Tamara and the Four-letter Word
by Wanderer
Copyright© 2012 by Wanderer
Coming of Age Story: Tamara is coming of age and learning about a four-letter word. Single Ship pilots are a strange breed; not really anti-social but unsocial. They can get by just fine for months and even years on end with only voices on their radios for company. Every now and then, though, they are faced with things outside their experience.
Tags: Science Fiction
Tamara O’Malley looked around the ballroom, wishing she didn’t have to be there. Her father, she thought, wasn’t deliberately being a pain; to him, this was mother’s milk. The stuff of life itself.
A grand ballroom; there was none finer anywhere. A clear area the size of a World Cup soccer pitch, under a dome filled with stars and planets, plus the occasional moon. Chandeliers provided light ... chandeliers that would have been the envy of any king or potentate of times gone past.
Tamara glanced down at her dress. Her father didn’t stint; to him, this was all important. That in both senses of the phrasing.
It was a pretty dress; it suited her well. Of course, it was a committee decision, where the only vote Tamara had was the final veto. Too much work and devotion had gone into making it; of course, she couldn’t say no to the finished product of all that effort. She knew they used it against her, but what could she do?
At one end of the huge room, a full orchestra played all sorts of music. It was whimsical, one would think, unless one knew that nothing happened at a function like this without it being planned, planned, and then planned over again. It was a good orchestra, none better on Earth. Which meant, none better, anywhere.
The main area was filled with hundreds, perhaps a thousand, dancing couples. It was a simple waltz, nothing complex. Not nearly as complicated as some of the dances that would come later, the dances aimed at the true aficionados of evenings like this. Tamara would be gone by then.
Until two years ago, Tamara had been presented, along with a dozen others, from the balcony, briefly, shortly after nine, a full hour after the ball started.
Then the evening came when a handsome young officer had appeared and offered Tamara his arm.
She had been furious, but there was no way she could take out her anger on the young man. He was, after all, following orders. How was the young man to know she despised him for doing what he was told? And despised herself for the same reason?
She had no choice in this. None, none at all. She’d tried when she was younger to avoid having to attend. That had resulted in more than a little unpleasantness from her father, right up to his invoking Tamara’s mother.
Around the ballroom’s periphery were hundreds of tables, three and four deep, close to the walls, where those not dancing could sit and talk. For all of that, few seats were filled this early -- most of the guests were talking in groups here and there spread through the vast space.
Tamara ran an eye over the crowd. There were more uniforms than usual, so something military as a theme. Still, there was a solid core of formal evening wear, including more than four of five of the women. A few feet away, her escort for the evening was talking with a half dozen uniformed contemporaries.
Tamara smiled to herself. Obviously, the word on Tamara was out. She would find a dark corner and stay there until the presentations, and then as soon afterwards as decently possible, she would ask to leave. The young officer would escort her out, and that was that for him. There was nothing for him to do after that. She never danced, she never strayed, and she always left early. What twenty-something gallant young officer would want to spend the evening with a “sulking” fourteen-year-old? None. Not since that first night. And even then, he’d not been terribly attentive after the first hour or so.
Something moved in the corner of her vision, and instinctively, Tamara looked.
Instinct, her father had told her, will keep you going far longer than you might think. Trust it. At first, few things her father had told her made sense; fewer still did Tamara feel the least desire to obey. Still, that seemed like common sense. Twice in her lifetime, girls she knew had been killed or kidnapped; there had been a half dozen other attempts. It didn’t bear thinking about. But you had to think about it, anyway.
It was a young man, not much older than her escort. Except he was wearing a tuxedo instead of a uniform.
Tamara’s brow furrowed. Well, others were wearing tuxedos, instead of morning coats, her father included. But this looked like a cheap rental. And his tie was tied wrong, and his cummerbund was upside down. Tamara giggled to herself. Wasn’t flying the flag upside down supposed to be a distress signal? Could this man be clever enough to do something that clever?
He looked ordinary. Even as Tamara watched, she saw him run a finger inside his collar, between his neck and the badly tied tie. It itched; she imagined it would. And if anything, he was in a darker spot than she was, obviously looking at the ongoing ball with considerable nervousness, no more desirous of being noticed than Tamara.
Tamara glanced at her oblivious escort, then around to the other man with her. He stood as he always did, solid as a rock, imposing and unspeaking. Hans Dieter Friedrich. She’d known him for years; since she could remember anything at all, in fact.
