The late spring of 2002 was a weird time for me. I lost my virginity, finally. I was 18, going away to college, and have never had a serious girlfriend. Shit I did not even have a date for the prom. Go ahead, say it with me, "Loo-ZER!" I am not a nerd ("No really I'm not! Stop laughing at me you assholes, I'm NOT!!").

Yes I get good grades and like D&D, sci fi, and the occasional comic book. I'm not good at sports, and have a minor Spazzy-Klutz problem. I guess I should describe myself. I'm 5ft 9 in tall, wear glasses and have curly black hair. I'm average looking, but guess I lack confidence. The virgin thing was ok at 14, 15 even. I mean every one was a virgn at that age, except the sluts and the jocks. But when I turned 16, normal kids started having sex. By 17 almost every one had done it in my school except the mentally impaired, the physically challenged (aka, ugly mother fuckers) and the nerds. Nerd girls don't put out. EVER. I've come to realize High School, maybe life in general is about labels. It's about how others view you, and how that caused you to define yourself. At 17, most people saw me as a "LOSER, VIRGIN, SPAZ, NERD". So basically I was fucked, royally screwed... um, or rather not.

My parents were busy, distant, emotionally unattached. Oh they loved me I suppose, but it was at arms length. I think we all preferred it that way. Then there was my little sister, Susan.

I should have hated her, I mean she had everything I wanted. She was popular, pretty, smart. Everyone loved her, she just lit up a room, was always the center of attention, but it never went to her head. At 15 she was still a virgin, but it was by choice. Guys called the house all the time and she dated a lot. Yup, she had it all.

Here is the thing. She loved me, she idolized me. My sister thought I was the smartest, the funniest, most handsome man when she was younger. She toned it down as she grew older but it was still clear that she did not see me the way the rest of the world did. It meant a lot having one person in my life who loved me. Totally, completely, fiercely. I'd have to be a total shit to piss that away wouldn't I. I mean who would be stupid enough to risk losing the only perso who cared for them, their only sister?!

Say it with me, "Loo-ZER!"

It was my 18th Birthday. My buddy Ron had gotten 3 six packs of beer, and a couple of porno tapes. No cake, no candles--but it would do just fine.

Um did I mention that I like porn? A lot, a whole fucking lot. Pics, movies, Web Sites, I need it. I like to watch it when I can, Yes I like it Sam I am.

The first tape was pretty hot. Plot-free, just the way god intended. The premise was simple. 3 hot sexy chicks were about to be gang banged by 15 (5 each) guys. Each one would cum inside her pussy. None of this pull out and spay her tits crap. Then she would immediately get powerfucked by the next guy. By the end each girl was a well fucked slut, with a sloppy cunt that dripped and oozed cum.

Very cool.

We had downed our first six pack and had a good buzz going, when Ron got a call on his cell phone.

"Dude, I'm sorry, my dad just got home and he's pitchin a fit. I gotta bolt. Hey I'll swing by tomorrow and we can finish watching your tapes. Happy B-day. See Ya."

Ron was nice enough to leave the beer. One good thing about him leaving was that now I could masturbate. I mean it just isin't cool to pull on your pud in front of your bud. Just felt kinda gay to me. But this was pretty good now. I was in my boxers jerkin off, drinking beer, and watching a hot slut get fucked over and over. It was cool seeing her lose cotrol, the expression on her face when she stopped acting, and came for real. The sneers on the guys as they started getting into it. Some of them got a little rough, just grabbed her, spread her open and slammed her hard. One guy was just bouncing her on the bed, as he fucked her. Her tits were flapping wildly, as he slammed into her hard. "Damn it's almost like he's raping her, shit she just has to take it," I said as I felt a major climax build.

"John... can I come in?"

Oh shit, my sister wanted to come in, NOW?! I quickly turned off the tv, pulled up my underwear and got under the covers. "Ok sure come in." Susan looked amazing. Today had been pretty warm and she was wearing cut off shorts and a tank top that barely contained her 34 c tits and exposed her sexy little tummy.

