Chapter 2

The next morning Becky woke me up, and for a few seconds i wondered if it had been a dream, but somehow i knew it had happened. We showered, got dressed, and kind of planned our day, and then went downstairs.

As we went down the stairs i sort of got that scared but excited feeling again, that nervous anticipation of what might happen. When we went into the kitchen we saw a note from her dad telling us he would be back at noon, so we made some breakfast and watched some television, pretty much killing the rest of the morning.

When he arrived home at noon he took us to the local diner for lunch, and nothing strange happened between us. I was hoping that he'd give me a knowing smile or some kind of sign to me that he remembered us being together last night.

After lunch we stopped by the video store and grabbed some movies, then hit the grocery store for some stuff to eat and drink. We all helped unload the groceries, made some snacks and then hit the living room for movies. Becky took the recliner, so I sat on the sofa with her dad. I kept glancing at him for a signal or a sign from him, but nothing.

The movie had been going for about an hour when Becky paused it to go to the bathroom. I watched her walk out the room and the very minute we heard the bathroom door close he slid over and kissed me. His kiss was deep and lingering, and it felt nice and warm. His arms pulled me closer to him and i eagerly allowed him to pull me closer.

He finally broke the kiss and told me, "Sheena tonight, i'll try to get find way to take you home by myself, okay baby?" As we heard the toilet flush and separated ourselves i quickly told him, "okay." When Becky came back in the living room everything was back to normal, and we continued watching the movie, or at least i tried to. As I watched the movie all i was thinking of was tonight. I wondered what he was planning, what he was expecting of me, what was he wanting to do, and how.

I started wondering if this was something i really wanted, or if it felt right to me with Becky being my best friend and all. I started thinking about all the fantasies and dreams i've had about men, and what it would be like to finally be with a man. I wondered if he would be good, and i desperately wondered if i would be good enough to make him happy.

As all these thoughts played through my mind the more nervous i got. I'd catch a glimpse of Becky and wondered how much it would hurt her if i did anything with her dad. I'd then catch him looking over at me and started wondering about all the wonderful feelings i had for him, and about his beautiful kisses. Something finally clicked in my mind, and I convinced myself that i'd be with him if he wanted. I'd been dreaming about the day i'd finally make love to a man, and i wasn't going to pass up the chance to be with him. I began trying to remember everything i'd ever heard or read about sex.

I hoped he'd have condoms because i didn't. I didn't even know where to get any. I thought of my other friends. I remembered hearing Carla talk about her boyfriend licking her pussy, and i wondered if he'd want to do that to me. I thought of Renee Underwood, and how she had been caught sucking her boyfriend in an upstairs bedroom at a party, and how they had said she swallowed his sperm. I wondered if he would expect me to do that. I thought of Darci who had told us that it hurts and how she had bled. I thought of Lisa and how she got pregnant. I even thought of Diana who pretty much had sex every weekend and was kind of labeled as the local slut.

I thought of so many of my friends but i always came back to Becky. I wondered what she would do if she was in my place. I remembered her telling me how hot my brother was and how she had heard some things about him. I remembered her saying how she wanted him. I thought to myself that if Becky wanted to be with my brother she shouldn't be upset with me for wanting her dad. She'd want me to be with someone nice, someone she'd like I kept telling myself. As we watched a couple more movies i began watching the clock. I knew I was going home tonight, and if he wanted to do anything he'd have to make some time for that. I almost jumped when I heard his voice. He began telling Becky that he'd take me back to town by himself because he had some work he needed to go do at his friend's shop on his truck, and he didn't know how late he'd be. She argued a little and then finally gave up. I gave her a sad face, and turned back to watch the rest of the movie. I noticed it was just starting to get a little darker outside when he told me he was going to go change, and he'd take me back to town in about a half hour. I was almost shaking, and I knew deep down my moment of deciding would soon be here.