Tamara caught his eye, nodded in the direction she was going to go. Hans made no sign he’d seen her, but then, he wouldn’t have shown an expression if someone was cutting off his leg. Tamara walked ten steps and stood next to the young man with the cheap tuxedo. “You tied the tie wrong,” she told him.
He looked at her and blinked, obviously startled. “Not like the bloody booger came with bleedin’ instructions.” His voice was gravel, unlike the dulcet tones of so many here. His words were like that too. A mixture: an American accent and British idiom.
Tamara took an extra step and fetched a chair. At five foot one, she was vertically challenged in dealing with most adults; this one was taller than most. She stepped up, looked him in the eye. “Hold still,” she commanded.
Behind her, she sensed Hans do that and grinned to herself. Oh, how efficiently you have trained your men, father!
She undid the bow tie, tied it right, and then stepped down from her perch.
“Thanks, lass,” the man said, running his finger around his collar again. “Aye, much better.”
“I’m Tamara,” she told him. Should she mention the cummerbund?
“Ivan,” he replied. “Ivan Kruger.” He grinned at her. “Thanks again, lass.” He waved around the floor. “What’s a smart girl like you doing at a thing like this?”
She tipped her head slightly to one side. “Practice.”
He laughed and flipped a thumb upwards. “Ah yes, practice! Obviously, I’m in need of it.” His eyes went out to the dance floor. “Dear Lord, spare me more than this once!”
“I should be so lucky,” Tamara muttered.
He grinned. “You’ve done this before?”
Tamara nodded.
Ivan waved at the dance floor. “And that?”
“Not my favorite thing.”
The young man nodded. “Nor mine. However, my lady tells me if I do not dance at least once with someone I don’t know, she will supply me with two dozen partners. Not one of which, she avers, understands the word ‘no.’”
Tamara was taken a little aback; sure, at fourteen, you were nominally supposed to understand things like that, but she’d led a sheltered life.
Quite suddenly, she realized that the young man had no idea what he’d just said or who he’d said it to.
The young Mr. Kruger looked at her. “You’ve saved me once, tonight. I don’t suppose you’d like to do it again?” He waved at the dance floor, where the latest waltz had just ended.
Tamara contemplated it for just a second. Why not? It’s not like Hans would be far away!
“Please,” he added, looking helpless.
Tamara held her hand out, and he took it, and then they started walking forward towards the other dancers.
Tamara looked at Hans, nodding at the dance floor. She saw the widening of Hans’ eyes, the glance at the young officer escort. Oh my! Tamara thought, a scandal! If one hand hadn’t been otherwise occupied, she’d have clapped with glee.
Even if her partner was a murderer or kidnapper, it would almost be worth it! And if he was simply as uncomfortable as she, then this would be the most fun she’d ever had!
They walked past the young lieutenant, who, at first, didn’t understand. Then he did and flushed bright scarlet. Well, yes, if he had asked, Tamara would have said no. But then, Tamara thought, he hadn’t asked. Never assume, Lieutenant. Her father said that a couple of times a day.
They reached the other dancers and stood silently for a moment, waiting for the music. Tamara was startled when Ivan let go of her hand and then yelled loudly. “Jocelyn!”
He was waving to someone, some distance away. Dozens of people were looking at them, and then they took a second look. Without hesitation, Tamara reached up and took Ivan’s hand again.
“It’s impolite to let go,” Tamara said softly. “And a real screw-up to raise your voice.”
He laughed. “That’s me. A real screw-up. You have no idea.”
Tamara’s eyes lighted on an older woman and her very handsome husband making their way towards them. Oh! Jocelyn? Tamara blinked. That Jocelyn?
“Your lady?” Tamara tried not to gargle in amazement.
“Well, figuratively, of course. Robin and Jocelyn are my hosts.”
The older couple stopped in front of them, both Jocelyn and her husband looking at Ivan.
“Robin, Jocelyn, this is Tamara. Tamara, Robin and Jocelyn Templeton, my hosts,” Ivan said.
Tamara held her hand out quickly to Jocelyn. “Pleased to meet you, Ms. Templeton,” she nodded at Jocelyn Templeton’s husband. “Dr. Templeton,” a slight pause. “I’m Tamara.”
“Of course, dear,” Jocelyn said, a grin on her face. What was so funny?
