Copyrighted to the author© 2004

I can't forget it. I wish that I could or that things could go back to the way they were before. Every time I look at her I can't help thinking about what she's done. She doesn't know that I know. I wish things could go back to the way they were, but I also wish that I had a turn.

3 Months ago...

"Dude let me borrow that porn where that chick gets doubled in her cunt."

"Sure, it's in the closet" Jason said only half paying attention as he fought is way through the level of Zombies that attacked him on the TV.

I rummaged through his closet looking for his porn box. "Hmm what are these?" I said holding a pair of burgundy silk panties.

"Dude give me those." He said leaping off the bed and snatching them from my hand.

"Calm down man, what the fuck."

"Move I'll get a the tape." He said pushing me aside.

"So who's panties?"

He paused a moment half in the closet before turning around and handing me the tape.

"I can't tell you," he said with a slight nervousness in his voice.

"Why?"

"Those are the rules. I can't tell anyone," he said.

"So they're definitely not Michelle's then. Huh?"

Grinning he replied, "Nah."

"Come on dude, what's up?"

"Ok look, I'll tell you but you got to keep it a secret," he said picking up the controller and sitting once again on the bed.

"Sure thing," I said sitting beside him.

Letting out a breath he started.

"A few weeks ago I sorta hooked up with this woman."

"No shit!" I replied excitedly. Neither of us had had sex up to this point in our lives, and the fact that he was getting some action was exciting. Real details!

"It's not all that you think. I mean I didn't fuck her or anything."

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"You promise not to say anything?" he looked truly worried and I knew that there was no way he was making this up.

"Yea I promise, I wont tell anyone."

Expelling a breath he said, "Ok a few weeks ago I got a hand job from this woman. She fucking awesome. She's so hot. But she said that if I tell anyone she never do it again."

"You fucking bastard." I said elbowing him.

"What?"

"Who is she?"

"I can't tell you. I'm not fucking it up."

"Dick. So what about Michelle?"

"Ahh she ain't putt'n out. I like her and all but this lady is fucking smoking."

"How old is she?" I asked.

"She's like our parent's age."

"Dude you got a hand job from hot older lady? You fucking asshole."

Laughing he said, "Yea it's pretty unreal."

"Dick" I said putting a new game in.

"So what does she look like?"

"She pretty hot. She's got brown hair it's cut short. She's got these big tits. God they're fucking beautiful. When she jerks me they fucking sway and jiggle it's so fucking cool."

"Does she get naked?" I asked a little dry mouthed.

"Nah, the first time she had all her clothes on but she let me feel her up. The second time she took her shirt and bra off and she let me play with them for a bit."

"How many times has she done it?" I asked adjusting my now hard cock.

"Just the twice but I know she'll keep doing it."

"Have you seen her cunt?"

"Na, she says that we can't fuck because she doesn't want to get in trouble. She might though." The last he added quickly as almost a rebuttal to his previous statement.

"You lucky bastard."

We both just laughed.

"So did you finish when she did it?" I asked.

"Oh man. Both times I blew the biggest load ever. I think you cum more when it's with a chick than when you just jerk yourself."

"So what does she do with it?"

"The first time it all just landed on the floor. But the second time.ah man she let me blast those big tits."

"Fuck off."

"Dude I'm serious. I covered those fucking tits." He replied excitedly. I knew that I wasn't the only one getting excited by out conversation.

"Ask her if she'll do me."

"I can't, nobody is suppose to know."

"Just tell her you got a friend and he's horny," I pleaded.

"I'll try."

"Cool. I'm jett'n, gunna go take care some business," I said waiving the tape.

"I'll have it back in a few days."

"You can keep it man. I don't think that I'll need it anymore," he said with a mocking grin.

"Lucky asshole," I said swinging my backpack over my shoulder.

"Later."

"Later."

On the walk home I thought more about Jason and his hand job story. "Man that fucking lucky bastard. He's got a hot girl friend and he's been getting hand jobs from some hot assed grown woman with huge tits." I tried to form a mental picture of her in my mind and my dick jerked him my pants.

"Ahh, I hope nobody's home," I said quickening my pace.

Nobody was home when I got back so I ran to my room and popped in the tape. I jerked myself three times before my mom got home. All the while thinking about "her" as the porn tape played.

