Chapter 7

And so this was pretty much my life. I worked, the girls kept everything together, and at least once a day one or now both would come to pull me from my digital world and into the bedroom. Sure we had our problems, everyone does, but they were usually short lived and long forgiven.

Debbie was doing good in school, but had problems socially. Now that she was free to talk and to even have friends over it was hard for her to break all those years of conditioning. I also helped Debbie in another way. I showed her what I did in grade school to find friends and soon enough she had some. You just need to look in the right places sometimes, like the library and the computer lab. Places where those who get bullied go to find solace and companions. Not long after Debbie came to me asking if I could show her more about gaming. LOL, that was easy.

Now during this time Tracy was doing great with her online schooling. I tried to get her to find some way to touch base with people her own age and she told me that there wasn’t all that many fifteen year old moms. I shook my head. “Darling, there are over two hundred thousand new teen moms every year.” She was shocked as hell to hear this and to tell you the truth I was a little shocked when I learned that too.

We went online and learned that there was actually a local group of girls that met for parenting classes and also did social get togethers. She was nervous at first so I said I would go with her to offer her support. Now let me tell you that was a bit odd. I was the only man there and the looks I got when I first came in were less than friendly. The young woman who ran the program came in, saw me and made a bee line for me. She was polite enough but she wanted to know who I was and why I was there. I let her know the situation and she eased off. As the meeting went on word got around and the air warmed up a little. During one of the breaks I took Lindsey for a little walk so Tracy could talk without the two of us around.

When I got back the room had really warmed up. I got smiles and a few of the girls even introduced themselves and their little ones to me. After that we would go together or she would go it alone depending on the general subjects being covered. After a few months it wasn’t unheard of for Tracy to have a few of her fellow mother friends over to watch a movie or just hang out.

I got to know these girls and felt bad for some and better for others. I discovered the fact that the girl’s family wasn’t all that unusual as far as their reaction. While they weren’t tossed into the street, they still had hard lives because of their babies, but they were still happy to be moms.

The funny thing was that most of Tracy’s friends actually liked to talk to me and involve me in their conversations and activities. I even began to enjoy it myself and learned that they were all good girls who would do anything or suffer anything for their children. This of course meant I helped however and whenever I could.

I found myself becoming a friend, a shoulder to cry on, and an emergency babysitter more than a few times in the first few months. I can’t tell you how fun it is to walk through the mall with four young girls and their babies. People stare at you and I got more than a few glares as well. When I could get them to let me, I also helped with a little cash now and then but I was surprised at how independent these girls felt they needed to be.

Little by little they went from being friends to almost being family. Debbie loved having them around because she got to play with the babies just as she played with Lindsey who she truly loved. I enjoyed seeing them because they made our home an even greater joy to live in when they were around. Tracy loved knowing she wasn’t alone in her life and the words of her family faded even faster from her mind.

Then one time we had something happen that could have been a disaster. I had been working in my office when I saw Tracy heading to the nursery with a sleeping baby. I didn’t think much of it until Tracy came in still naked from the waist up and smiling at me. I knew that smile well and didn’t even try to keep working. Instead I got up and followed her back into the bedroom where she was waiting for me as she slipped her sweats and all off her lengthening legs.

I was amazed at how beautiful Tracy really was. She was cute as hell when she came to live with me, but in the last two years she had gone from cute to pretty, and now she was well on the road to drop dead gorgeous. Her breasts were getting even larger, her hips wider, and her frame was built to take it. While she wasn’t fat at all, she was very nicely padded in all the right places.

I slid into bed with her and she wrapped her arms around me, pulling me tight as we kissed. I rolled onto my back and she grinned as she took her favorite seat. She leaned down and we continued to kiss as she rubbed her wetness against my erect cock. This was driving both of us crazy and she sat up, wiggled around a little so she could get me lined up, and then she slid me into her slowly but firmly.

