Chapter 9

Dear Willow,

Girls put up with being mocked in the showers? I would have thought it was only guys if I hadn't seen how badly Katy got mocked for having small breasts after we'd been on board about a week. Everyone else got body mods. Even I'm experiencing a growth spurt. That can hurt. But with so many of the male sponsors being dicks, Marissa decided that I should be at least 5'10" tall! Can you imagine? I'll be the tallest man in the family by a long shot. I miss John too, but there isn't anything I can do except write a letter to mom and dad suggesting that they give a decree of guardianship to a family member who is a sponsor. I do hope that will be you.

You asked about the other women in the family? I can see why Marissa is a sponsor. When it is called for she is very decisive. I think that must be part of what constitutes a good score. Being willing to fight is too, but I'm not sure that if you're too willing to fight you might get bounced because the truth is that controlled aggression is called for if we're going to win against the Sa'arm None of that berserker stuff some of the guys do. I hope you find a girlfriend who can help you feel less lonely. I know that as we've gotten to know each other Holly, Beth, Katy, and even Marissa have become fast friends. Holly told me that she thinks it would have been better if they'd all been friends before becoming lovers. I guess I can see that. I know that Katy still feels a little embarrassed that Marissa made her perform oral sex on her, Beth, Holly, and even me in order to qualify for membership in her family.

Marissa told me privately that she's a little embarrassed by that too. Which means that there's a vicious circle of embarrassment happening between them. I had another long talk with Katy and asked her how else she thought Marissa should have gone about making sure that she was willing to submit to her authority?

"I just wonder if I'm becoming a lesbian?" was her question to me. I had to tell her that didn't seem to be an issue as she certainly seems to enjoy any time we get to make the two backed beast. Or have sex in any other way ... Marissa has ordered that there be no more than one pregnant woman in her pod until everyone has had at least one set of twins. She told the pod AI that it would have been bad enough to have everyone pregnant and dropping babies at the same time but with twins bloody murder was the most likely outcome. I don't know anything about that but after watching some of the other families interact I think I can appreciate the fact that Marissa seems to care deeply for all of us. Otherwise why would she have had me up sized? Surely leaving me a scrawny little fellow whose best hope in life was to work toward being a professional jockey would have made the women feel safer, considering the number of sponsors who seem to think that their concubines are not enough and therefore they ought to be able to have sex with us too.

Marissa says in some ways she agrees with you on a nudist colony. But that she also thinks that it will encourage us to be honest with each other. After all no one will be able to stuff a bra or a jock. Not that the male marines need to. Like I said they really must have had small dick syndrome. Almost all of them that I've seen have had their equipment up sized to the get that the fuck away from me size. Marissa said that I was fine just the size I am and had the women adjusted if they complained that I wasn't large enough.

In some ways a sleep-trainer makes learning a lot easier. I go in for an hour and come out with a head full of concepts. Of course there is still practice problems to do so that the concepts can become more real to me. I got to go over the design for a small ship that's supposed to work like a submarine. Someone put a lot of thought into what it will take to stay invisible to the Sa'arm in battle.

Have a good day,

Your brother,

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