At dinner I couldn't tare my eyes from my moms big tits wondering if she would ever jerk a guy my age off. My mom has been one of my jerk off fantasies for a while now. I first started looking at her "like that" after Jason and I found one of her bras in the bathroom. It was all lacy and white and smelled lightly of perfume. I still have that bra. It doesn't smell like perfume any more and it's also stained yellowish brown from all the cum I've dumped on it. Ohhh how I'd love to fuck you mom.

"Anything wrong honey?" she asked.

"Ahh no why?"

"You seem distracted," she said with concern.

"Nope I'm fine," I replied taking a spoonful of soup.

"Ok.how was your day?"

And on went the family talk. No real questions and no real answers.

That night before I went to bed I got her bra out. I hadn't used it in a long time but after dinner I couldn't stop thinking about her tits and needed to jerk off again.

A few days later I went shopping with my dad for shoes. When I got back Jason was there.

"Dude what's up?" I asked

"Nothing came over to see what you were up to."

"I had to get some dress shoes for my aunt Peggy's wedding. Come on lets go to my room."

I threw my stuff down and turned on the TV.

"What's up?" I asked.

"Nothing."

"You get any more action form that lady?"

"SHHHHHH your parents might hear."

"Ok well did you?" I said whispering.

"Lets go to my house."

"OK."

"Mom, Dad I'm going over to Jason's," I called out.

"Ok be back for dinner," my mom said coming down the hall from her room.

"Oh jees mom you scared me?" I said holding my chest.

Stopping she looked at me and Jason and said, "Why were you doing something you weren't suppose to?"

"No I just didn't expect you to come creeping up on me like that."

"Be back for dinner," she said proceeding down the hall.

Once outside I nudged Jason in the ribs and said, "So?"

He smiled, "Yea what?"

"You get any more action from her or what?"

"Sure did," he said with a grin.

"So what happened?"

"Well after I told you about me and her I was looking for a little relief myself. So I called her."

He paused for a terribly long time.

"And?"

"Well she and I went for a little ride in her car out to Glenn's Pond."

"Did you fuck her?"

"No she keeps telling me we can't because of her husband and kid."

"She's got a kid? Do we know them?"

"Sorta" he said noncommittally.

"What do you mean sorta?"

"I'm mean you want to her about her or her kid?" he asked.

"So what happened?"

"She parked the car and we made out for a bit. Dude I was palming her cunt while we were kissing and she was really getting into it."

"What did it feel like? Was she wet? Was she shaved?"

"Dude she was real hot. Her fucking panties were drenched. I got them at my house."

"Ahh dude you got to let me see them."

"Sure" she said with a smile.

"So she starts unbuckling my pants and fishing out my rod. It was fucking unbelievable. Out there in the open where anyone could have seen she whips it out and spits on it, then starts to slowly jerk me off."

"Ahh FUCK that must have been so cool."

"It was man. It was so hot that I blew quick."

"Ahh shit that sucks" I said consolingly

"Not really dude. When I busted she clamped her mouth on me and let me fill her mouth."

"No fucking way!"

"Dude it was awesome," he said reminiscing.

We went inside and he showed me the panties that she had worn. They smelled like a woman. Faintly of perfume and something else. Something that sent a tingle down to my dick.

"Hot huh."

"Dude let me use them."

"No, your not gunna fucking nut on them," he said making a swipe for the panties.

"I wont I promise I just want to use them."

"Alright you got to do it here though and there better not be any cum of them."

I bolted to the bathroom and locked the door. I pressed her panties to my nose and inhaled. God she must he so hot. I thought sitting on the toilet and freeing my cock. I was so hot that I shot my load quick. It blasted out of me with so much force that it hit the shower curtain more than three feet away. My orgasm was so powerful that I saw lights and slumped to the floor in a daze. I must have dosed off because when I heard Jason at the door telling me my mom was on the phone it hurt my legs to stand up. All the blood left my legs and left me with pins and needles.

"Dude what the fuck have you been doing in there?" he asked covering the phone.

"What?" I asked still in a daze.

"You where in there for like a half hour. You better not have gotten anything on them." The last more quietly as he handed me the phone and took his prize panties.

"Yea mom?"

"It's time to come home for dinner," she said.

"Ok I'm leaving now."

I hung up and walked to Jason's room.

"What the fuck took you so long?" he asked

"Dude I think I feel asleep."

"Ha that's funny."

"I got to go dinner."

"Later."

"Later," I replied as I left.

