Chapter 15

"The Brett Incident," as it was eventually titled, caused them to become even closer. He became a little more protective of her, and guarded her closely whenever they were together. Deep down he felt guilty about the whole thing, especially about his anger at her and for not being there in the first place.

He was the greatest, and Jen knew she was going to sleep with him soon, although she wasn't yet sure if she really wanted to actually do it for herself. It was getting hard to resist him though.

The only reason she hadn't let him was a fear somewhere that their relationship was going to change after they did it. They were so great together, nobody ever challenged that. Of course, she knew it would change, but would it change for the worse? What if he decided he didn't want her anymore? It had happened to her friend Melissa. She'd been with her boyfriend for eight months before she'd slept with him. He'd broken up with her soon after. Said she was trying to control him, he had, which was of course ridiculous. Jen didn't want anything to change; she was happy with their relationship the way it was she supposed.

But God, he got this look in his eyes sometimes. He'd stopped begging her, though, with words, and replaced them with the look.

In September she went to see the gynecologist. She'd been having problems with her period. It was lasting nearly a week sometimes. Once she got it two weeks after the last one ended. She'd called Ryan's mom, because her own mom was out of town at a medical seminar. Karen made an appointment for her with her doctor. She didn't tell her what the doctor said though, nor that she took his advice. She didn't want Ryan's mom to know she was on the pill.

The weekend after she first started taking it, she went to Alicia's house Saturday night.

Josh, Alicia, Scott, Corey, Ryan, and Jen all ended up in her parents' room, who were gone. Scott put in a porno movie, and they all watched, fascinated. Jen had seen them before; her sixth grade boyfriend had stolen them from his step-father and showed them to her all the time.

Everybody made comments about the action. It was just scene after scene of explicit sex, no bothering with a plot or anything. The guys made comments about "how loose that shit is" and "Boy, he's gettin' up that!" The girls screamed and covered their eyes when two girls went after each other, while the guys whooped and drooled.

During one scene, Alicia commented on how her and Josh should try the gymnastic position being used. Jen noticed Ryan looking at Alicia when she said that, looking at her longer than everyone else's glances. She felt a twinge of jealousy. Maybe he's thinking he should go for her; she'd fuck him. But she knew Ryan would never go after his friend's girl, even if he wasn't with Jen. She tried to push the jealousy out of her mind, but the thought of him thinking it still hurt...

She was sitting on his lap in an easy chair, his hardon pressed into her thigh. She looked up at him, and he smiled at her briefly, then returned his gaze to the screen, his breathing rapid. She looked back at the movie, this time some girl was sucking one guy's dick while being fucked by another doggy style. The girl was screaming loudly, and moaning while she pumped her mouth around his dick. He gasped and groaned, while the other guy grunted, stuffing his huge dick into her red cunt.

The movie turned her on, of course, but she noted that the close-ups of the fucking were gross. The guys disagreed, except Ryan, who just stared. There was a close-up of the face of the guy who was being fellated; it was contorted in pleasure. The woman in the movie screamed, and concentrated on being fucked for a minute while she removed her mouth from the dick.

"Oh, come on!" said Corey. "Suck his dick again!" He laughed, looking at Jen. "Jen needs to learn how!"

She gasped and laughed, insulted, telling him to fuck off. Shit, she thought. Ryan said nothing, and she avoided looking at him.

The woman kept moaning, and screaming. Josh laughed, saying, "Why, Alicia, she sounds like you!"

"Yeah!" laughed Alicia, who started moaning and crying out as if in pleasure.

Ryan said suddenly, "Hey! Get up a sec," to Jen, and he leapt up and went out the sliding door into the backyard. As he unlocked the door and disappeared behind the curtains, Scott chided,

"Hey, Ryan! Try not to cum on his mom's rose bush!" Everyone laughed.

Jen was horrified, embarrassed. Why'd he leave? He isn't getting off for real, is he? she wondered.

Corey looked over at Jen. "God Jen, why don't you treat Ryan right?"

"Excuse me?"

"Why are you so mean to him?"

"I'm not mean to him," she said, although at that moment she felt anything was possible.

"Why won't you sleep with him?" asked Josh, sounding extremely concerned.

"I don't know," she replied. She felt like the biggest uptight bitch on the planet, and like a big baby next to Alicia.

"Well, maybe you oughtta think about it," he said sarcastically.

"Why do you care?"

"He's my best friend."

"Yeah?"

"Dude, you don't understand, do you?" asked Scott in a disgusted tone.

God, everybody's ganging up on me! she thought. "What?"