I think I was ten years old when it all started. My brother who was 14 at the time called me into the bathroom and closed the door behind me. He said "wanna see something?" and pulled out his huge erect cock. I was shocked and went to leave the room but he stopped me and put my hands on his penis and said "feel it". I just stood there stunned and then started to stroke him. After a few minutes, I got scared and made my way out of the bathroom.

A few days later I was down in the basement sorting out some laundry when my brother came up behind me and pushed his had cock up against my ass. He rubbed my breasts with his hands and continued to grind into me, I tried to pull away but he held me to him. I began to get excited and let him touch me. He moved one hand to the crotch of my shorts and started rubbing me while still rubbing and pinching my nipples through my tee-shirt. I felt myself responding to his fingers and arched my pussy towards his hands. He slipped his fingers in to the leg of my shorts rubbing my pussy with strong rough strokes. He slams his finger into my pussy and starts pushing it in and out. It stings a bit but I keep pushing against him moving my hips with the motion of his hand and fingers. He pushes me forward onto a pile of laundry and pulls my shorts down past my knees. He turns me over and leans down and pulls my shorts totally off me. He then pushes up my tee-shirt and exposes my buds. He starts to kiss my nipple and then suck on it. His hand is also back at my pussy pushing around and poking at my clit. Spreading my legs he leans his head down to my exposed pussy and begins to lick me. I have no idea what he is doing but lay back and let him play with me. He starts to finger me using two fingers this time. I love the feel of this and I know this is wrong but I am so turned on I just let him work at me. The next thing I know I feel something brush against my face, I open my eyes to his hard cock just inches away from my lips. He tells me to suck on it. Fascinated and excited I take him into my mouth. I suck him and lick him. He is moaning and telling me how good it feels. I suck him for a while more then he grabs my head and holds my face and comes in a loud moan into my mouth. He pulls back from me. He hands me my shirt and asks me if I am ok. I tell him yes. My pussy has a weird burning feeling but nothing too terrible. We don't say anything else and he just goes back upstairs.

We have these encounters many times in the next few months. He seemed to find me when I was alone and just touch me. We never really talk about it and I never tell him no. One day he asks me if had gotten my period yet. I told him no. He startles me as he grabs me and pulls at my clothes. He seems in frenzy and is rough as he pulls down my shorts I am startled and a bit scared. He has never been this rough with me before. My brother then grabs at my shirt pulls it over my head and rips my shorts and underwear off my legs. He lays me back and rubs my pussy hard and with rough fingers. His force scares me but I also feel myself get wet and excited. The feel of his fingers jamming in and out of me makes my pussy get wetter and wetter. He pushes me down and lies on top of me. I feel his hand as he guides his hard cock into my pussy. I feel him push into with one quick jerk. It hurts and I feel a stinging inside me. He starts to jab at me. I feel him pushing at me with a hard steady pace. I know this is bad but don't care I want this. I push back at him thrusting myself up to him meeting his moves with my own. My brother starts to bite my nipples while pushing his cock in and out of me. I feel my self get warm, then I he just goes nuts, and starts ramming me with so much force, he knocks the wind out of me. I gasp and try to catch my breath but his pounding keeps me from getting any good air. I gasp for breath feel him jerk inside of me and shoot him hot come into my young almost 11 year old pussy. He pumps a few more times, and breathing hard lies on top of me. His cock still hard, is pulsing inside me. We lay there neither of us move. He then rolls off to the side and says to me, "that's what we are going to do from now on." And grabs his clothes and walks away.

For the next few years my brother uses my body when ever he could get me alone. He would lure me into old garages or empty cars. Or wake me up in the middle of the night and tell me to go into the basement.

When I turned 13 he asked me if I wanted to hang out with him and some of his friends. I was flattered that my big brother wanted to bring me around his friends. We ended up in a basement family room. There was paneling on the walls two large couches against the walls and a big open carpeted area in the middle of the room. The stereo was playing and there was a heavy cloud of smoke in the air. The room smelled like pot and cigarettes. I had smoked cigarettes before but never did any type of drugs. There were also bottles of bear and other liquor on the end tables. There must have been about 15 to 20 people there from what I could tell they were all guys. My brother said I could get high and handed me a joint. Wanting to be cool I quickly took it from him and breathed in a huge lung full of smoke. Holding it in as long as I let out my breath. My bother urged me to smoke some more. I ended up smoking the whole fat joint by myself there seemed more than enough to go around. The air was so think with smoke all you had to do was breath in hard to get a buzz. Soon I was so wasted; I just sat on the couch and stared.