At dinner I was so hungry. It was like when I came all the energy had left me.

"Your sure hungry tonight," my mom commented.

"Yea I'm starved," I said with food in my mouth

"You want more?" she said partially rising.

"Yes please."

When she got up I noticed a more than usually giggle of her tits. My groin stirred but didn't have much life. My body was more interested in food right now I guessed. I watched her as she came out of the kitchen. Her big tits swayed and bounced. My dick was starting to get hard again. God I'd love to blast a load on a big-titted bitch like her. Lucky fucking bastard Jason's was getting a big-titted mom to jerk him off. I quickly finished and went to my room to relieve the pressure.

Two days later I stopped by Jason's house after school. He hadn't been in that day and some of our teachers made me take work home to him. I also managed to set myself up on a date with Michelle. I figured that since he wasn't doing anything I might as well.

I knocked on his door and after a while he answered.

"Hey dude I got your homework," I said.

"Gee thanks," he said sarcastically.

"Hey I was forced to bring it," I said defensively handing over his assignments.

"Where were you today anyway?"

"Having a pussy eating lesson." He said with that cocky grin I was coming to hate.

"What?"

"I was chatting with my big-titted girl on the phone last night and she asked if I could come over today. So I skipped and went over her house."

I was stunned. Man he was a fucking lucky bastard.

"Go ahead rub it in," I said, "But I got a date with Michelle."

"Who cares I got sucked off twice and got to eat her pussy." He said rubbing it in.

As we went up to his room we continued our conversation.

"Dude you're a bastard," I said wishing it were me getting blowjobs from this woman.

"Ha ha," he said with mocking laughter.

"Ain't gonna be long till I finally stick it in her either" he said as he made pumping motions with his hips as if he was fucking doggy style.

"How's that? I thought she was against that."

"She is but I think she's having second thoughts I mean she had me skip school and go over to her house while her husband and kid are away. She'll give in."

"Asshole."

"Hey your trying to hook it up with my girlfriend so fair is fair." He said with an even bigger grin.

We played videogames for a few hours and before the call. His phone rang and we pause the game. It was one of those moments in life where things happen a little slower. I could feel my heart beat in my chest as he spoke on the phone and instantly I knew it was "her". I didn't need the sarcastic grin or the added humping motions of earlier to understand, but Jason provided them anyway. Most of the conversation was whispered but I got that they were going to have a rendezvous today.

After he hung up the phone he gave me that taunting smile and said "Dude I got to go take care of my woman."

"You're a bitch," I replied.

"Yea, I know it sucks being a stud sometimes but hey."

He lead me to the door and I asked "Dude you gotta let me see this chick."

"No way man. I ain't gunna fuck things up."

"Come on dude I wont say anything."

"No chance" he said with some finality.

I walked home a little glumly and was happy to see that no one was home. A note from my mom was on the refrigerator saying that she had gone to the store real quick and that she'd be back soon.

Thinking about Jason's girl I started to get a little hard. So I decided to take care of things before mom got home. Walking down the hall I began unbuckling my pants when I had a great idea. I strolled into m parent's room and found my moms dirty laundry. I searched quickly and found a pair of her panties. I held them to my nose and inhaled her aroma. My cock was pulsing steadily as it wavered in front of me.

"Oh mom!" I moaned reveling in her odor. I couldn't help my self and began to suck on the crotch of her panties. I swear that I could taste her cunt. I lay back on their bed and rubbed her panties down my chest and stomach before wrapping her panties around my cock. I gripped my hard on and squeezed.

"Ahh fuck," I moaned out as the material bit into my cock and a pearl of precum oozed out my hole. I lay back on my parent's bed and began to jerk off. Quickly I could feel the pressure in my balls building and I backed down. I wanted it to last. I imagined Jason's older woman. Her tits jiggling and as she jerked me in her car.

"Oh yea suck it baby," thinking of her mouth descending on my cock.

"Suck it, suck it baby and drink my cum," I called out. I was lost to my fantasy and couldn't hold back any longer. With a loud grunt I ejaculated high into the air.

"Huh". My cum landed on my chest, stomach and some even made it to my face. It was one on my most powerful orgasms of my young life, and I was amazed how far I had shot too. I let my hard on shrink and lounged on their bed daydreaming wondering about what real pussy feels like. I must have laid there a bit too long because I heard my front door open and my mom call out to me.