Chapter 35: Julia's TK Unveiling Plan

Sunday, April 10, 2005 (Continued)

Julia turned to me and said, "I'm amazed you sat through it. I had my finger on the mute button expecting you to explode at any time." She looked at me expectantly.

"I nearly did. I was quiet at first because before the movie you totally convinced me that you understood Carol, so I believed you knew what you were doing. By the time the conversation got VERY shocking, I'd already heard that Carol was mostly agreeing. She dragged her heels sometimes, but only for a little while. I was shocked at what she was agreeing to. I thought you'd opened my eyes about Carol before we went to the movie, but I obviously knew NOTHING! She was masturbating at the end?"

"Yes indeed. She has the hots for you."

^

[[Carol's "hots" were well down the road of being deliberately created by Julia. Until a few days ago Carol's feelings for me had been almost entirely non-sexual, just the occasional mood swings and hormone surges that come with adolescence. Carol's true emotions for me never would've included "the hots" if not for Julia's deliberate manipulations.

Julia and I having a relationship that was obviously sexual was something that had made Carol think of sex with me, and she'd had flashes of being envious of Julia, as is natural for girls her age who have a brother they like. She would've easily pushed those feelings aside, just as I would've pushed my feeling aside when Carol started having a sexual relationship with a boy. Neither of us would EVER have acted on such thoughts, and we'd have outgrown them quickly.

That wasn't Julia's plan though. When Julia had seen my lustful reaction to Carol's too-small swimsuit in the hot tub last Wednesday (boys are pathetic about sex) Julia recognized what it was (a boy being pathetic about sex) but she wasn't threatened enough to react as she would've if a non-sister been involved. After a little thought, Carol's unique position in my life made Julia realize several interesting aspects. I hadn't been paying much attention to the conversation in the hot tub so I'd failed to pick up on several of Julia's comments and questions, as she subtly checked out some of her thoughts about Carol and me.

Mostly then, but also over the next few days, Julia learned enough to refine her thoughts and to become so excited about some of them that she started deliberately pouring gasoline onto the intermittent sparks of Carol's desire for me. Julia had several reasons, in ascending order of importance to her:

• Julia wanted to do things to make me happy, which included giving Carol to me.

• Carol wouldn't try to take me away from Julia, Carol obviously couldn't ever marry me, and Julia had already decided that I was too important to be tied down to the more-or-less ordinary, although highly capable girl that Julia considered herself to be. Seeing my attraction for Carol made Julia realize her "not tied down" decision meant she shouldn't be jealous either. It was relatively easy for Julia not to be jealous of Carol, given Carol's inability to claim me for her own.

• Julia soon learned that Carol was loyal to me and that I trusted her a great deal, as strongly indicated by my willingness to show her my TK ability. After learning of my TK herself, Julia felt certain I'd need TOTALLY loyal and trustworthy confidantes in the future, and those almost-impossible-to-find traits were already present in my sister.

• Not only was Carol loyal and trustworthy toward me, but Julia quickly discovered that Carol would do whatever Julia told her to, making Carol a godsend to be snapped up as quickly as possible.

• Julia and her parents considered genetics the most likely source of my uniqueness, there being no other even faintly believable possibility, so there was an exciting chance that Carol could develop as I had, which made keeping her close - and even better, under Julia's thumb - irresistible to Julia. Pushing Carol and me into having a sexual relationship also offered the fascinating possibility of our having superhuman babies together. Julia had already been greatly excited about being involved in my life, so being the kingpin (queenpin?) of a whole family of superhuman people was hugely compelling for her. That could make Julia EXTREMELY important. In her fantasies, it could make her important enough that Presidents and Prime Ministers would want to talk with her. (Our fantasies were another way in which Julia and I differed.)

Julia had realized much better than I had how incredible I was. She was VERY excited about it, and had thrown herself TOTALLY into serving me (that's what she told herself. In reality her serving me would be in ways she thought suitable and enjoyed). Julia tends to get carried away with her enthusiasms, so much so that the only thing that Julia now thought mattered was what was good for me. What was good for Carol barely registered with Julia, except as a carrot to manipulate Carol and me into behaving the way Julia wanted us to.

