Preface

I am bi-sexual, although my family doesn't know of it.

I was born in 1932 and recently celebrated my 72nd birthday. I am very happily married. My wife of 49 years standing is my best friend as well as a woman I have loved since we first met. We have had four children, 2 boys and two girls (who don't come into this tale), but I have had occasional interests with both males and females over the years.

My earliest experience was with a mature man. I very much enjoyed it, but thanks to the intervention of an understanding female it failed to lock me in a world of homosexual loving. Because of her I was able to experience and enjoy heterosexual love and sex, and I've I decided to set down how this came about. I have tried to tell the story with the innocence of wording and expression that I had at the time

Chapter One - Uncle Reg makes a friend.

In England back then immediately after the war it was safe for youngsters to be out late. Looking back I never remember hearing that children had been abducted, or raped or murdered as they are today. I was never warned, as parents must warn today, that there were evil men who would harm us, and that we must be suspicious of anyone we didn't know, that we must not talk to strangers, that under no circumstances were we to go with them, anywhere, at any time, day or evening.

I now know that men who got pleasure from a sexual relationship with a young person were careful to be friendly, especially to be friendly with parents. They were gentle. They knew that if they made certain cautious advances they would be rejected by most, but the advance wasn't such that it could interpreted as 'abuse' in today's sense. With the right response from the youngster, they knew that they could slowly take the relationship further until they had a willing, perhaps enthusiastic, partner.

Dad was a blue-collar worker for a large public utility company. The firm provided many benefits - access to libraries, sports grounds, athletic tracks and not least, a clubhouse for employees. The club had in addition to a bar, dartboards, card tables, table-top skittles and such like. In a separate room were two snooker/billiards tables. In the days after the war and before TV, this was an important social centre, and there were many teams, male and female, which competed in various sporting leagues.

My name is Edward - Teddy - and at that time I would have been 14 and shortly to turn 15. I was small for my age, only 5 feet tall. My hair was brown and cut 'short back and sides' in the style of the time, and my eyes were blue. I was slim and to my embarrassment, had what were called delicate features. Women would call me a 'lovely boy to look at' and some would say 'isn't he pretty?'

I had an older brother, Fred, aged 20 who was in the navy, and an older sister - Margaret aged 18. Our home was in a terrace of working class houses and had three bedrooms, identical to all the rest of the houses in the neighbouring streets. There was no bathroom; a zinc bath was put in front of the fire during cold weather and laboriously filled and laboriously emptied. The lavatory was outside - not a favourite place to visit in winter!

In those days there were no jeans or casual clothes of that kind. Boys always wore short, loose waisted grey trousers, buttoned at the fly and held up by an elasticated belt, fastened with an 'S' shaped clip in the image of a snake. When their mother became aware that they were into puberty they were switched to long trousers. This of course was seen as an entry into manhood! Much, I suppose, as a girl getting her first bra.

For my age I know that, compared with the youth of today, I was very naïve, very non streetwise. I was now 'a youth' and was allowed long trousers, but in summer (the time of my tale) I wore baggy legged shorts for comfort in the heat.

Girls always wore dresses or a skirt and blouse. Older girls who worked in the factories because the men were at war were allowed to wear long trousers. Boy's underpants had baggy legs and a girl had elastic around the legs to keep her private places firmly hidden from view!

We lived close enough to the club for it to be an easy walk and as Dad was a member of several teams (he particularly enjoyed cards and snooker) we would go there frequently. Fridays and Saturdays were the regular evenings and my Mum would sit with her friends (there was a 'ladies corner') and have a good chat. Dad would sit with his mates and play cards or dominoes, and of course snooker.

Friday was usually fairly quiet I remember, and I would watch the men and try to understand their play. One of them was named Reg, a friend of my Dad's. He was so much a friend that I called him 'Uncle Reg.' Family relationships and respect for older people demanded a proper form of address.

