tierra left, however the pain remained unbearable.
Ali tried to make sense of it, but it made no sense at all. One moment her life could not have been happier and the next in the depths of despair. Tierra simply did not come home one night. It was three days and a lifetime of worry when a note finally showed up in Ali's mailbox. There was no doubt it had been written with Tierra's hand. The note only asked that her belongings be sent to a post office box. Nothing else, no clue as to why, she did not even say goodbye.
"Ali dear, you are just going to have to let go."
Karsyn lovingly attempted to comfort her twin sister, although her words seemed to evaporate into thin air. Ali simply gazed out the window, her thoughts dreaming of happier times. The cute look on Tierra's face in slumber as Ali lightly stroked her hair. Sharing a cup of Hagen Das, the chocolate always so much sweeter as their tongues danced together. The eternal connection they felt for each other.
"It's late why don't you try and get some sleep?"
She worried for her sister and had come to stay with Ali for a few days. Just being there she hoped might be something.
"Why did she have to leave Karsyn?"
"I don't know, I don't know."
She held her sister as tears flowed. Ali slowly cried herself to sleep.
Ali's eyes squinted against the bright morning sunlight as she rolled over to escape back into slumber. Reaching out for Tierra her hand fell empty. Her eyes waking to the lost dream as she came back to consciousness. It might have been easy for her to simply surrender, to lose all hope. However Ali was not one to give up easily. As the days had past, some were better than others. Emotional waves flowed up and down. Sometimes the pain felt too great to bear. These deep feeling only strengthened her resolve to find the love Ali had lost.
"How did you sleep Ali?"
"Ok", she responded as she attempted to clear her voice from deep sleep. Ali pulled out the kitchen chair as she sat down at the table next to her sister.
"Ali, you just have to let the past be. I understand how much hurt you feel inside, but it's only going to get better when you learn to put her out of your mind and move on. I need my sister back, you know."
"Don't even go there Karsyn! I am going to find her, you don't understand, you never could, you've never approved!"
Karsyn wished she hadn't said what she had as Ali bolted from the room. She tried very hard to understand how her sister might fall in love with another woman. She worried that Ali would never let this go until it destroyed her.
The phone hardly began to ring when Ali grabbed it.
"Uh huh, oh my god! Oh god! Yes of course! Why did..." The phone clicked off. Ali immediately ran to her room to get dressed.
"What's going on? Where are you going?" Karsyn asked as her sister bounced around the house.
"She's back! I told you she would come back you didn't believe me! I knew she would come back!"
"Yes, she's back! And I have to go!"
"Well. What did she say?"
"She wants me to meet her at the coffee shop in half an hour. I knew she would come back! I knew it, I knew it!"
"Just like that? She disappears and then suddenly comes home? I don't know it sounds a little fishy to me. You had better let me come with you."
"No! You're not coming with me. You've caused me enough trouble already. You would only get in the way."
Karsyn felt as if a stake had been driven through her heart. All she tried to do was help. She loved her sister and only really wanted to see her happy. Ali did not really mean what she had said. It was a very selfish act as right now she only cared about herself. At times she could be that way, her tongue as sharp as a razor. Karsyn could not help but wonder if that was one of the reasons Tierra had left in the first place.
Ali nearly ran the few short blocks to the coffee shop. She eagerly waited on the sidewalk outside the front door, scuttering back and forth. Suddenly a car pulled up to the curb. The driver rolled down the window and called to Ali.
"Hi are you Ali? My name is Sitara. I have come to take you to Tierra. Please hop in."
"But I don't understand I thought Tierra would be here."
"She is anxiously waiting for you and I promise to take you there with haste."
Ali dismissed her better judgment and climbed into the car. She gripped the seat as the car sped away, she didn't mind, as she was anxious to get to Tierra as soon as possible.
"How is Tierra?"
"She is doing wonderfully. She has been so happy these past few weeks and is very anxious for you to join her."
Inside Ali wondered why Tierra had to go away to find happiness. She thought Tierra was completely happy with her, and yet now she was happier, but she wanted Ali to be with her. It would have seemed right if Tierra had been as miserable as she was. Ali felt very confused, as her emotions seemed to play with her mind. She settled down as the car pulled onto the highway.
"Where are we going?"
"It is quite a ways off. Just relax dear and we will be there before you know it."
Ali watched the barren landscape of the highway as it passed by. Her thoughts fully on her missed love. Anxious uneasiness filled her, wondering which emotions the next few hours might bring. She closed her eyes and brought forth the vivid picture in her mind, Tierra's warm loving smile. It always melted her heart, her own lips smiled at the vision. Her life with Tierra had been wonderful. It would be again, she was certain of that fact.
Riding in a car always seemed to make Ali sleepy. Perhaps from the time she was a baby and her mom used to drive her and Karsyn around to get them to go to sleep. As the car rumbled down the highway her eyes grew heavy, relaxed from steady motion. Eventually drifting off into deep sleep.
Fingers lightly gliding, tantalizing, arousing. Passionate energy flowing through their bodies, melting together in tighter and tighter embrace. Hearts pattering together in perfect rhythm. Swirling over and over, beads of perspiration dripping fueled from the fire of exquisite pleasure.
Ali mouthed the barely audible words, as she was jolted from the dream when the car jerked to a stop. A few moments passed as her consciousness cleared. The dream felt so real as it always did. It appeared the car had come to rest in what was some sort of parking garage.
"Where are we? Tierra is here?"
"Oh good you are finally awake. You slept for quite awhile."
Ali was oblivious to the complete avoidance of the question. Rather she felt somewhat embarrassed. The roller coaster of emotions over several weeks had sapped her reserves. It seemed like a constant cycle of worry, hope, memories, sleep, over and over again. Now all those things would be something in the past, she would be reunited with Tierra in minutes.
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