Chapter 2

When I woke up, even before I opened my eyes, I could smell the coffee from downstairs. That's nice. The kids are making breakfast. Then I smelled the cooking ham and my stomach bolted. I jumped out of bed and ran to the bathroom. I made it just in time to lift the lid and then dumped the contents of my stomach. After another minute I was left with the dry heaves. Finally, when I seemed finished, I rose and flushed the toilet. I cleaned myself up and got into the shower. I wonder what it was that I ate last night that has gone bad. I'll need to take a look and warn the kids.

I was sitting in front of the mirror brushing my hair when my brain finally turned on. You don't have food poisoning, you idiot, you're pregnant! Shit! I've been so careful and it happened anyway. Now what do I do. Do I keep it? Can I even find the right drugs here if I want to abort. If I keep it, how do I explain this to the kids? What do I say to Danny? We have been having sex almost every day for three weeks. How could I be so stupid? I'm not some silly teenager that thinks it can't happen to her. I've had five kids.

When I got downstairs the kids were all gathered around the kitchen table talking. They had finished breakfast earlier but had saved some for me. Susan started dishing out some scrambled eggs and ham. "No Honey. I'm not really hungry right now. I'll just have some coffee if you don't mind. Maybe I'll have some food later". Susan got me some coffee and then returned to their conversation. I just sat there, sipping my coffee, staring off into space thinking.

The kids must have been trying to get my attention for a while. When I finally noticed their calling me they were all staring at me expectantly. "Mom, anybody home? We have been calling you for a while now. You seem to be a million miles away".

"I'm sorry kids. I'm just thinking of all things we have to do this summer before winter comes around again. We need to finish the repairs to the house and the new fences. We need to plant more fruit and vegetables for canning. I guess my mind was off making all those plans". They seemed fine with my explanation. "What did you want"?

Danny spoke up, "Susan and I have not worked together in a while. We thought it would be nice if we could work on the roof repair together. You want those bedrooms fixed soon and Susan is the best carpenter of the girls".

When he finished I could see from the expression on his face he really did not expect me to allow the two of them to be alone together. Susan must have egged him into asking. Of course, with what Danny and I have been doing the last few months, it seems a bit hypocritical of me to say no, especially now with his baby in me. "I guess it would be okay". They both smiled at each other. After a bit more joshing around everyone got up and started cleaning up the remains of breakfast.

I went to the closet and got a sweater and started putting it on. "Hey, kids. I've got some things I need to think about. I'm going out to Daddy's spot for a while. Give me some alone time while I'm out there".

Without waiting for any acknowledgement I opened the door and went outside. About 200 yards out from the house there was a small rise with several shade trees at the top. While we did not have my husband's body, we still made a stone and marked a spot for him. I would sometimes come out and talk to him when I got depressed and was missing him. And I certainly needed to talk this out.

This would be our family plot, as we grew older. Then what I just thought hit me, "As we grew older". There are only six of us now, maybe seven. When we are gone, that's it. What happens to my kids when I'm gone? What happens to the world when we're gone? We have not seen any sign of anyone in years now. We monitor the radio at least twice a week for a couple of hours and it was still silent. What happens if we get sick? We are bound to have the occasional accident. We have virtually no medicine and no doctors. Sure, I'm a nurse, and I know a lot, but I have huge limitations. Our numbers will gradually be reduced. I need to start teaching someone for when I am gone.

As I looked down at his marker I found it difficult to picture his face. Danny looked so much like his dad that I saw his face instead. "Honey, I'm sorry. I was weak. I've missed you and our sex together. It has been so many years and I just gave in". I sat down in front of the marker where his body would have been if we had been able to recover it. "I'm going to keep the baby. It will be part of our family".

For the next couple of hours I sat there thinking. It was still pretty chilly so I finally moved out so the sun could warm me. It took a couple more hours of thinking before I finally accepted what must happen and began my planning. It was lunch time when I finally returned to the house. Susan and Danny were in the kitchen making lunch for everyone. I pulled Danny aside to the living room. "Son, I know it is still a bit early in the spring but I want you to take a quick hunting trip around to the other side of the mountain". I knew this would take him about three days at the minimum, one to get there, one to find something and then another to return.

"Mom, you are right, it's pretty early. It will be hard to find anything, plus there won't be as much meat on whatever I get as if we wait a couple of months".