Reg was single and lived with his sister, also single, in a street quite close to ours. As we walked to the club he would come out and walk with us, and was always very pleasant and would buy the first drink when we arrived. He always got me a large soft drink, and whenever he saw it empty he would buy me another.

He was kind in other ways. He would sit patiently and teach me some of the domino and card games, and I thought of him as an adult that I liked and who treated me pretty well as a grown up.'

Drinking so much fizzy drinks made me continually need to pee and often Reg would go at the same time.

The ladies had indoor 'facilities', but males had to go outside and along an unlit gravel path to a slate topped urinal. This consisted of a trough in the floor, and one peed against a tar-coated wall. There were also three lavatory stalls. It was quite roomy to allow for the times that the place was crowded, but it was lit only with a dim blue bulb that was a hangover from the war years. No one had got round to changing it for any brighter light. I think the men might have objected anyway, because the blue dimness gave a uniqueness compared with other clubs. It was a masculine joke. It was known throughout the sports leagues. No other could compare with theirs.

The blue-light-illuminated urinal was known familiarly as 'the blue lagoon.'

As we left the rear of the club and crunched over the gravel path Reg had started to put his arm around my shoulders and I accepted this as natural.

When wearing my shorts I never undid the flies of my trousers. To pee I simply pulled up the baggy short leg and pulled myself out of my equally baggy underpants. If I wanted them down, I unclipped the snake belt and pulled the loose trousers down over my narrow hips. Providing there were no other men in the urinal Reg would normally stand right next to me. He would very deliberately unfasten the buttons of his fly, pull apart his trousers and take out his cock. With a little more fumbling, he pulled out his ball sac and stood, turned slightly towards me, his fingers moving softly on his manhood.

At first I tried to look away but I couldn't resist trying to see what a grown man looked like out of the corner of my eye. He didn't say anything; merely had his pee, then pulled hard on himself, shook it, and slowly replaced it in his trousers. Then he would look at me and smile and I would smile back. This continued to happen for several evenings.

One night I went out followed by Reg. His hand on my shoulder was gentle, caressing and he pulled me to him as we walked. There was no one else in the blue lagoon. As usual Reg stood close to me. He took himself out and by this time I no longer made any effort to look away. In fact I blatantly watched as he pulled on himself. I finished my pee and let my trouser leg fall. I was about to turn away when his hand reached down and rested on my far hip. He pulled me close. I made no effort to move away as his fingers curled under the leg of my trousers and lifted them up. His fingers slipped inside my underpants and he wiggled them about, brushing my prick. He said "tickle, tickle, tickle" and indeed it did. I giggled and hunched myself. He took his hand away and again caressed my shoulder. We walked back inside the club.

For the rest of that evening, each time I went out he would follow. He was I suppose very careful not to make it obvious, but he must have had a watchful eye out for me. If another man were there, he would stand well away and would chat in a natural way. If the man left quickly, he would move to my side. Each time he would lift my trouser leg, and his fingers would dance lightly over my prick and balls. Each time it became more pleasurable for me, and each time I felt myself swell under his touch, and I stood still and let him do as he wished.

"Is that nice?" he asked. I whispered "yes." "Do you like what I'm doing?" "Yes" I gasped as he pulled gently on me.

All the time he was touching me his other hand was pulling on his cock. Even in the dim glow I could see that it was thickening and swelling.

"Can you see mine growing?" he said softly. I could only gasp out that I could. "You are making that happen to me; it's because of you that it's getting hard. Would you like to feel what you are making it do?"

I didn't say anything. I just stood and watched his manhood grow in front of my eyes.

Still feeling my stiff cock, his other hand took hold of one of mine and placed it on himself. His fingers wrapped around mine and he moved my hand, up and down, up and down. I could hear his laboured breathing and he said, "That feels good. That's very, very good. Your fingers feel so nice on me. Can you do it without me holding your hand? Can you, Teddy?"

