Chapter 13

A week later, as I showered for bed, I found my playing with the shower spray. I had tried out, that afternoon, for the cheering squad – Tif, Brenda and Steph were all on the team and wanted me to join them. I was very sore and tired. I had already discovered that my shower spray had several different settings and was trying to find a massage that helped to sooth my pains when I accidentally pulled the whole thing loose. I nearly panicked until I realized that the spray had a hose attached. I looked more carefully and realized that it was made to be removed if needed and the hose was long enough that I could sit on the floor of the tub and still wash my entire body. I felt a bit foolish – this would have been useful to know about many months ago when I struggled to wash my hair in the sink.

I sat down gratefully and again played with the jet spray settings and the temperature of the water. I found a pulsing spray with 6 streams of water that felt good on my calf and slowly I worked it up my leg. It was warm and soothing. I leaned my head against the wall and closed my eyes as I let the water massage my leg. Lying there, relaxing, I could feel the water occasionally lapping at my vulva and the thought made me blush – even alone. I could touch myself here – even bring myself to rapture – and no one would know.