Making me happy in the short and long term was Julia's top priority; truthfulness was not. Not to Carol, and even not to me if Julia thought she knew better than I what was good for me. Julia knew I would want to protect Carol, so Julia's description of Carol's personality exaggerated her vulnerability and dependency, the latter being something Julia was encouraging the growth of as fast as possible. There were some elements of truth in what Julia had said, but sexually speaking Carol was really just a young, inexperienced girl. She was mostly 'unformed clay', ready to be molded by her first few experiences. Julia had gained complete control of those and was heavily involved in manipulating them for her own purposes.

As manipulative as Julia was being, she was sincerely doing it for my benefit. It was being done in a way that gave Julia a great deal of control, but the Anderson kids weren't exactly making that hard. If you'd seen Carol in her too-small swimsuit, it'd be hard to argue that it wasn't going to be for my benefit.]]

^

I said, "I'll avoid talking about my 'hotness' for the moment, and stick to the call. Obviously Carol's masturbating at the end tells me she liked what was going on. You knew that, didn't you? That's why you talked about sex so much: running around the block naked, my licking your pussy, naked in the hot tub and things like that. You knew they'd turn her on?"

"I knew YOU turn her on, yes. As you said, my imagery was deliberate. The whole conversation was deliberate, even more than you understand, but I'll explain that when you've finished your comments. In another respect, it wasn't as planned as you might think because it was merely an off-the-cuff repeat of previous conversations I've had with her. I usually talk with Carol several times a day so we've done this quite often. The topics change but the structure of the conversations is much the same, although they haven't been that blatant before."

[[Julia's last statement was as wrong as it's possible to be, as almost every one of the girls' prior conversations had been FAR more blatant! Julia repeatedly talked to Carol at length and with explicit detail about what a fantastic lover I was, as part of Julia's campaign to get Carol sexually turned on to me. Julia had toned down the sexual content of the conversation I'd just heard because she'd rightly feared that I'd react badly to her usual level of explicitness.]]

I continued, "Okay. I had another reason for not exploding. From what you said in town, I understand that Carol wants to give control over herself to someone, and it's much more control than I'd previously understood. If it's not to us it'll be to someone else, which scares the crap out of me. As your conversation got more extreme, Carol's compliance with it made me repeatedly increase my belief that she has to be compliant to us to save her from being that compliant with anyone else. When you told her that she didn't need to make any decisions, that we will make them for her, that statement rang warning bells in my head. Is what she wants really that extreme?"

"Yes. Every time I've made a decision for her, she's given me even more control over the rest of her decisions. I'm sure you noticed that my plan for her is to be our housewife. She will look after us. When you leave Corvallis we'll both go with you. I believe that when she graduates school she'll prefer to be our full-time housewife rather than go to college. I haven't discussed that outcome with her, but it's based on my suspicion that she never really wanted to go to college. I think her studying so much was a way of staying private, of staying away from people. She doesn't want to be in a crowd, and she doesn't enjoy being with boys her own age. She wants to be with one person who she respects highly and who is her entire life. It will be two of us, but that's fine because she's capable of focusing on two, especially as it's clear that you're the top boss."

"When we were in town, I made a little commitment to myself to watch how you handled Carol so I could learn how I should do it. I noticed you talked to her like she was a little girl. You gave her lots of immediate feedback, positive or negative. You could call her 'good girl' and thirty seconds later be criticizing her, then another thirty seconds later be telling her 'good girl' again. It seems rather strange. Certainly not the way I'd normally talk with anyone?"

Julia agreed, "You're right about her being childlike. I never thought of it that way, but that's a good description: children depend on their parents for approval, and that's what Carol's doing with us. I learned to talk with her that way because I noticed that she reacted instantly to every compliment or critical word I said. Mature people average out a whole conversation, or even several conversations, but Carol reacted instantly to every little expression or opinion about her. I think because she's already emotionally dependent on us. She hangs on our every word, desperate for our approval.

