Chapter 41

Lauren was sort of annoying, Matt thought. He couldn't put it into words what was annoying about her, but it was just something there. She was just so young seeming. But she liked him a lot. She even wrote him notes, ending with "I love you." He wrote back that he loved her too, even though he felt sick as he wrote it. But he wasn't going to break up with her. He liked how much she liked him, and he knew he had the upper hand in the relationship. He felt proud that he wasn't "whipped."

He wondered how much she would do for him. He decided to see if she was worth keeping around. He kept telling himself he didn't love her, and so it would be okay. If he did and she broke up with him, it would be like Jen all over again.

So one day he gave her friend a note to give her after school, telling her to meet him in front of his classroom. She showed up, giving him a big kiss.

"What's up?" she asked him.

"Oh, I was just wondering if you wanted to do something after school."

"Don't you have track practice?"

"Nah, I can skip it for once. I'd rather be with you."

"Awwh, really? That's so sweet, Matt," she gushed, taking his hand. "What do you want to do? We can go to my house. My mom's probably home though... "

"Well, we can go to my house. It's real close," he said.

"Sure! Okay! I've never been to your house before."

They walked home. He tried to walk quickly. He knew his parents would still be gone for awhile yet. He needed at least a few hours.

"This is my house," he told her, walking up the driveway.

"I like it."

"Thanks."

They went inside. She put her backpack down in the hall.

"Are you hungry?" he asked her.

"No, not really."

He smiled. "Wanna see my room?"

"Sure!"

They went upstairs. He was praying.

She sat on his bed, bouncing and giggling.

Yes, he thought. He jumped next to her, trying to get himself to laugh alongside her. He leaned in and kissed her. She responded, kissing him back and putting her hands on his chest. He leaned on her, and she slid down on her back, so he lay on top of her.

She slipped her hand into his pants, rubbing his hard dick. He touched her breasts, rubbing them over her bra as his hands traveled under her shirt. He kissed her for awhile, his brain screaming at him. They had made out before, but he felt different today. His blood surged through his veins, and his mind swam, knowing what he needed was at his fingertips, if he could just...

"I really like you, Lauren," he breathed. "I-I feel like I've known you a long time. Longer than I have."

"Really? Wow, Matt. I feel the same way!"

"Will you let me make love to you?" he whispered, kissing her ear and her neck softly.

She hesitated, but he could tell she liked the touch of his tongue. "I don't know... "

"Have you done it before?"

She shook her head. "But you have. I know you have, I heard so."

"Yeah. But I wish I was still a virgin."

"Really?"

"Yeah... " He continued to kiss her for awhile, then finally said, praying it would go his way, "You don't have to if you don't want to... "