“I am so glad the doctor told me about an IUD, I was so tired of those rubbers.” She moaned as I hit bottom. I have to say I really didn’t mind them, and still use them a lot with Debbie. Tracy put her hands on my shoulders and began to rock. She had this little trick that I loved when she would slide backwards till I just slipped out and she would just rock enough to take an inch or so and then right back out.

She was rocking and I was rolling when we both heard a gasp. Our eyes flew to the open doorway and there stood Alisha, one of Tracy’s friends with her hands over her mouth and wide open eyes. I was too stunned to move but Tracy wasn’t. She rolled off me in an instant, grabbed a towel from the foot of the bed, wrapped it around herself and caught her friend just as she turned away.

“I’m so sorry Tracy, I didn’t mean to...”She cried as she looked at her friend. Tracy was stunned and so was I as I reached for some sweats. “Oh man, I am so embarrassed. I knocked on the back door and just came on in like always. When I didn’t see ya’ll, I figured Robbie would be in his office.” The poor girl was looking very sorry indeed. Tracy held her friends hands. “Alisha, it’s ok. I just need to explain. Please don’t let anyone know about this.” Alisha looked at her friend and then at me. “Oh, cause you two were getting it on? You don’t have to worry about me saying nothing.” Tracy and I began to relax. Tracy let her friend go and looked down. “Um why don’t you two go get something to drink while I throw some clothes on.” And she left for the bedroom while Alisha and I headed to the kitchen in awkward silence.

I set a soda down in front of her and she smiled at me. “I got to give you props Robbie, for a white dude you got it going on.” I looked at her in wonder. “I didn’t see much but it looked like you were making Tracy damn happy, wished to hell I had a man like you.” I sat there getting my head around what she just said. “Why like me?”

“Are you kidding? Your handsome, sweet, and treat your girls like princesses. Last time I let a guy my age near me I got pregnant and he got out of town. Naw, I ain’t gonna look at another boy again, from now on I am looking for a man who knows how to treat a woman.” I was still stunned. “So you aren’t upset that a man my age is with Tracy?”

She sighed. “Robbie, she is damn lucky. Boys and most men won’t touch a girl with a baby, and the ones who will you really don’t want to get involved with. They’re the kind who just keep making them and then move on to the next. That makes it really hard on girls like us. We still need love, still have needs, but we are on the outside. That is if we love our kids and don’t want to mess things up.”

I looked at her in wonder. Alisha was a sixteen year old Black girl from the area, with a very sweet little two year old girl of her own. Her family was poor cash wise but strong in pride and family. She had joined the teen moms club just to have people to talk to who also wanted the best for their children. I was always happy to have her around so much that she knew we always kept the back door open when we were home.

Tracy came in just them looking sheepish. “Um ... Alisha, I guess I need to explain.” Alisha held her hand up and smiled at her friend. “You made the first move didn’t you?” She asked. Tracy blushed and nodded. She looked at me and smiled. “And I am sure that Robbie here fought you off?” Tracy blushed again. “Yeah for two months.” Alisha laughed. “Damn Rob, you got better will power than most. A hot teen girl throwing herself at you and you resisted? Damn.”

Now it was my turn to blush. Tracy took her friends hand. “Thanks for understanding Alisha. Please don’t let anyone know.” Alisha nodded. “Don’t worry girl I got your back. Why the hell I would I mess up a happy family? Cause of the law? Fuck that shit. They don’t know and won’t know. I just wish I had someone like Robbie here to help me out.” That shocked us both. “What? You think I got Chastity by accident? Well it was an accident, the damn condom broke, but it wasn’t because I wasn’t after a little something something. Hell sometimes I think I was born horny. I was getting in the little boys pants when I was nine. I thought I was smart by having the boys wear condoms after I hit eleven but I guess I wasn’t smart enough.”

Wow, the things you hear when you least expect to. “Of course now I am paying for acting like a little ho. When they put my baby in my arms I made a promise to her and myself that I wasn’t going to act like that anymore. I was going to get educated, get a good job, and give her the life my momma always wanted for me.” She said with a sad look on her face.

