Somebody should have warned me about two things:
1) Reading something that you have written yourself some time ago can be a very traumatic experience.
2) How is it possible that there are some good people who are willing to go through the s**t you wrote and make it understandable? Especially when you sometimes cannot really understand it yourself. Which again reminds me about point one...
But the story is there and coming, like I said before it has already been totally written.