^-- "I think she's had a low opinion of herself for years, and now she's finally found someone she's willing to depend on. Two someones: you and me. Our opinions are very important to her because she's emotionally out on a limb for the first time in her life, so is feeling very insecure. Hopefully she'll be less immediately sensitive once she feels more secure in our relationship, but until then we should be careful not to make sarcastic comments or use derogatory humor on her. That could hurt her even if we're only joking."

"Okay. Now I've answered your question about why I didn't explode. To my amazement I find that I've only got two questions for you: Do you REALLY want Carol and me to get sexual? Because it SURE sounded like it! And what the fuck do I do when I get home and from now on?"

"How you should treat Carol is easy. I'm the one pushing her along. Every conversation I have with her I push her further. I went further in the last conversation than I intended at its start, but I'm in a hurry, which I'll explain shortly. But, honestly, if I hadn't pushed that much this conversation, I would've reached the same place in another couple of calls. I'm even a little unsure whether the reality is I'm pushing her or she's pulling me. She started worshipping you and me before I was fully aware of it, so all I've really done is give her what she already wanted.

^-- "She doesn't expect much from you because she thinks she's mostly worthless and you're the most amazing guy in the world. She's amazed you want to spend any time with her at all, so there's no expectation or need for you to do anything. Carol looks to me for all her guidance. My role is half her sister, half her boss, so I'm managing her. That's my role in your life: to do things for you." [[Julia's self-appointed role, which 'coincidentally' happens to involve managing people.]]

^-- "When you're with Carol, you just need to be very honest and direct. If she pleases you, smile; if not, frown. Make time to be with her, especially to command her to do things for you. I promise that she'll notice every single smile or frown you make. She lives for those.

^-- "I'm not the least surprised that she saved your text message. I don't think she'll ever delete any of them. She'll spend hours some days reading through them and reliving the events, such is her devotion to you. I suggest you never send her any criticizing texts because it would hurt her for a long time. When you need to tell her off, do it verbally so there's no permanent record.

^-- "A threat of a little humiliation works well on her too, like my example of making her run around naked. We'd never do that to her, but the thought has a big effect on her. While I remember it, my request for you to tell Carol that she's going to be massaging me is much less important now. She's past that point now, especially with your getting a full body massage tonight. Tell her if you remember, but don't worry about it much."

"Okay, but what about the sexual atmosphere you've created between Carol and me. Why, and what's your plan?"

"I didn't tell you before because you wouldn't have believed me and we might have had a bad argument about it. But now you understand Carol enough to accept it. Carol will do whatever you want her to do, including sex. She's far too scared of your disapproval to initiate sex herself, but she'd leap at the chance to have it with you if you told her to, as was obvious from the call. It's one of the few ways she can give you something and she truly wants to be your lover. She wants that so much she's very frustrated about being your sister." [[She hadn't been a week ago, before Julia went to work on her.]]

^-- "She's never going to have any boyfriends. She's going to devote herself to you and no other boy will ever come close to you in her eyes. It would be very cruel of you to keep her a virgin all her life, and not to share your love with her as deeply and completely as you can. If you love Carol then you'll love her in every way you can. Luckily I know you love her even more than me..."

"WHAT! NO WAY! You're..."

"STOP, Mark! I'll prove it to you. Remember the very sexy bikini I wore in the hot tub last time?"

"Do I ever! You looked fantastic in it. I almost sorry you're not wearing it now."

"Haha. Thank you. I also remember the look on your face when I walked in. You mouth dropped open and I swear you drooled. I gave your two spins and your eyes were locked on me. You were madly in lust for my poor, little, innocent, but oh-so-well-presented body. Correct?"

"Absolutely! Except the 'innocent' part obviously. But the rest of it is completely true."

"I climbed into the pool and sat in your lap, and you were very happy weren't you."

"Yes, absolutely."