"I wanted to wish you a happy Birthday. Wow you're a man now, 18! What's it like, do you feel different? Hey!! You have beer! Gimme one, can I try one please?" she said as she sat at the foot of my bed. A couple of things happened all at once. First having my hot sexy sister in my bed while I was horny was a bad idea. Worse still she sat on my remote, and turned the TV on. The sights and sounds of hardcore porno love filled my room.

{"Uh, uh, uh, uh, fuuuhckk Me, Fuck my tight little pussy. Cun inside me, I need it, I need that fat cock shoved inside of me now!"} My poor innocent virgin sister just stared at the TV.

"John, what are you watching? Oh my god this is a dirty movie. Why are you watching this?"

I decided to try to be casual about it.

"You've never seen one Susie? They can be a lot of fun. Sometimes when guys get horny, it helps to relieve the pressure. All guys watch them, some girls do too. Here's your beer. I think you're old enough you decide for yourself. If you think you can handle it you can stay."

Susan was curious, and did not want to appear childish to her big bother. Plus here was a chance for her to drink beer. She gulped and coughed the first one down quickly. She was a natural! I handed her two from the cooler, and she laid down across the foot of my bed. Watching porn and getting drunk. She kept asking me questions. Naive, harmless, but in my state they just made me hornier. "Ew gross, she's swallowing his penis. I'm never letting a guy put his thing in my mouth. John do most women do that? His penis is so big. Is that normal? Have you ever seen one that big. It must be 6 or 7 inches long! God that must hurt, the way he's slamming into her over and over! What's that squishing noise?" she asked in a slightly drunk voice as she finished off her 3rd beer.

I was so fucking horny by then I did not know what to do. The funny thing was I barely paid attention to the screen. I was looking at Susan's tight ass, and juicy tits. I wanted her. I wanted to fuck my little sister. I wanted to cum inside her. Suddenly I knew how I could do it. I jumped out of bed, took a beer with me and said, "I'll be right back."

I ran down the hall to my parent's bathroom. About six months ago my mom was havioing trouble sleping and the doctor wrote her a very strong Rx. My mom tried it at full strength, but later complained it was too powerful. She slept through the night, and could not wake up until 11 am. She complained that she could not remember anything after taking the pill. In fact my dad had tried to wake her when he left for work, but gave up after shaking her several times.

Mom talked to the Dr. and he suggested she take half doses, and never with alcohol. Mom still uses them but only when she really has to. Even at half strength they are very powerful.

Susan was about 30lbs lighter than my mom, and with all the beer she had taken, I did not want to chance giving her a full pill. I took two from the bottle (in case I wanted to try this again) and put half of one in a beer. It fizzed up at first but then went back to normal. I did not say a word as I came back in the room and gave her the 4th and final beer. I noticed she had been playing with her breasts (through her shirt) when I came in the room. I decided to see just how horny and curious she was.

"Suse you asked me a question before. Six inches is a pretty good size for a guy, but it's not that big. Mine is bigger. I don't mind letting you see but you can't tell anyone. In fact everything we've done tonight has to be a secret. Can I trust you?" Susan was pretty drunk now, but she understood that this was private. Still I don't think she was thinking about my offer to show her my penis when she said,

"Ok John, it's our secret."

She was still watching the tv when I dropped my boxers and walked in front of her half hard.

"Oooh John, oh my god yer naked. So that's what it's supposed to look like, but um, John yer not as big as they are. I mean it's about 5 inches, right?"

I could not help chuckling inside a little.

"Susan it starts out this size but then it grows when I become excited. Here let me show you. No fair me being naked while you have all your clothes on, " I said as I reached down and pulled her top off. I quickly unsnapped her bra and let her firm breasts free.

I could not help it, I had to feel them. I began playfully tugging on her nipples, rubbing the, rolling them in my fingers. Her tits were firm, heavy in my hands.

Susan seemed surprised, but also more than a little aroused. Her reactions were slow due to the beer and drugs.

"John, whhutt? No wait?!!" she mumbled.

"Shhh, don't worry, now hold this and watch it grow. Stroke it a little, squeeze him tight. That's it you're doing a good job." She was fascinated by how big and very thick my dick was getting. Soon I was at my full 7.5 inches.

