Chapter 5

Once Louise and Vicky had gone back, life quickly returned to normal. Pam went out on New Years with a friend, and I went to a house party at one of my employees.

New Years day, saw Pam getting home around noon time. Rather than cook, I took her to a fancy restaurant for supper. She dressed up, and looked terrific.

Later that evening, I was in the den, watching the news. She came in and sat on the sofa. I saw her glancing at me every so often, but she waited patiently until the news was finished.

Then she said softly, "I would like to talk."

I got up, and went and got us both a pepsi, when I got back, I sat on the sofa, and passed her a pepsi.

She looked at me, and said, "So, the Holidays are over, and I had a great one. I told you that already. Now, I guess, I want to know where we go from here?"

I just said, "Where do we go, you should know that there is always a home here for you. You have lived here for almost four months, and I hope everything is to your satisfaction. Christmas has also hopefully let you and your sisters know that there is always a spot here for you."

She smiled a cute little smile, and said, "I know that stuff, but where are we, you and I, going?"

I shrugged and asked, "Where do you want it to go?"

She shook her head and said, "Listen, I live here with you, I am not your daughter, I am not you lover, not your hooker, as Louise and Vicky were, although I don't think that word, describes that relationship. What am I to you?"

I said softly, "Good question, but then again, what am I to you? Your guardian, not really. Not your father, not your lover, what? I am thirty one years old, you are seventeen. Can we have a relationship. Only with difficulty, and then probably not right now. Your Mom has been cool with what has happened the last few years, simply because she could not handle the responsibility. Blame her, no not really, reponsibility is a job for two. Sometimes, just the one can't handle it. My main concern is you. I would never knowingly hurt you. But it is a fact of life, if you and I get together, if it ever came out, I could be in trouble. Oh, you are legal, but a lot of people would never understand. You are not considered an adult yet. Regardless of what you said, or I said, It would be a dirty old man taking advantage of someone who is not an adult."

She just looked at me.

I sighed, and then said, "So, number one, I will not hurt you. That is why I go so slow. Why it has to be up to you. Even then, I have to try and figure out in my own mind, is she ready? Will she regret it later. All that is because I won't hurt you."

Pam said very softly, "You worry about me way too much, I am not a fragile little girl. I have had enough hard knocks lately, it has forced me to grow up. I may be only seventeen, but christ, you were jumping Vicky's bones at that age. Why am I different."

I thought for a minute or two, and then said, "Pam, I think the difference is that you live here. You need me more than Louise or Vicky did. If something happened, then where would you go, live, what would become of you? That is what makes it different. In that way, I care more for you, and I just think I have a responsibilty to make sure I can always be here for you."

She slowly nodded.

I held out my arms, and she quickly moved into my embrace. I hugged her tightly, and she molded her body to mine. It was like she was trying to get as tight to me as she could.

She then said, "So, what are you saying, will you look after me always?"

I said, "If you want."

She then changed the stress on the way she said it, and asked." You will look after me all ways?"

I pulled back and then just nodded.

She then almost whispered, "I worry about the sex. You have had it steady for what three years. Three years of my willing sisters. If I wait, will you find someone else?"

I just shook my head.

She said, "You sure?"

I said, "I am very sure. But what about you? You must miss Vicky."

She giggled, and said softly, "I have that taken care of."

I pulled back again and looked at her.

She just laughed softly and said, "Jennie."

I just shook my head.

She said, "Mad at me?"

I shook my head.

She smiled and said, "Jealous?"

I smiled back and said, "Maybe a little."

She just leaned against me, and the conversation sort of died out.

We must have sat like that for half an hour or so.

She finally said, "It's late, better get to bed. I feel better."

I was tired, so did not dwell on it.

The next morning I was up, as I was back to work. Pam came down before I left. She had on a short nighty, and I could see her panties under them when she moved around the kitchen.

Just before I left for work, she said, "Something for you to think about. Jennie has used her Mom's vibrator. She wants to do me with it. It is about six inches long. I want to save myself for you, but her offer is getting awful tempting. No pressure now, but I don't know how long I can hold out."