"Yes, Uncle Reg" I whispered back and I continued to move my hand along his hard, hot shaft. It felt as nothing else had ever felt. Silky smooth, very hot, and as I pulled it, I felt the skin sort of jump over a bump before the skin covered the end of it.

He put his hand back over mine and began to rub faster, harder. Then he was making a soft grunting noise and his hips were jerking backwards and forwards. The cock in my hand was throbbing and pulsing, and after a minute he let go of me.

"Have you got any on your hand?" he asked. "Any what?" I whispered. "Is your hand wet and sticky?" "No, Uncle Reg" "Ok, you go back inside. Don't tell anybody what we've done. This is a secret between Uncle Reg and you. Just a secret between men, hey?"

I put my hand in my pocket and held my hard prick against my leg as I went back in the club, so that no-one would see it sticking out.

Later that evening he was playing cards with my Dad. "I've been talking to young Teddy, Jack. He's interested in the night sky, and the planes we used to look out for. I'm going to bring my binoculars next Friday and show him some stars if it's OK with you." My Dad was quite happy with that, it seemed innocent enough.

Uncle Reg and Dad had been Air Raid Wardens in the war, and used to patrol the streets during the blackout. Then Uncle Reg became a 'Spotter', looking out for enemy planes and reporting by phone to an AA gun battery. I was thrilled that I was going to be shown how to use the powerful binoculars.

The following Friday there was almost no moon and the sky was clear, the stars brilliant in the darkness. Uncle Reg had his binoculars with him and I was desperate to see through them. I was pretty excited, not sexually, but at the thought of what I might see through them. The men were laughing at my excitement and eventually Uncle Reg said "Oh come on then. I'll never get any peace until you've had a go."

We went out together into the club yard. He led me around the far side of the club, where crates of empty beer bottles waited in a small yard behind a fence, ready for collection. It was quiet and very dark, well away from the path to the Blue Lagoon. He opened the gate and we walked into the yard. He closed the gate behind us and put a couple of filled crates against the gate to stop it from being opened.

"Now listen to me, Teddy. These are very expensive glasses. I'm going to keep the strap round my neck so that if you drop them, they won't fall. You'll have to stand on a beer crate so you are high enough."

I stood on the crate with my back to him and he put the strap of the binoculars over my head. I took hold of the glasses excitedly and the crates wobbled slightly under my feet. He put his arms around my waist to steady me.

My back pressed into his chest and stomach and with one hand he showed me how to adjust them to my eyes. His other hand was now around my stomach and resting lightly on my hip.

I was aware of his left hand as it slipped gently down over my hip. It brushed on the outside of my upper thigh. It slipped lower, still with a stroking movement. His fingers had now reached the bottom of my trouser leg and dipped inside. Then they were gliding up inside my trousers, now inside my underpants and I knew again the excitement in my groin as his fingers began to stroke and pull at my prick and balls. I stiffened in his fingers and he massaged me gently.

His right arm was around my waist holding me close. His breath was warm as he panted against my neck. My breathing was getting ragged and my body began to tremble, my mouth dry.

He moved slightly away from me, but still fondled my hard cock. His right hand was now between us, and I could feel his hand in the small of my back as he fumbled with his trousers.

Then both of his hands were at my waist. I realised that he was unclipping my belt. It was undone and he began tugging at my shorts, pulling them down over my thighs. My underpants went with them and I knew the chill of the night air on my bare skin.

One hand now cupped my naked cock and balls and he used this hand to pull me close to him. I felt his other hand between us and his hot hard man's cock being rubbed up and down the cleft between my cheeks.

His hand left my cock, gripped me tightly round the middle. He lifted me slightly and his other hand tugged my legs apart on the crates. I now stood with legs straddled the night air between my legs.

Still holding me tight, his other hand was now back on his cock. After the coolness of the air it seemed to burn against me. It was so hard it could push my cheeks apart and suddenly it was gliding up and down in his hand, up and down, rubbing all along the join between my legs. I knew it was wet, I knew it was slipping easily along me. Each time it passed my bottom hole I felt myself twitch.