"Ish sho big! "she mumbled as the drugs began to take full affect.

"Mmmkeep rubbing me baby, it feels really good. Will you do me a favor? Will you just suck it a little bit? Nobody has ever done that for me. It'll be our secret. I love you so much. Please baby, after all it is my birthday. "

Susan looked up at me through a haze of "beery" lust for a several seconds. Slowly she put her face in my lap and she kissed the head of my swollen cock a few times. Her small pink tongue darted out and shyly licked me. Finally she opened her mouth and began to suck me off. My little sister slurped, and sucked and licked on my cock for a good 30 seconds before she passed out.

I guess that's why things got out of hand. I mean this was the second time I had been close to an orgasm, and been interrupted in less than an hour. You can't do that to a horny, 18 yr old virgin male. Susan started this. I want that made very clear. Let's review. She willingly got in my bed and watched porn with me. Nobody forced her to get drunk. She allowed me to strip her top, and fondle her tits. She enjoyed playing with her brother's cock. She put me in her mouth and sucked me like the beautiful young slut she is.

Whatever happened later, she startd our love making. She is old enough to know what would happen. I mean shit, she's only 15 ( almost 16), I know, I get that. But if she committed a crime, say murder, she would be tried as an adult right? So how could anyone hold her responsible for her actions if it led to murder but not if it led to sex? I'm not saying it is all her fault. We both made decisions that night. I am responsible too.

When she passed out I could not help myself. I knew it. This was it. I was finally getting laid. I did not know where to start. If you've never been in this situation you won't understand it, and really can't judge it. I had a beautiful half naked, 15 yr old virgin unconcious on my bed. I checked the clock on my wall. It was only 4:20 pm. Mom was out of town and dad did not get home until after 7pm, sometimes later. We celebrated my birthday last weekend.

I had almost 3 hours to do anything I wanted to Susan. ANYTHING, shit EVERYTHING I ever dreamed of doing with a woman, I could do. I decided to make my own porno movie.

I would be able to watch myself fucking Susan over and over again. How many guys in the world have video of them fucking a 15 yr old virgin--who was their only sister? I got my viewcam out of the closet and set it up. I had about 2 hours charge in the battery, and I plugged in the spare for later.

I felt myself getting excited as I slowly pulled Susan's shorts and underwear off. She looked so fucking hot, so peaceful. It was like she was giving me permission.

I had to touch her. I spread my baby sister open, naked, and helpless on my bed and began kissing her wet little mouth. It was fun but her teeth were in the way so I moved down to her neck and sucked her hard for a few minutes. I wanted to cover her body in hickeys. Her warm nipples clearly needed to be sucked. I spent several minutes there. Cupping, rolling, massaging and kneading her, while licking, sucking and flicking her nipples. First one soft tit, then the other, then both. I did not hurt her, but I marked her.

I marked her real good.

I could smell Susan's juices now. She was getting wet, getting ready for my cock. I wanted to prolong this, to enjoy her body for as long as I could. I also needed some before and after rape pics. I took a few polaroids of her in compromising positons to go along with the video. Sometimes it would not be convenient to only have a videotape, to need a TV/VCR to enjoy my sister's love scene with me. I needed a portable version too. I wanted the still pics to tell a story just like our porn movie would. In one I have her holding a picture of me, lying naked in my bed, with her fingers in her visibly wet pussy. I wrote several large signs for her to hold. "I love you Jaz," (her nickname for me), and another,"Fuck my cherry John, I belong to you."

It took time, to pose her just right but they looked like she was awake and enjoying a sex fantasy about the big brother everyone knew she idolized and adored.

At the time I really did not plan to do anything with them, they were just for me. I mean who knew when I would be able to fuck her (or anyone else) again. I just wanted to remember today. After all, it was my Birthday.

My cock was pounding hard now, pulsating and throbbing in anticipation. I turned the video camera on and began setting the scene. "Susan do you think this is a good idea? Do you really want your big brother to rape you? Maybe I should stop. What's that, you NEED me to fuck you. You ORDER me to rape your virgin pussy? Sigh... ok if you insist baby. If you are such a slut that you can't help it--since you are begging me for my dick, I guess I'll help you out. Hmm you look really tight sis, and I'm pretty big you want me to suck you off first? Huh, you want me to make you good and slippery? Ok, give me your cunt, and I'll eat you little baby."

