Chapter 9: Legacy

Mrs Braddock had left for Europe. I knew that because she had sent an email through to Ms Fulbright. That was a relief as far I told myself. The one difficulty was that I was finding it difficult to stop fantasising about our sessions and the thought of kinky sex with either Mrs Braddock, her daughters or even all three. The distraction certainly wasn’t helping my work. I was worried that I might muck something else up and destroy the one upside of the whole Braddock business.

Worse still, I was beginning to wonder if Mrs Braddock might not actually have brought out something in myself that I hadn’t realised I had. I didn’t want to think about what the consequences of that might be. I mean of course I knew that there were professionals that you could pay to visit to indulge the sort of fantasies I was having. I’d never thought of doing such a thing before but although the events with Mrs Bradock had been humiliating and sometimes painful, I still found myself obsessing about them and wondering if there was anything I could do about the fact that they were taking up so much of my life.

I told myself that the best thing was to try to put the events of the last few weeks behind me, although even the merits of that thought came into question when I remembered some of the things that Mrs Braddock had so obviously enjoyed doing with my behind. Day dreaming at my desk wasn’t likely to be a good idea though.

Luckily, Vivienne Fulbright didn’t seem to have noticed.

When she called me in to her office to have a chat to discuss the results of my work for Mrs Braddock and the next steps I should be taking with the firm, I wasn’t sure what to expect but while she looked rather stern as she sat behind her desk, peering at me over her specatcles, she was actually being quite pleasant for once.

She pronounced herself very happy with how things had concluded with the Braddock account. “I’m sure that you have had to put up with a lot to keep Mrs Braddock happy,” she said, “but I want you to know that your dedication has not gone unrecognised.”

It was good to have that acknowledged, I thought. Perhaps my position at Havering, Wallace and Fulbright was becoming a bit more secure, I thought. If that was the case, the sacrifices made in keeping the Braddock women happy might turn out to have been worth it.

I was prepared to admit that a lot of what Mrs Braddock had instigated had played into my own submissive fantasies and I was even finding standing in Mrs Fulbright’s office while she stared at me in a rather appraising way more than a bit arousing. But, I told myself, there was a big difference between enjoying a fantasy while you jerked off and living in a situation where a woman felt she could just phone you up out of the blue and insist on you performing whatever degrading sexual act she had thought up to amuse herself with. Maybe I would find it easier to shrug off the memories of my encounters with Mrs Braddock as time went on.

“I think we have learned some things as a result of this project don’t you?”

“I suppose so.” I wasn’t at all sure what general personal development learnings I should have taken from it, apart from not allowing myself to get involved with sex-crazed divorcees.

“You see, I think, I have learned how much better a job you can do when you have your mind fully focused on things. I think the consequences of displeasing Mrs Braddock must have been very evident. I can see that I was perhaps a bit too consultative in how I’ve approached task setting for you. That’s not been fair and I apologise.”

I wasn’t very clear where Ms Fulbright was going with this. It was then that I noticed the book on Ms Fulbright’s desk.

“I’ve been reading this,” she said. “Ellen Hanson says we have to examine ourselves if we want to bring about change in others. That’s what she means when she says ‘Reach in to reach up’. I’m so glad Andrea loaned me her book. I think its really inspirational. I must admit I thought it was all just so much hype when I heard about it. I’ve always thought those American, “You can have whatever you want as long as you want it hard enough” books sounded quite dreadful. But, having read it, I can see what it is that everyone has been getting so excited about.”