He stopped rubbing along me. He held it still against my bottom while his hand began to beat up and down along the length of his manhood. There was again the low grunting, again the thrusting, jerking of his hips. Hot wetness spurted against my tight hole and began to run down my legs. He was gasping and so was I. My cock was so hard it was almost hurting.

"Oh, Teddy. That was the most wonderful thing. Are you OK?"

"Yes, Uncle Reg, but I feel funny down there."

"I know what you need, but I don't know if you can do it yet. Let me play with you and see if it gets any better."

He held me with my back to his groin and as he started to jerk my cock, he kept pressing himself between my cheeks. I could feel his prick swelling against me once more. He let go of me and I could have cried with need, but he pulled my cheeks apart, put his dick against my bottom hole then pulled me close and started to fuck at me while he jerked me off. I could feel my thighs tingling, my prick was harder than it had ever been, there was fullness in my balls and then my cum spurted out as if I was emptying my whole insides. My hips were jerking and making fucking pushes in time with Uncle Reg fucking at me. It almost hurt when my cum jetted out, I was so tense. Then he cum again against me and I felt his knob end spurt against my ass hole.

We stood gasping. The he said "We'd better go in but first we'd better get you cleaned up."

He pulled a cloth out of his pocket and started to wipe all around my bottom and down my legs. He was very careful between my cheeks and asked if he could make sure I was dry.

He told me to stand with my side towards him and to bend over. When I did he felt between my legs, all the way to the back and then his fingertip touched against my bottom hole. He pressed gently and I tightened against his touch.

"Another time, another time" he said so quietly I only just heard what he said.

Then he fastened himself up and said we should go back in the clubroom.

"Would you like another go with the glasses one night? he asked.

"Yes please Uncle Reg."

His teeth showed in the semi darkness as he smiled down at me.

After that, every Friday and Saturday night he would take me outside, close the gate behind us, take off my shorts and underpants, and rub his cock between my cheeks. He would jerk on my cock and make me cum and finally he would put the end of his on my bottom hole, hold my hips and thrust at me until his cum spurted on me. I always had to bend over so that he could wipe me clean, and he always felt me there and pressed on my bottom.

Then he began to make me bend over before he wiped me, and I could feel the smooth wet stickiness of his finger sliding along me. One night he pressed harder and I felt his finger tip go in me. He massaged my hole and smoothed his sticky cum over and in me. At first it hurt a little bit, but he always tried to be gentle and asked me if it was hurting too much. I always said "No" Uncle Reg. Then he asked if I had liked it. I always said "Yes" Uncle Reg."

Chapter Two - Teddy learns the hard way.

One Friday night my Dad had forgotten his favourite darts and he asked me to run home and get them. Nobody locked doors then so when I got home I opened the door and went to the cupboard where he kept them. Suddenly I heard a noise from upstairs and my sister's voice. Then I realised there was the noise of bedsprings. I knew about that noise because I had peeked in my Mum and Dad's room when I heard it and I saw him on top of her and I knew what they were doing. But Mum and Dad were at the Club so I was curious and crept quietly up the stairs. I went down the passage to my sister's room and the door wasn't closed. I looked in and she was naked with her soldier boyfriend lying on top. Her legs were spread wide and he was pushing and pumping at her with his hips just like Uncle Reg did to me. I heard him say "Maggie I'm cumming" and she cried out "Take it out, take it out" but he didn't and he gave an almighty push and collapsed on top of her.

My sister said "Get off me you fool you promised to take it out" and he lifted up and I saw she was all hairy between her legs and there was a hole there and it was wide open and creamy white stuff was running out of her hole. I crept away and went to the Club and Uncle Reg took me outside and I saw stars again.