Jocelyn turned to Ivan. “Are you really going to dance, Ivan?”
“I’ve been practicing this evolution for three days. Now or never!”
Tamara wondered about that. Evolution? That was an odd term to apply to dancing.
Still, the music began and they started dancing. It was clear, Tamara thought, that Ivan had done this before, but not often. Was that what he was talking about? That he’d spent three days learning how to dance? Why call it an evolution? Sure, that was an alternate meaning in the dictionary, but it was just a little obsolete. Then her mind settled on the meaning it had to be. Ship maneuvers were called evolutions. That led to an interesting question. Was Ivan Kruger a sailor? What kind?
The dance ended; he was, Tamara thought, not a natural dancer. Yet, there was something about the way he danced, something different than anyone she’d ever danced with before. It wasn’t just inexperience.
“Again,” Tamara said without thinking.
He looked at her and then grinned. “I’m hoist by my own petard; I asked you, I can’t hardly refuse if you ask back.” Tamara saw the young officer a few feet away, looking stricken. Tamara found Hans with her eyes, glanced at the young officer. Hans nodded and moved to talk to him. Ah, good!
The next waltz started, and the first time they came together, Ivan grinned at her. “You’re someone, aren’t you?” His eyes flicked to Hans.
“Of course, Tamara,” she said, not wanting to go there.
“Sure, Tamara. With a young officer who looks you punched him in the gut and a guy I sure hope isn’t going to stop me on the way out.”
“Have you danced with Mrs. Templeton?” Tamara asked, as guilelessly as she could.
Ivan blushed. “No. That would be like dancing with my mother. It would take two men like that,” he nodded at Hans, “to make me.”
“You said she was your lady, your escort for tonight.”
“I meant she and Robin are my hosts.”
“Well, the pale young man is my escort.” She looked Ivan in the eye. “If he’d asked me to dance, I’d have said no. But he never asked.”
“Never assume,” Ivan said quietly.
Tamara tried not to jump; she’d thought that herself not so long ago.
“Yes, never assume.” Tamara paused. “Ivan, you have to ask Jocelyn to dance.”
He looked at her for a long moment before he shrugged and nodded.
They danced without speaking until the end of the piece. Then Ivan turned and faced her, softly clapping his hands. Tamara blushed, but knew it was something he should do. She did a small curtsey, as she should.
As if on cue, Mrs. Templeton appeared, smiling at Ivan. “Sandra will be thrilled that her lessons were of use.”
Then another cue: one of the functionaries appeared. “Captain Kruger, you should go to the dais now.” The man saw Tamara, nodded to her. “You too, Tamara.”
“You too?” Ivan asked Tamara, startled.
“You too?” Tamara said at the same time, equally startled. “Captain?”
He shook his head. “A convenience title.”
Tamara was surprised again when Jocelyn Templeton reached out and took Ivan’s shoulder in her hand. “Not the times it counted, Ivan. Thanks.” Tamara could see that Jocelyn Templeton’s knuckles were white with the pressure she was exerting with her grip on his arm.
Robin Templeton reached out and touched Ivan’s other arm. “Thanks doesn’t hardly cover it. Not the first time, or the second.”
“Please, we mustn’t be late,” the functionary murmured. But he was powerless to hurry them along.
Ivan turned to Tamara. “I realize everyone will think I’m a perv, but could we walk together?”
Tamara nodded, and they started walking towards the dais, a long way away. They’d hardly started when Tamara took his hand in hers. She felt his grip tighten.
“I’m dead, aren’t I?” he muttered.
“Will it make you feel worse if I tell you my father is up there, watching us?” Tamara nodded at the dais.
Ivan let go of her hand; Tamara took it back again. “Ivan, how much do you know about Common Europe?”
“More than I did a month ago; it still isn’t very much.”
“When we were getting started, we had to merge a lot of laws from a lot of different countries. All sorts of compromises had to be made.”
He didn’t exactly shrug, but for a second he looked at Tamara, instead of the dais.
Tamara stopped. It was like a light shone down on her, spotlighting her. A month, the Templetons, the dais. Oh God! This was the man who’d been Meredith Templeton’s pilot! Dear God in heaven! She’d been more cruel to this man than anyone deserved! She willed herself to walk forward.
“You were saying,” Ivan whispered as they got closer to the assembled high and mighty.
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