I never thought I would hear that kind of determination and pride come from the mouth of a sixteen year old woman. “Well if there is anything we can do to help you know you can always come to us.” I said with all the feeling I could. She looked at me with longing in her eyes but then they grew wide. “Oh damn, with all of this I forgot why I barged in in the first place. I got to do a paper for school but with Chastity sick I haven’t been able to work on it and I was wondering if I could use your computer.”

I laughed and nodded. “Anytime Alisha, our home is always open to you, just maybe call next time?” She arched her eyebrow. “Well I did knock, but you had Tracy moaning so much I guess you didn’t hear.” This made Tracy blush and she even hid her face. Alisha didn’t know that was how Tracy acted and thought she had gone too far. “Oh I’m sorry girlfriend. I didn’t mean it like that. I guess I was just a little jealous of you that’s all, I didn’t mean to...” but she stopped when Tracy looked up at her with a sly smile.

I knew that smile, it was the same smile she had on her face when she first got the idea for me to start up with Debbie. I saw the wheels turning over and over in her little head. She looked at me and then back at Alisha. “Don’t worry, I know how you meant it, but he really knows my buttons. I didn’t know anything when we started but he has shown me things I didn’t know you could feel.” I saw the back of Alisha’s neck get a little darker and I figured that must mean she was blushing.

Tracy grabbed Alisha’s hand and got her to get up. “Why don’t we got to my room and you can use the computer there to work on.” She looked at me. “Robert gets kind of pissy when anyone touches his.” She led her friend off and I sat there with a strange feeling of dread. To paraphrase and old saying “By the pricking of my thumb something horny this way comes.” Only it wasn’t my thumb that was feeling the pricking.

I shook the feeling and since our afternoon tryst was shot I decided to get back to work. When Debbie got home from school she was her normal self and came to see me. I told her what had happened and she got scared. I calmed her down but I knew until she heard it from her sister that she would be worried about something getting out. I forgot about it and got back to my work. I was in the middle of a big contract and I knew that if things went good’ we were pretty well set for the rest of the year even if I did splurge on the girls. Of course I didn’t really have anything to worry about, I still had a huge savings but I was hoping to live off what I made so the girls would have something for the future.

When I was called to eat I was still mentally in the zone and when I sat down it took me a while to respond to the girls. I noticed Alisha was gone, but other than that I was still preoccupied. I did notice Debbie was much calmer than she had been when she got home so Tracy must have explained the situation. The rest of the evening went quietly because the girls knew by now that if I was in the zone I wasn’t good for much.

The real hit didn’t happen till the next day. I was sitting in my office running simulations on the work I had done yesterday. Let me tell you watching that made watching paint drying exciting. I was staring off into space wondering what new games I might like to try when I heard the doorbell. I almost got up but when I heard Alisha’s voice I figured she was back to work on the computer some more. I was surprised when Tracy and Alisha came to talk to me. It all started off normal enough, in fact I was kind of flattered when Alisha began to ask me questions about programing and seemed to already have a good knowledge about the subject. She told me she as thinking about going into computer technology since computers were everywhere and everyone had one.

I asked her what field she was thinking about and she explained that she wasn’t sure what would be her best bet. From there on I was hooked into the conversation with her. I didn’t see how Tracy had slunk off to leave us alone, nor how close Alisha kept getting to me as we talked. All I focused on was an excited girl who had a very good knowledge of technology in general.

I didn’t notice for a long time that Alisha had one hand on my leg as we talked, it just seemed like a friendly gesture. Then slowly my brain began to bring the little things together to show me a bigger picture. One hand was on my knee, she kept constant eye contact with me, her smile was soft and gentle, and then I noticed she was wearing a very loose fitting top which gave a full view of her ample breasts as she leaned towards me. I looked to the side and noticed Tracy had been gone for an hour. Even if she was taking care of the baby she would normally have come back to check on us at least once. I then looked back at Alisha and saw those soft, dark eyes looking into me with great longing. I had thought it was a desire to hear what I had to say, but I began to think she was desiring something completely different.