A few weeks later there was a terrible row between my Mum and Maggie. I heard Mum tell Dad that Maggie was in trouble and not long after that they were married.

There was a big parade in London and all the Services were there and even my Dad's Air Raid Wardens were asked to send two men. There was a 'draw' and my Dad's name came out of the hat. He could take my Mum and they would be put up in military barracks for two nights. My Dad said they couldn't go because they would have to leave me behind and Maggie was living in Scotland now. Uncle Reg told him not to be a

fool because I could stay with him and his sister. So Dad said was it OK if I stayed with them for a week because they could see relatives who lived near London. So I did.

Uncle Reg was about my Dad's age. He was quite tall, 5'10'' I think. He was very slim and my Mum used to say he was handsome. My Dad would pull her leg about her saying that. Dad would say she would have to watch herself and not get caught in a dark alley with him or else. She would pretend to slap him but she liked it I know she did.

His sister Lizzie was a bit younger than him. She was very pretty I thought and the smell of her was always nice and not sweaty at all. I was always surprised she didn't have a husband for herself.

Uncle Reg was some sort of boss where he worked. They didn't live in terraced houses. They lived in a semi-detached house and it had an inside bathroom and inside lavatory. It was really posh. It had three bedrooms.

The other half of the semi-detached house had a widow living there. Her husband had been killed in North Africa by the Germans in 1941, and she didn't have any children. Her name was Rose, and she and my Aunt Lizzie were great friends. While I was with Uncle Reg she even stayed with Rose for two or three nights because she said that Rose was still weepy about her dead husband, and Aunt Lizzie would be a friend for her and comfort her. They must have been really good friends because I saw Aunt Lizzie kissing Rose to make her cheer up I think.

The first night I stayed with them my Aunt Lizzie stayed with Rose so she wouldn't be alone and feel sad.

Before bedtime my Uncle said he would teach me hygiene for myself and did I know about a thing called an enema so I was really, really clean. I didn't know about that. He said it was a bit like me brushing my teeth and washing my boy pieces properly all the time, only this was to do with my bottom, my bum. He showed it to me and told me how to use it and to let it pour into me and then sit on the lavvy and let it out. Only I had to do it several times until the water from me was clear. He said he used it all the time and it made him feel really clean and good inside. He said Aunt Lizzie used it too.

He said it would feel funny but after I was really clean it would feel great for me. And he was right.

In his house it was like living in a palace. The bath was there all the time in its own room. You didn't have to take it outside to empty it and then hang it on the wall; and real hot water coming out of the taps and there was nothing to empty from the bath you just pulled a plug out and the water all went down the hole in the bath. That night after I had used the enema he filled the bath for me and gave me soap and the soap smelled nice. He helped me wash and I stood in the bath and he washed soap all over me with his hands. Then I sat down and he poured water all over me.

Then I had my very own towel, not a shared one, and he helped me get dry.

When I was dry he showed me to my bedroom. He kissed me. It felt nice. He helped me into my pyjama trousers and top.

I was tired and I went to sleep.

I woke up and it was dark. I wasn't by myself anymore. I knew it was Uncle Reg holding me because I could feel him pressing his cock at me. He had his hand in the opening in my pj bottoms. He was making it hard for me. I must have made a noise because he pulled the cord on my pjs and said "Take them off" and I did. Then he undid the buttons on my coat and made me bare.

When I was naked I could feel his skin against me and I knew he was bare as well. He was feeling my cock. I loved him feeling it. I tossed it off at home and thought it was his fingers doing it, but his fingers were much nicer. After a few minutes I got the funny feeling somewhere inside, like a little knot somewhere behind my balls. My legs started to tingle. It was like heat coming up my legs, in my little knot, into my balls and then I was fucking at his fingers and my hips were jerking as my cum spurted out over my face and chest and belly. When it stopped he gave me my pj bottoms and told me to wipe it off me.

