Chapter 34

February 1^st 2044

I'm feeling better, physically at least. I'm still having nightmares though. I wish I didn't have them. I know they save me and my friends when the ship crashed but I'm dying in these. Each time I dream it there's a crowd of people around and I can't breathe. I'm trying to take my friend advice and not worry about it too much. I don't see any snow in the dream so I know I won't die for a while yet. Some how that isn't as comforting as it should be though.

Still as much as I'm dreading spring I'm getting really tired of winter. I am so tired of having to shovel my way outside and trying to squeeze the snowmobile out so I can go up and sweep off the solar panels. I suppose I could just walk but trudging through all that snow isn't fun either. I really wish I'd thought to bring snow shoes. I'm starting to wonder if I shouldn't build a small mud room and garage onto the front of my cave. It'll be a lot of hard work but it could be worth it. If I live that long. (Sob!) Darn it! I wasn't going to cry!

I'm okay. Well not really but I've stopped crying. I'm trying to hold on to the hope that what happens to me won't be for a few years. After all I had nightmares about the ship before ever being on it. Of course they came true. Darn it!

February 8^th 2044

I found some new kind of fruit today. I found it while Wolfie, the Stooges, and I were out hunting. I didn't need to as I still had meat in the freezer but they preferred if fresh. And it gave got us out of the cave for a few hours. I took the snowmobile. Wolfie still doesn't like the snowmobile but she's gotten used to it. We drove out across the river before I stopped and we started walking. I didn't want bloody snow close to my home in case we caught something.

We passed by the tree that Wolfie knocked me away from last fall. I made sure to give it a wide birth. I didn't want to end up sucking one of those branches again. I'm embarrassed to say passing it made my mouth water though. It was also kind of scary. I think that tree knew I was there. I kept hearing noises of branches moving but when I'd look I couldn't see anything. Wolfie and the Stooges didn't like it either.

A while after that I saw a duce kneeling down like it was asleep. I thought it was weird but I raised my rifle and fired. It wasn't a kill shot but instead of running like I expected it to. Instead it jumped up and started looking around. When it saw me all the hairs on the back of my head stood up. Then it started walking towards me and as it did it's cock slid out of its sheath. About 20 feet away from me to stood up on its hind legs, gave some kind of cry, and ejaculated!

I was so surprised by the duce's actions I just stood there in shock. I mean it should have been running away or crying out in pain and this think acted like it wanted to mate with me. Plus I couldn't believe how far and how much that thing could shoot! It came within a few feet of me and after it kept dribbling out.

When I could think I yelled, "Ewwwww!" Then the smell hit me. It was musky and very male. It made me gasp as my body responded to it. My nipples got hard and my pussy wet as my body started to prepare itself to be mated. When I heard a zipper being undone I looked down at my open jacket in shock. I don't remember opening it. The shock of the cold air plus knowing what would happen if I didn't stop it, snapped me out of my arousal.

I yelled, "No freaking way!" and shot it three more time. It jumped up on its hind legs and shot more at me before I finally hit it in the head. It staggered and tried to stand on its hind legs again before if fell over. When it stopped spasming I cautiously moved forward, ready to fire again if I had to.

When I got close to it I was totally grossed out. There was still, semen seeping from its cock but that wasn't the grossest thing. It also had this viney branch thing where its anus should be. It looked like one I saw last fall before that plant nearly at me. To make it even more freaky, there wasn't any blood from the bullet wounds. Instead there was what looked to be sap coming from the wounds.

I'm not sure how long I stood there looking at it before I realized I was so horny I was panting and squeezing my thighs together. Scared of what would happen if I stayed I ran back the way I came as fast as I could. When I finally stopped I was panting because I was out of breath. I also wasn't happy. Running in all those clothes made me sweaty. I mean it was bad enough my panties were wet but now the rest of me was too and being out in the snow and wet is really dangerous.

