First Love
Copyright© 1999 by Gidget
Chapter 36
Erotica Sex Story: Chapter 36 - The story of coming of age of three teenagers
Caution: This Erotica Sex Story contains strong sexual content, including mt/ft First
Jen went out into the night, pleased that Kasey had called her, and feeling happy that she had snubbed Ryan again. She was happier that he had called; she'd given him Melissa's number but hadn't really expected him to.
He couldn't find Dana's house the night of her party, he told her. He had lost the directions. Jen wondered if she would have slept with Kasey instead of Matt if he had showed up. Well, she was sure she wouldn't have slept with Matt, not if Kasey had been there still.
Why had she slept with Matt? She remembered some sentimental feelings that he had a crush on her, but now what she had been thinking was growing even fuzzier and fuzzier by the day of course, not that it had ever been clear. It would have been so much different if it had been Kasey, she knew, and deep inside she was relieved he hadn't gone to the party, though she kept telling herself she wished he had. Because if it had been Kasey instead, she wouldn't have been in charge, and maybe that was what she wanted. She just wanted to take him, like he was the girl and she was the guy. It had been wonderful though, physically, and the fact that it wasn't Ryan added a whole new dimension. A whole new world opened up to her.
She told him Matt didn't exactly regret it. She didn't exactly; it had hurt Ryan, and that was what she wanted. But it wasn't like she had used him like that. Plus, she knew, he had gotten what he wanted. Maybe they had used each other? But I didn't use him, she thought. Just because we did it didn't mean I used him. It just happened, she thought, we both got pleasure out of it, and that's that.
She pushed away any guilty feelings, telling herself that people had casual sex all the time, so why shouldn't she? Why should she have to deal with love all the time? Sex was a natural thing, and humans were animals, and animals did each other all the time without dealing with love.
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