Julia continued, "And then Carol took off her robe, hung it up and got into the pool. Remember that?"

"Umm, yes."

"We were in the pool for maybe thirty or forty five minutes. What did you and I talk about in that time?"

"Umm. I can't remember."

"Where were the catches on my bikini, to undo it?"

"I don't know. I never looked."

"What did my nipples feel like through the material of my top?"

"Um, I don't think I touched them."

"How easy was it for you to get your hand into my bikini bottom?"

"Umm. I didn't try."

"So let me summarize. Your lover, who lets you do anything and everything to her body, turned up in the sexiest bikini you've ever seen, sat on your lap for more than half an hour, but you can't recall talking to me and you didn't once try to touch or kiss me. It's very strange because you were as hard as I've ever felt you, and you normally love to play around when you're turned on. Gee, I wonder what the huge distraction was? It must've been something very powerful because it kept you distracted and rock hard for more than half an hour. I wonder what that was?"

"You know what it was."

"Yes I do, and so do you. What was it, Mark?"

"It was Carol."

"That's only half the answer?"

"It was Carol in that too-tight swimsuit she was wearing."

"Yes. Thanks for admitting it so easily. As blown away by me as you were, the moment you saw Carol's body displayed like that you lost all interest in me, and focused entirely on her. You couldn't keep your eyes off her the whole time."

"I'm very sorry Julia. Please forgive me..."

"Stop! I knew you'd say that, and go on saying it for years probably, unless I stop you. So let me save both of us a great deal of time by asking you one key question: what is my chosen role in life?"

"Umm. I guess, to serve me?"

"Yes. But the more correct answer is: 'To make you happy by serving you.' If my serving you didn't make your happy, I might as well die as I'd no longer have a purpose in life. That sounds dramatic but it's how I feel. More than anything I want you to be happy. Seeing you happy makes me happy. It's my purpose in life. Okay?"

[[Carol, in Julia's eyes, was certainly a very good way of making me happy, and Julia truly did want me to be happy. Because Julia considered me a superhuman with incredible potential and an amazing future that she would share in, Julia was willing to do almost anything to achieve my "happiness", by which Julia mostly thought "success". The type of success Julia was starting to push me toward was what Julia defined as success. The direction of her push isn't clear to you yet, but it will become so soon so I'll let it unfold in its own time. To be fair to Julia, I had no goals of my own so it's no wonder she used her own.]]

I answered, "Yes. You've told me before."

"And now I'm proving it to you. Were you happy when we were in the tub with Carol? And if you answer anything other than 'Good heavens, yes!', then you're not giving the right answer."

"How do you know I was so happy?"

"I was sitting on your lap. Your 'happiness' was sticking into my ass the whole time. I'm delightfully aware how sexy you think I am, but you ignored me so you must have had exceptionally strong feelings for Carol. You think I'm very sexy, but you think Carol is even sexier."

I made a last second attempt to save myself, "It's not really my fault. Her top was nearly falling off the whole time. It was very distracting."

"Shame on you! Carol's top was so tight that there was no chance whatsoever of it coming off in the first five minutes, but you were fixated by her from the instant she took your robe off. It was ME who pushed her straps off her shoulders after five minutes because I could see how much you were enjoying looking at her." [[And to test us too.]]

"You did! I remember that! Why would you do that?"

"What's my purpose in life?"

"Oh, yes: you did it to make me happy."

"Yes. The next time you're in this hot tub with Carol and me, we'll both be naked. You too if you wish. I arranged that to make you happy. Neither you nor Carol would've let me pull Carol's straps all the way down last Wednesday, or would've enjoyed it if I had. Not to mention that the parents wouldn't have approved, although I'm pretty sure my brothers would've, haha. But both you and Carol will now enjoy her going naked. She'll enjoy it because she'll know it pleases you, and she'll be praying it'll lead to sex with you. I don't think I need to tell you why you'll enjoy it.