Knowing I had to get home I called out to Wolfie and the Stooges. I heard them howl and went off to check on them. They'd found a small duce and were having lunch. They'd had their fill though so after cutting up the rest I wrapped it up in a plastic tarp and started hauling it back to the snowmobile. I wouldn't be eating any of it but I could use parts of it for things.

On the way back is when I found this tree that had these weird purply pink pyramid shape fruit. I was surprised because I hadn't seen fruit like that before. I tested it with the scanner and it said it was okay to eat. I didn't eat any then but I did fill up a couple bags in case they were good. I also made a note of the tree on my map. My map isn't that great but I should be able to find it again.

Once I had the snowmobile loaded we all headed for home. The wolves all settled down for a nap after I got the snowmobile inside. Having a garage outside is getting more and more desirable. After getting it in I went inside threw some more wood on the fire, and undressed. Then I made sure the door was blocked, laid down on the bed, and had some private time. If you must know they felt very good.

Now that I've had a short nap and I've washed my earlier activities away I'm going to get something to eat. I'm hungry. I think I'll try some of that new fruit.

I think there's something in the fruit. I don't mean that its bad or anything. In fact it tastes good and kind of reminds me of how my fingers taste after I lick them for more moisture when I ... never mind. Lets just say the fruit tastes okay and leave it at that. The thing is since eating it I've gotten more and more aroused but no matter how much I masturbate I can't seem to orgasm. I've rubbed my clit and fingered my pussy and done both at the same time but it just made me want to orgasm more! I even tried using the handle of my hair brush but I just can't get there! It is sooo frustrating! I've even thought about going up to the garage to try some of those toys.

The only problem with going up to the garage for the toys is that I'd have to get dressed and go out into the snow. Maybe the cold would help though? It wouldn't be a cold shower but running out in the snow naked should have the same effect right? I could even sit down in the snow.

On second thought maybe sitting in the snow naked isn't such a good idea. I sure as heck don't want my pussy getting frost bit. Maybe I should go for a toy though. If trudging through the cold snow doesn't cool me off maybe the toys would?

February 9^th 2044

Well I sure won't be eating that fruit again any time soon. I spent last night in the garage apartment trying out a couple of the toys in the hopes of climaxing. I actually enjoyed how the dildo and vibrator felt, and yes they were clean. The only thing is, as good as being filled felt I still couldn't orgasm. When I was finally worn out from trying, I ended up crying myself to sleep in frustration. This morning, when I woke up, the driving desire that controlled me was gone. I think the apartment being so cold might have something to do with that but I still had a frustrated ache deep inside.

I wanted to relieve that ache but I didn't. Instead I hurriedly dressed and checked the garage's computer to see the batteries were at minimum charge. I guess I should have come over more often and cleaned off the solar panels. Even with power levels at a minimum the battery charge was really low. I used a sledge hammer from one of the tool boxes on the garage floor to break up through the ice covering the hatch so I could get it open. Then I had to go back to the cave so I could get a shovel and a broom so I could dig my way up onto the roof and then dig out the solar panels. I also made sure Wolfie, Stooges, and Ducky all had something to eat.

It took a really long time to uncover the panels. I had to be careful and keep going back down into the apartment/cockpit to check their locations so I didn't damage them with the shovel. By the time I finished getting the first solar panel uncovered it was past lunch time and I was hungry. I didn't feel like going all the way back to my cave again so I dug out some rations and had those. I had beef stew, salad, and chocolate pudding. At least that's what the package said. The salad was disgusting, but the rest was eatable. I wouldn't say good but I was able to eat it. When I finished I went up and finished shoveling off the snow.

I finally called it quits after I finished I uncovered one full row of solar panels. I was just too sore to life another shovel full of snow. I was also cold and feeling very gross under all my clothes, so I called it a day and came back in. I stripped off and stuffed my clothes in to the washer and then took a nice long hot shower. It would have been nicer with water but at least it was hot.