I got more than a couple emails about my blogs. rache got a few, Rachael Ross got a bunch, even The Secret Me got a lot, mostly from people looking for her blog stories. Either a few people decided to write all three of me, or a bunch of people don't know I'm schizo, either way they all sounded kind of like this one, which came anonymous:
Rache, I'm writing to ask when you're going to start blogging on SO again. I'm one of the people who can't read all your stories but I do like some of them. The blogs are what I loved about you and sometimes the only reason I get on SO is to see if you have a new one posted. You made me angry, happy, sad, and glad and sometimes plain confused and always entertained. If they had scores for blogs I'd give you tens. Are you going to blog again and if not where can I find your old blogs? I should have saved them when I could have. Answer me in your blog.
I like that one the most because he/she doesn't like all my stories, but loves my blogs, and doesn't bother saying please. Readers like that have a special place in my heart, especially when they say nice things about me. We all want to be loved for our bodies, but not at the expense of our minds. Or is it the other way around? Never mind. Here's my answer:
Blogs and blogging were what I liked best about SOL, in all seriousness. It's like posting stories, but with much more control than posting real stories gives me. I can edit and delete on a whim, I can say anything I like without worrying about scores or not making a top twenty list - I've often thought Lazeez should have a "Hot Blog" list, but then I suppose some uber-popular author would be hot with a blog entry about "Chapter 73 delayed due to a sinus infection" and that would be silly. That's why I'm not in charge. Some people think I give SOL blogs a bad name, but I liked to think of it as giving other authors a good name.
Anyway, I lived for my blog. I ranted and wrote short fiction just for my blog and I still remember giggling happily when Lazeez sent me a message asking, "Why are you posting stories in your blog?" ...Because it was fun for me and good for the site. One of those weird Win-Win propositions. However, all good things must come to an end and it only takes one black hole to suck the life out of a room. It just stopped being fun and until it becomes fun again, well...I'm not really eager to put my clown suit back on, pick up the chainsaws, and start juggling metaphors in one of the big top's smaller rings.
So, I'm sorry if it disappoints you, but take comfort in knowing that you have an opposite out there who is quite thrilled with the news...and vice versa! :) No matter what I do, someone is always happy and someone is always sad. Weird the way that works.
ps - old blogs? heh! Nobody's that desperate, are they? My ego appreciates it though.