Chapter 5

As the weeks went on, Christine didn't eat or talk much. She'd lost weight and her pretty face was so pale. She would think about Janice every single day. Though she fought hard not to keep loving her she couldn't help it. Janice had been the only person that had made her heart melt.

Christine had been getting very sick. The constant throwing up began to worry her. She figured it was just stress from quitting the job she loved and losing the woman of her dreams.

"You're not too well. Why don't you go see a doctor?" Luanne recommended.

It was one late afternoon and they were both sitting down watching a talk show. "That's what you should be doing too," Christine shot back.

Luanne laughed. "We are both stubborn women. But really you are young. I don't want anything bad to happen to you."

"Fine. I'll go tomorrow to the free clinic. I don't have much money to see a doctor."

"You can ask your brother-"

"No!" Christine screamed.

"Ok, fine. No need to get upset," Luanne gasped.

Christine had gone to the free clinic and came back speechless. She cried all day not sure of what to do. David walked into her room that afternoon since Luanne kept telling him to check up on his sister.

"What's wrong now? You still miss that dyke?" He snapped.

Christine lay on her back and wiped her tears. "I'm pregnant."

David's faced turned white. "What? I thought you were on the pill?"

"I've stopped taking the pill because I was so depressed. I hate my life and I hate you."

"Christine, we have to get rid of it," David said desperately.

Christine raised her body up. "I know."

"It would kill mom to know you're pregnant."

"Don't you think I know that?" Christine yelled.

"Shh keep it down. I know a doctor who can do abortions and he'll help you."

"I'm sure you two are very good friends," Christine retorted.

The abortion had been painful both physically and mentally. David carried her from his car to her bed. He lay her down stroking her short hair.

"It might hurt now sis but I'll go away. This was for the better."

Christine sobbed quietly.

"Don't cry sis. You didn't really want to have the baby... did you?"

Christine didn't answer. She felt so much pain that left her speechless.

There was a knock on the door and Luanne walked in.

"Is she ok?"

David stood in front of Luanne. "Yeah mom she's fine. Don't you worry. I'll take care of my sis."

"Aww you're always such a gentleman."

David kissed his mother's forehead and ordered to go to bed.

David sat down next to Christine stroking her hair until she fell asleep.

It took over a week before Christine was finally able to get out of bed and walk around normally. She felt so empty inside. She knew she never wanted her brother's baby, but deep down she wanted it. She really just wanted someone to love and who would love her back.

Luanne seemed to be getting better. She was taking long walks outside and doing her household chores. Christine would help her and had promised her that she'd go back to school next September.

"I'm glad you're going back to school honey. You have no business working yet."

Christine was saddened as a thought of Janice came to her. She remembered their first kiss and how good it felt to be in Janice's arms. Several times she had tried calling Janice but always stopped. She'd passed by her old job and stared out the bus of the city window wondering if Janice was thinking of her.

Christine hoped her heart would be mended as time went by but it didn't seem to be happening. Even after what she went through, David continued raping her at night and Luanne never found out.

It wasn't until one afternoon that everything changed. Christine was busy cleaning out her closet, when she heard a loud scream and a thump. She ran and found her mother on the floor.

"Oh my god!" Christine gasped.

She called an ambulance fearing her mother's life.

"What happened? Where's mom?" David burst into the hospital lobby.

Christine looked up at him with tears in her eyes. "M-mom's passed away."

David's face turned white as a ghost. "What?"

"She had a heart attack."

"But she was young. That can't be right!" David yelled.

"David, she's gone. Mom's gone." Christine sobbed.

David went and grabbed Christine holding her tight in his arms. For the first time in her life, Christine felt some kind of love. She hugged her brother back but deep down felt like hitting him.

David and Christine moved to another apartment. It was a one bedroom where David would sleep with Christine every night. Christine's nightmare would begin all over again, only worse. If she told anyone about David, where would she go? She had no one to turn to.

David took her to the apartment and showed her around. It was a very nice apartment on the 20th floor. There was a balcony right outside their bedroom.

David put his arms around her from behind and laughed deviously. "This is perfect sis. Now you can pretend to be my little wife. I can fuck you every night if I wanted."

Christine pulled away from him. "You are so heartless. I hate you David."

David only laughed and went on to rape her once again.

It was Christine's 17th birthday and David had plans of his own to celebrate his sister's birthday. Christine had finished cooking dinner when David walked in that night.