I was saved by the bell, or more to the point the chirp. I snapped my attention back from those dark pools that had bored into me and focused on my monitor. Ok, it was just the computer telling me the first run was done and showing me the results, but I used this time to pull myself back together. With this distraction I asked Alisha to ask Tracy what was up with lunch, affording me a little more time to think. I watched her leave and notice that this was the first time I had ever seen her wear a skirt. She always showed up in pants or shorts and a T. but today she was in a short loose skirt and a very open blouse. I added that to the fact that Tracy had left us alone for a very long time and it didn’t take a genius to figure out they were working together on me.

This left me with the question of why. Lord knows I had my hands, and bed, full already. I knew Tracy and Debbie weren’t the jealous types, but this one was outside of the family. Then it hit me, Alisha was talking yesterday about her loneliness. How she missed having someone to be with on an emotional and physical level. She had also said that she was jealous of what Tracy had. Then I remembered the look. Tracy’s little look that had made me feel odd. Could that girl have decided to make me available to Alisha? Well that wasn’t going to happen. I was already risking way too much as it was, I had so much that I didn’t want to lose, and Alisha was too much of a risk. Then those large dark eyes filled my vision. Not her boobs, which were wonderful, or her long full legs, but those large eyes had worked a strange magic on me already.

The girl was trying to be something more than she had been. She was honestly intelligent and bright. She was trying to make a good life for her and her daughter but to do so she was fighting herself and her nature to keep her focus on her future. If I did this, if I allowed myself to let her in, it would make her life better, and her future was a little more certain.

Damn it Tracy, why did you do this to me? Why did you have to let it get this far? How was I supposed to deal with this war inside of my head and heart?

Alisha came back with a soda and a smile but she took one look at me and that smile faded and she looked concerned. “Robert? Are you ok?” She set the soda down and knelt at my side looking at me with real concern. Her hand took mine gently and those eyes looked up at me with such feeling my head began to lose the battle. “Yeah Alisha I’m fine.” I waved at the computer. “The data just told me I’m going to have to go back and start from scratch after all the work I’ve already done.”

Her shoulders sagged and she now looked a little miffed. “Damn it Robbie, I thought it was something serious.” She smacked my thigh lightly and gave a sweet little giggle and sat back on her heels. “You gave me a good scare there you dummy.” She grabbed the side of my chair and as she stood up I was able to see not only the sides of her breasts but way down her blouse. I averted my eyes down before she caught me but I had to admit that had been a damn wonderful sight.

“Tracy said lunch will be ready in a few and I’m going to go help her.” She handed me the can of soda. “I’ll come drag you out of here when it’s ready.” Then she turned and for the first time I really looked at her body. Her hips were wide, but it drew into a very slim waist. As she walked her round butt made her skirt swing in a very alluring way. She really was a very beautiful young woman and now she was looking to me.

We had a nice lunch but I was preoccupied, giving monosyllabic responses to them both. I heard Tracy tell Alisha that if she spent much time here she was going to learn that I had my moods. “He never gets angry or mean, but when he has a problem he goes into what we call “the zone”. When he is in the zone don’t expect much in the way of conversation.” Then she giggled. “Or anything else for that matter.” The both giggled at that.

After we ate I helped clean the table and as the two were at the counter next to each other I decided to give something a try. I walked up behind them and gave Tracy my usual kiss on the cheek before going back to work, but I then moved over and did the same to Alisha before turning away and heading back. I heard a whispered “Oh my gosh, he kissed me.” and the joy in her trembling voice tore through me. A simple kiss on the cheek, a small sign of affection, and it got that much of a response?

I did something I never, or at least rarely did, I closed the door to my office. That was a sign not to even knock unless somebody was bleeding or the house was on fire. I sat down in my captain’s chair and began the rational evaluation of what was going on and what I was going to do about it. Ok, my mind was going to evaluate the what’s and why’s. Then my heart would listen and toss it all out and I would no doubt follow it.