The camera was filming as I kissed and sucked my way down my sister's body until my mouth was at her nearly bald, virgin vagina. I peeled her open and began to sniff her. Her scent was intoxicating. I saw her clit hood and began to lick all around it, pressing her button with my tongue. If she had ben awake it would probably have been too intense and she would have asked me to stop, slow down.

She wasn't awake.

I sucked and nibbled on her clit for over 5 minutes. Her pussy was contracting hard.

I decided to try something I had read about. Clit/G-Spot dual stimulation. While I sucked her clit hard, I put two fingers inside her pussy about 3 inches in I could feel her hymen. Along the top wall there was a rough, spongy bundle. Perfect, I'd found it. I gently rubbed her spot while sucking her clit. It did not take very long. soon she was leaking and dripping, weeping fluids. A trickle became a stream, became a flood. She was soaking my bed, and it was on tape forever.

"Did you like that baby? Such a good cum! I'll always make it good for you Susie. Now it's my turn. I'm going to rape your virginity now. Fair is fair. I need it. We'll be giving ourselves to each other. After all you're taking my virginity too. We will be each other's first lovers.No one can ever take that away from us baby. I love you, I love you so much sis. I just can't help it. You got me so worked up, I have to have you. Now," I said as I got between her legs and lined my cock up at her virgin pussy."

She was very tight, but also very wet. With a little pressure I began to slip my fat cock into my sister. Soon I was at her hymen. I pressed myself against it softly. She gave this breathy little grunt and her face frowned a little. I pressed into her again a little harder and her breathing picked up. I was afraid she would wake up if I fucked into her too hard, but decided to go for it anyway. I pulled out a little and then rammed myself into her hard. I felt my cock break through her barrier, and immediately her blood slickened my dick, making it easier to get in. One more thrust and I was "balls deep".

She let out a harsh gasp and her body recoiled, shook and shuddered as her tight pussy tried to expel me. I rested for a few seconds and allowed her to get used to her brother being inside of her. When she calmed down a little I began a slow rocking motion. " Shallow thrust, hold, hold, retreat, repeat". When that did not wake her up, or agitate her I went deeper, harder, faster.

"Ugh, do you like that Sis, do you like it?! So tight little baby, so perfect. (Slam. thrust, slamm), ugh. Fuck you, oh shit, FUCK ME. You beautiful little slut, I love you. Oh god, oh god not this soon?! Yer making me cum already?!" I said as I came deep, down inside my loving sister.

I stayed inside her for over a minute as her greedy pussy milked me. Then I had a nasty thought. I pulled out of her with a wet little "plop". I reached inside her cunt and pulled out a pink creamy mixture of our juices and her virgin blood. Lovingly I spread it all over her mouth, feeding it to her one finger at a time. I spread it all over her lips, and teeth. then I put just a pinch between her cheek and gums. Slowly she swallowed it down.

When her pussy was mostly clean, I began to suck her again. I left her clit alone this time and only used my tongue inside her. My hands massged her tits and nips. Her pussy was soon contracting again, I could feel it squeezing my tongue, but almost no juice came. It was the sexual equivalent of dry heaves.

Susan was all fucked out.

It felt good to know I had satisfied my woman. I wanted to do it again. I wanted to do it on a regular basis. I wantd her to be awake. Most of all I wanted her to know what I had done, to surrender herself to me. I enjoyed Susan for the rest of the afternoon. I shot hours of video and had over 30 pics. Every 45 minutes or so I was able to fuck her until my dad came home. Around 7pm I dragged her to her room, and cleaned her up. I put her panties back on and a night shirt. When dad came in at 7:30 I was in the kitchen.

"Hey John, happy Birthday son. This is a special day for you. You're an adult now. How does it feel?" He said with a smile as he gave me a firm handshake.

"Thanks dad, you know it DOES feel different. I do feel special, I dunno like for the first time I really am a man. " I said with a smile.