"I know. But I was looking at what we have and I would feel more comfortable if we could add a bit to it now".

He nodded his head, "Ok. When do you want me to go"?

"I think tomorrow morning". I wanted him to be away from the house as soon as possible so I could have a meeting with the girls. Things had to be decided before Danny could be included.

That night I helped Danny get everything ready. He checked his bow, got a couple of extra strings, made sure his quiver was full and then filled his backpack with some extra clothes and food. We had several guns in the house but my husband had always used the bow and now his son did the same. The guns were just there as an insurance policy in case they were necessary. Originally we thought they might be needed for safety.

When I went upstairs he was already in bed. I was feeling pretty guilty sending him off on an unnecessary trip, but I needed the time with the girls without him around. I quickly undressed and got into bed. As I slipped into bed beside him I got an idea that would ease my guilty conscience. It was also made easier by the decision I had come to earlier today.

"I know you don't want to go on this hunt right now but perhaps this would help". I pulled the covers down off him exposing his nude body. Then I slid down sideways in the bed facing his chest. I reached down with one hand, put in on his knee, and then slowly began softly moving it up to the crease at the top of his thigh and then back down again with a caressing touch. I moved up so my head was above his chest, I leaned down and kissed his chest and then moved over to the nipple closest to me and ran my tongue around it before sucking it into my mouth and flicking it with my tongue.

I could tell I was having the right effect on him as he began squirming around in bed. "Mom, do you want to get on top of me"?

"No, I have something else in mind". I began moving down his chest kissing him lightly. When I reached his belly button I first ran my tongue around it and then vigorously thrust my tongue into it. He obviously liked it. His hips bucked up and something hard and wet bumped into my ear. I moved the hand that was caressing his thigh over and, with a thumb and forefinger, encircled the base of his cock and squeezed. He definitely likes this. I cupped his balls with my palm and fingers and his hips lifted off the bed and the head of his cock popped right up into my face. I turned around to look at him and he had his eyes closed. Well this should open them. I slid down a few inches so my head was poised right in front of the head of his cock. Even in the semi dark I could tell the head was glistening with lubricant. His hips were now moving up and down with my hand firmly gripped around him. I opened my mouth. The next time his hips lifted his cock up to me I just leaned forward and took him into my mouth just past the head of his cock.

A long groan escaped him. "Oh, mom. What are you doing"?

I did not say anything, just began moving my tongue around the head of his cock. I had rarely had oral sex with my husband. He was not a big proponent and I would rather have him in me. But I was really getting off on the reaction my son was having. His hips were really bouncing up and down now. He had put his hands on the back of my head and was pushing my head down his cock. I pulled back and turned to him. "Now I want you to try and not move too much. Just lay back and enjoy the sensations. And keep in mind that my mouth is not like my pussy. You can't just stuff your cock all the way in it".

"I'm sorry mom. It just feels so good. If you keep doing that I'm going to cum any minute now".

"That's okay. This is just for you. Cum anytime you feel like it". With that I moved my hand away from the base of his cock so it was just my mouth and tongue that he could feel. I wanted him to concentrate just on the head of his cock.

His hips began thrusting up again. I knew he was getting close. "Mom, I'm going to cum. You need to move your head". His voice sounded a bit frantic. How sweet, he was concerned I might not want him to cum in my mouth. I did not say a word. I just kept my head bobbing up and down and running my tongue over his cock. With one last grunt, he lifted his hips and held them. His cock seemed to grow even bigger and harder in my mouth. As I moved my tongue to the tip of the head, streams of hot liquid erupted from him into my mouth. The first hit the roof of my mouth and then covered my tongue. The streams kept coming. My mouth was already full with his cock, there was not much room for cum. I had to swallow. That gave me some relief. The jerks of his body became less intense and the streams smaller. When he was finally finished I gave his cock one last suck, in case he had any sperm left, and then cleaned him off with my tongue and swallowed one last time. I let his cock fall with a soft plop on his stomach and then turned towards him. He looked up at my face and touched the side of his mouth with a finger. I touched the side of my mouth and realized I had a line of cum from my mouth down to my chin. I stuck my tongue out to the side and licked off as much as I could reach. He watched with a small grin on his face. He put his arm out to the side. I reached down, pulled the covers up and then moved up alongside him and put my head on his shoulder and my arm across his chest.