^-- "There's one thing I need to remind you of. The incident with Carol's sexy swimsuit was last Wednesday. The previous Monday you taught me that you don't have any sexual limits. You're an awesomely good fucking machine. That woke me up to the fact that you're greater than an ordinary man. Remember me telling you that?"

"Yes."

"That was before I knew about your TK! That takes my opinion of you up to a whole new level. I stupidly wouldn't ask you to stop fucking me because I didn't want to share you, but you convinced me 'the hard way' - haha - that you're too much man for one woman. Then you very conveniently showed me on Wednesday who you want your second woman to be: Carol.

^-- "I think she's perfect. You love each other, trust each other, you enjoy each other's company, you lust after each other, you know each other very well, and many other very important relationship prerequisites." [[Carol was perfect for other very important reasons, but Julia omitted mentioning the ones she thought I might object to, such as Carol's subservience to Julia and the genetic possibilities for the next generation.]]

^-- "Your being brother and sister complicates the situation, but it also removes many of the concerns about loyalty, or that one of you is using the other, or many of the other usual relationship worries. All things considered, I'm extremely happy that Carol's going to be your second woman."

"I don't understand 'second woman'. You've obviously got something in mind, which will be interesting because there's no way my sister can be my girlfriend?"

"First let me make sure of something. Right now Carol can be pushed in almost any direction you could want: sexual or non-sexual, serving you or not-serving you, a permanent or temporary relationship, your pure sister or as much your girlfriend as I am, or several other possibilities. I know you desire her, and I know you want to keep her safe from being misused by someone who doesn't care for her, but those are pieces of the picture. We haven't discussed the big picture yet. Given how much you two love each other, I've been operating on the assumption that you want her to be your lover in every sense of the word, but now would be a very good time to confirm that assumption. What do you want, Mark? NOT what you think your parents or society will accept, but what do you WANT?"

"A chance to catch my breath would be good. How could Carol and I possibly be lovers? Mom would have the greatest screaming fit she's ever had. I can't imagine how bad that'd get."

"Listen to me, darling. My job is to help you achieve your goals. If you told me you wanted a house on the moon, I'd do my best to get one for you. I don't expect I'd succeed, but I'd do my best to make it happen, even if it took many years. If you tell me you want Carol as your lover, I'll do my best to get her for you. How far I get and how long it takes me is something I don't know yet. I agree it's not easy, but that's why you've got me on the job, haha. All I want from you now is for you to tell me what your goal for Carol is?"

"This is serious stuff, Julia. What you're talking about could disrupt all our lives big time."

"Your life is going to be full of very big decisions. You're going to be a very powerful and important man. I agree this is a big decision, but you can't run away from it just because it's big. Carol's relationship with you, and effectively the direction of her life, is up in the air at the moment. It has to come down somewhere, and that's your choice. It'd be cruel to leave her dangling the way she is now for long, and she is going to come down in one direction soon. She wants you to decide her fate and she's far too vulnerable to let anyone else have that much control over her. It's your relationship with her that's at stake, so it's best if you decide."

"I wish you hadn't created this situation. I never wanted you to put Carol in a situation where she's dangling the way..."

"Fine. That's what I'll do."

"Huh? What do you mean?"

"Before I started dangling her, Carol was your sister and nothing else, so I'll push her back into that position. Then life will carry on just as before. I hope whatever guy first gets Carol's loyalty is not screwing up her head just so he can screw her body."

"Ahh Julia, I didn't mean..."

"I know. What you meant was that you wanted to avoid having to make a decision, even if some of the outcomes could make you and your sister very happy. You prefer to achieve nothing than be forced to make a decision. Have I described what you meant correctly?" Julia smiled at me in a way that meant, "We both know I'm right, we both know you're a wimp, and I love you."

I took a deep breath in preparation for having to face the decision. Julia wasn't going to let me wiggle out of it, which I now realized was a stupid thing for me to have wished for. "Okay, you're right that what I said was stupid. To be fair to me - because someone should be - you've hit me with a lot of stuff and it's scarily serious stuff. I understand that the direction of Carol's life is in the balance at the moment, and that I have to decide which way it goes. I've heard people say on TV that 'not deciding is deciding.' Now I know EXACTLY what that means!"