He turned on a bedside light and made me stand up. I'd never seen him naked, only been with him in the dark. He had a hairy chest and curly dark hair round his dick. His cock looked angry and wanting as it made little twitches in front of my eyes. His foreskin had gone back off the end of his knob and that was sort of purple red and his cock had blue veins standing up all down its length. It didn't seem huge like I expected, but it was bigger and fatter than mine, but not all that much.

He put a big towel over the sheet.

"Lie on the towel Teddy" he said. I lay on my back and he said "The other way. Bottom up."

As I turned onto my tummy I suddenly felt a bit nervous. I knew what he was going to do. While I was lying down he was going to do what he'd done to me standing up but I knew this time he was going to get it in.

"Teddy, don't be scared. I'm going to be very careful and gentle. I'm going to use lots of cream for you. You know what I'm going to do don't you?"

"No, no Uncle Reg I don't know."

"Yes you do. You know you want me to so don't be a baby now. Not after the way we played at the club in the dark. You know you want it as much as I do. Teddy I'm going to fuck you, OK?"

I didn't say anything, just screwed my tight fists into my eyes. I was shaking and shivering and all my skin seemed to be goosebumps. He pulled my cheeks apart and I could feel his knees each side of my hips. A he opened my bum cheeks it was like a shock had run up and down my spine. His fingers were cool on me and I realised it was a sort of creamy stuff he was putting on my ass. His fingers worked on my hole and he told me to relax. I tried and tried but it was hard not to clench up. He told me to take a deep breath and let it out again slowly, and as I did his creamy finger was pressing at me and suddenly it slipped in. I could feel him wriggling his finger around in my ass then he used his other fingers to put lots more cream on me. His finger came out then went in with more cream on it. He kept doing that. More and more cream in me and on me.

He was wiggling his finger round and round and I could feel it getting easier for me. Then he was pushing two fingers in and after making me loose for them, the he did it with the tips of three. He'd put two fingers right up as though they were fucking me. But with three they were only a little bit in.

His fingers were slipping in and out, easy now and they didn't really hurt, not really hurt.

I could feel all the tense muscles in my back and my legs and my thighs relax and as I lay there it started to feel not too bad. Nice in fact.

His fingers pulled out and I knew he was changing his position above me. The I felt the familiar blunt hardness of his cock pushing at my asshole. For a moment my muscles contracted to deny him, but he had prepared me well and I felt his knob end lodge inside. I whimpered as it started to stretch me and then it went in and I cried out. The pain was awful. I think I was crying a little bit with the pain.

"Teddy relax my little friend. That's the worst over. It's going to be nice for you now. It'll always be nice after this."

I was gasping, trapped underneath his man's weight. I felt him push and my body allowed him in. Then he eased back and pushed, again he eased back and pushed, and little by little I felt his swollen cock filling my insides. When it was all inside me, he lay still. His arms held him from crushing me now. His cock was buried all the way up me and I could feel the roughness of his dick hairs pressed on my firm boy's cheeks.

I was panting. I realised my hands were clenching on the pillow. My own dick was hard underneath me. He started to fuck me.

I felt his hardness slide out, almost right out, but before it left my hole he slowly pushed back in. His groin pressed hard onto my buttocks, and my hips ground on to the towel, and my cock had its little throb against the roughness of the towel.

I knew when he was close. I knew his urgency. I had a mental image of my sister saying 'Take it out, take it out.' I saw in my mind her slit, her hairs, her hole and her boyfriend's cum as it ran out of her.

Uncle Reg rammed at me and froze. Inside me I could feel his cock jerking and throbbing and pulsing and spurting. My bum was lifting to his every spurt. Then he was done. He relaxed. He held himself from crushing me and I heard his whisper in my ear.

"Teddy. Oh my little baby boy. Oh my darling boy. Oh Teddy." Then as he calmed he said

"Teddy did I hurt you. Was it good for you?"

"It hurt me Uncle Reg. It was nice after it went in though."