I smiled and said, "No pressure?"

She just laughed, then she said, "You want to hear about me and Jen?"

I just said, "Maybe, but I have to get to work."

She smiled and said, "I think I will go back to bed, and, and."

She laughed out loud, and ran back upstairs.

I thought about her at work some. I quickly realized that it she decided it was time, no way I could hold out. That decided, it was simply go with the flow.

She was busy that night, over at Jennie's, then on Wednesday she was back in school. It was actually Thursday night before we actually had any time.

We had supper, and as was our norm, we brought each other up to date on our day. After supper we did the dishes together, and then she took my hand and led me into the den. She had me sit on the sofa, and then she sat down beside me.

She smiled and then said, "I have thought over everything you said the other night. I know where you are coming from. But, no one will ever know about what we are doing. By that I mean if we have sex, no one will find out. I even have it covered, if for some reason anyone checks on me."

I just looked at her.

She went right on, almost like she was rushing to get everything said, "By that, I mean if anything ever happened and the authorities ever had cause to check and see if I was still a virgin, you and I would deny ever having done it, and both Jennie and I will swear in court, that Jennie took my cherry with her Mom's vibrator."

I nodded, and said, "So can you trust Jennie like that?"

Pam just nodded, and then added, "With my life."

I did have to admit, that it all sounded logical, but was that my cock thinking or my head. But then again, I had been in Vicky's panties when she was seventeen, and that could have caused a lot of trouble, hell even doing Louise at eighteen.

I just slowly nodded.

Pam asked quickly, "Is that a yes?"

I said softly, "I guess so."

She just squealed, gave me a hug, and a quick kiss and then went off to do her homework.

Pam pretty much stayed in her room. She came down once for a drink, but did not stay around. I did a couple of odd jobs, and then watched the news. About eleven I wandered upstairs, had a shower, and crawled into bed.

I was just about ready to turn out the lamp, when I heard a small knock on my door. Before I had a chance to say anything, Pam's head peeked around the corner. She saw me in bed, and smiled and walked into my room.

She had on the powder blue teddy she wore the night that she and Vicky put on the show for me. She came over by the bed, and stood there for a minute.

Then she softly said, "I want to talk some more, but in bed with you."

I just nodded at her, and held the covers back. She quickly slid in beside me.

She almost blushed and whispered, "I am not sure just how far I want to go, but I definitely want you to hold me."

I quickly pulled her to me, and wrapped my arms around her. I could smell shampoo, and she just smelled clean. She nestled her head down on my shoulder, and wrapped her arm around my chest. I only had a pair of boxers on, so her arm was around my bare chest.

She just whispered, "This feels nice. Feels right, like I belong here with you."

I just leaned over and kissed her forhead.

She gave a little giggle, and then said, "I was planning on telling you about Jennie and me."

I said softly, "I think I would like that."

She snuggled close and then said, "Well you know Vicky and I have done it, have sex I mean. Vicky just kind of seduced me. She started by playing with herself, when she knew I could see. Of course I was interested in what she was doing, and before you knew it, she was showing me, and helping me, and once she got her fingers on me, her tongue was right behind. Once I felt that little pleasure, she soon talked me into doing it together. Then you watched Vicky and I."

She took a breath her, and then went on, "When you were watching me, I was embarassed, but I wanted to do it for you, then when I saw you watching me so close, then you talked to me, that really turned me on. I came so hard on Vicky's mouth, but part of it was you watching. I will let you watch anytime you want."

I gave her a little squeeze.

Then she said, "So, I had the experience of Vicky doing me, and so one night over at Jennie's, we were talking, about boys and all, and we started to talk about sex. Jen was wondering what it felt like, if doing it would hurt much, things like that. Then we got talking about other things, like masturbating, we both admitted to doing it. Then she got to wondering about sucking a cock. They caught Karen Jamison, a girl at school blowing two guys, under the stands by the sports field. Not a teacher or anything, but a couple of the cheerleaders. Well that word got around pretty quick. So we talked about that."