"That's right. You have power over Carol. Not because you deliberately sought it, or even because I've grabbed it for you over the last few days, but because of Carol's subservience and her deciding to love you as much as she does. I've heard Mom say hundreds of times that with power comes responsibility. If you do nothing, then one day Carol will meet a man who knows how to manipulate her to do as he wishes. If something bad happens to her that you could've stopped, then that would be your responsibility. You're responsible for not making a decision just as much as for making one. That's because responsibility doesn't come from decisions but from power. Carol's love for you has given you power over her, and you can't run away from it. All you can do is fail her by refusing to make necessary decisions."

"I've heard those words before but they've never made as much sense to me as they do now. I understand that whether or not Carol is 'dangling' isn't the issue..."

"That's right. What I've done is increase your options, which is always a good thing. So let's get back to my questions: what do you want to achieve with Carol?"

"Ahh. I mostly want her to have a happy life..."

"Good, that's what I thought. That's the way I'm already going. In that case, can you please restrain yourself from having sex with Carol yet. You're the boss so you can if you insist, but my way will be much more meaningful for her, so she'll be happier in the long run. Is that okay?"

"I must be getting a little bit better at this because this time I know you're deliberately pulling my leg by not telling me what 'Carol having a happy life' means in concrete terms. Exactly what are you trying to achieve?"

"You know Carol well enough to know what would make her happiest."

"To be my girlfriend?"

"Close, but not what I'm intending to do."

"Ahh. Girlfriend with benefits, I meant. That phone call taught me that she wants to have sex with me."

"Yes. I was assuming that 'girlfriend' meant with sex. A girlfriend would have to be crazy not to have sex with you, and I'm sure Carol isn't going to be crazy. I've seen how much you're attracted to her so sex is clearly going to happen, but there's something that'd make her happier even than being your girlfriend-with-sex."

"Hmm. I heard you calling her our 'Serving Girl'. Is that what you mean?"

"No, I mean wife."

"WHAT! Carol can't be my WIFE! She's my sister for goodness sake!"

"I'm aware of that. I didn't say it'd be easy, I just said that's what she'd like the most. I know how much you love her, so I figured you wouldn't object to the possibility. Let me explain what I've got in mind otherwise we'll waste a lot of time on misapprehensions."

"Okay."

"On Thursday, when you show her your TK, I'm going to have a type of marriage ceremony for the THREE of us. I'm even going to get three rings, although I only thought of that and some related ideas when we were having our shakes in town today. At the conclusion of the ceremony - as part of it really, to consummate it - you will take Carol's virginity. Then the three of us will consider ourselves married to each other.

^-- "It will have to differ from a normal marriage in several respects. Carol and I will be your and each other's wives. You will be our 'Lord'. Not our husband because the modern belief is that husbands and wives are equal. That's unsuitable for us.

^-- "The family conference I asked my parents for tonight is to set everything up. I want them to witness the middle part of our marriage ceremony, by which I mean after the TK demonstration to Carol, but before the consummation. It'll include an exchange of vows and rings, and as much of the normal wedding process as possible to make it more real for us. I'll get Mom to help with all of that, and she'll also help to get birth control pills for Carol. Dad will..."

"Hang on! You mean your parents will know Carol and I will be having sex?"

"Yes. It's not the sort of thing they can miss, given how good you are at it. The three of us are going to be coming out of the bedroom with 'we've just been fucked' looks on our faces. Knowing you, Carol and I will be walking gingerly. Not to mention the state of the sheets afterward. Obviously my parents need to know. I'm also going to get Dad to buy us a bigger bed, to be delivered after this Wednesday so your parents won't see it and be curious about my bed getting much larger at the same time you and Carol start spending time here. I'll make sure that it gets delivered and set up Thursday during the day so we can christen it by your taking Carol for the first time."