I tried to do some work but I my heart was beating harder than normal, just like that first time I had decided to make love to Tracy. I was filled with anxiety just like that first time I stepped off the normal and followed the path that had taken me to where I was right now. A middle aged man with now two underage girls as my lovers and my greatest loves. It was risky, but then I had never been happier or more fulfilled.

I came out to find Alisha was bent over the computer in Tracy’s room working away, and I was fascinated with the concentration in her face and the serious look she had. Whatever she was doing wasn’t easy, but she wasn’t giving up. I went looking for Tracy and found her in the bedroom laying down with Lindsey nursing.

I looked at my little lover and felt my heart ache for her. I know she loved me, that she would never leave me, but when I saw here I couldn’t help thinking how lost I would be without her in my life. I crossed the room and she smiled at me as she laid there with our little one. I laid down on her other side and just looked at her. She smiled at me and then got a little nervous and blushed. “Don’t look at me like that Rob, it makes me feel so...” and she just blushed harder. “Your trying to get me together with Alisha aren’t you.” She didn’t meet my eyes and just bit her lip. Yep, total guilt there. “You love your friend and want her to be happy. You’re willing to share the man in your life with her. Does Debbie know?” She nodded. “And she agreed?” She nodded again. “And you didn’t feel like asking me?”

In a quiet voice she answered me. “No, I thought about it but it felt like I was trying to pimp you out. I talked to her about it, and she admitted that she had started to have real feeling for you just after she started coming over. The more she’s known you, and us, that has only gotten worse as she saw it. She didn’t want to intrude on our lives here, and then when she found out we were lovers she really felt it hard.” Tracy looked into my heart as she lay there. “I told her that just because you and I are lovers that didn’t mean she couldn’t show her feeling to you and see what happened. I also told her that if she did, she would have to accept that you wouldn’t only be hers. She cried on me and even apologized for her feeling and then thanked me for letting her into our home and lives.”

I just looked at her and let her think. “I don’t know how you feel about, but I know it would be a good thing for her. I can’t know how it will affect us a family, but I can hope that it will only make us stronger.” She said quietly but with conviction. I reached over the baby and stroked her face. “Then maybe we can make a little more room for her and Chastity in our lives.”

I could tell she wanted to throw herself at me but she, or more correctly her boob, was busy and so she just grabbed my hand and kissed the palm. “I love you so much Rob.” And I loved her too. “I can’t say we will be hopping into bed anytime soon, but I will promise to be open to her from now on.” She nodded. “And I want to talk to Debbie about it too. I don’t want her to feel at odds with anything that might happen.” She nodded again but her smile was a mile wide.

I slid off the bed and stood looking at my little love. She was so precious to me, and I would literally do anything for her and her happiness. I turned and left, heading for the kitchen to get a drink and so a little more thinking. As I passed Tracy’s room Alisha called out to me. “Hey Robbie? Could you help me?” I headed back in and grabbed a chair to sit with her. “What’s up sweetie?” She looked at me with a slightly shocked smile. It was the first time I had called her by anything other than her name and I think she liked it from the way she got a little flustered. “Um ... oh yeah, can you help me with this? I know what I want to find out but I can’t seem to get into the site.”

We sat next to each other, working around the site together, looking for her research information. Little by little we got closer and closer as we looked at the links and other things, looking for the goal we now were both searching for together. Then it happened, I felt her breath on my cheek. I knew she wasn’t looking at the screen anymore. She was looking at me and evaluating her moves.

I made my one decision. I acted like I saw something and moved my face a little closer to hers. I felt take a deep breath and then her lips touched my cheek. It was as soft as a butterfly’s wing brushing my cheek. I smiled and turned my head. She looked at me and I swear she looked like she was going to cry she was so afraid of what happened next. She saw my smile and she relaxed maybe a hair, but the tension was still all over her face. I tilted my head a little to the side, leaned in a little and waited. She then eased forwards, and our lips met for the first time. I felt her tremble and when she pulled back tears were coming from her eyes and she just rested her head on my shoulder.