Chapter 18: The Person Inside You

“What happened to your hair?” Milo asked him the moment he set foot out of the building.

He was dressed in an oversized t-shirt and shorts, so Sebastian took a moment to admire the young man’s muscular legs. Too bad his arms were partially covered, but it looked like Milo enjoyed wearing comfortable clothes.

Sebastian ran one hand through his hair and stared, all puzzled, for a moment, at the thing he extracted from it. Apparently, it was a bay leaf. “We tried to cook.”

“You and Tani?” Milo asked and gave him a cursory look. “That explains why you look like you just left a construction site. It must be flour on your clothes.”

Sebastian looked down at his clothes and gasped. When had he become such a slovenly person? He was known for his impeccable manners and attire as the Prince of Ifigia. “I must go change.”

“Not yet.” Milo stopped him with a hand on his shoulder. “Why didn’t you pick up?”

He had to be talking about those calls. Sebastian kept his face away. “I was busy. It was quite a demanding dish, and I couldn’t abandon what I was holding to answer your call.” He winced at the end of that terrible lie.

“Hmm,” Milo said instead of a proper reply. “That’s pretty cringey, dude. I can tell you’re lying.”

Sebastian groaned before realizing that he should have kept that to himself. “How can you tell?” He turned to face Milo.

The green eyes twinkled. What right did he have to be so handsome and have such expressive eyes? This boy would be his doom, without a doubt.

“You’re avoiding me, and I want to know why.”

“We just haven’t talked for several hours. I am not avoiding you,” Sebastian argued.

“Are you being weird about what we did last night?” Milo moved closer.

Sebastian wanted to take a step forward and meet him halfway. No, he needed to take a step back.

He just froze in place. “Why would I do that?” he asked, but his voice didn’t sound collected and cool as he desired.

Milo shrugged. “Dunno. But I’d like to find out.”

“Please, just give me a couple of minutes to get changed, and I’ll be right back with you,” Sebastian said curtly.

He needed to get away from that scrutinizing stare that was making his stomach feel strange.

“Okay. But don’t make me come after you,” Milo said playfully and offered him another gorgeous smile.

He just nodded and hurried back into the building. A few minutes were everything he got to be able to come back with a proper and credible lie that wouldn’t end up hurting anyone, and especially Milo.

He looked far more presentable when he faced Milo again. The young man surprised him by hooking one arm over his shoulders and making him walk side by side. “I thought you wanted us to go job hunting for you this Saturday.”

“Oh, right, right, of course,” he mumbled.

There had to be something particularly strange about the natural rules governing this world because Milo’s arm felt slightly heavy on his shoulders, and yet his feet were light, and he was sprinting over the sidewalk.

The silence stretched between them. “Milo,” he began.

“Was my cum weird?” Milo asked him at the same time.

“What?” Sebastian didn’t know what he meant by that until he remembered some rather bawdy titles of videos he had watched. “No, as I told you, it was quite ... tasty.”

“You hesitated,” Milo pointed out.

Not for the reasons he imagined. Sebastian was just struggling to find more commonly used words so that he could sound more like Kai.

“I’m telling the truth,” he countered. “I haven’t tasted others’, but yours was truly good.”

“You’re just saying,” Milo replied and moved his head away.

Once again, a delicious shade of pink was coloring his handsome cheeks.

“I certainly am not,” Sebastian protested. “I would like to have it every day, that good it was.”

“For real?” Milo stared at him.

It was hard to meet his gaze, but Sebastian wanted nothing more but to make it clear to this wonderful boy that his seed was the most fantastic thing he had tasted in his life. “Yes, for real,” he said with determination.

“Ugh, you’re driving me nuts,” Milo huffed.

How could he not be happy with that answer? Sebastian began pondering whether some other reply was actually expected of him when he was suddenly pushed into an adjacent narrow alleyway between two high buildings.

And then, his back met a wall, and warm lips came hard on his, crushing them gently. Milo’s hands were soon in his hair, and they were kissing like they had only moments left to live. Even the way Milo kissed was so different from everything Sebastian remembered. How frustrating it felt to have so much experience bedding men and yet feel inadequate in relation to this young man.

Yet, even this frustration had a sweet tone to it, a gentleness he couldn’t fight, his arms heavy against the stream of dark honey pouring through his veins.

Milo interrupted the kiss shortly and breathed hard while pressing his forehead against Sebastian’s. “Ever since I confessed, everything’s so different,” he whispered. “Did my words change you into someone else? Did I change?”

Sebastian caressed Milo’s face and then dropped his hands on his strong shoulders. “You’re wonderful,” he said, lacking the right words to blurt out the truth. Milo would just think he was lying.

“Oh gawd, you even know what to say to make me feel...” He stopped and shook his head slowly. “Argh, I don’t know what the hell I’m saying.”

“Try, nonetheless.”

“I never ... I never imagined you saying corny stuff like how I’m wonderful and stuff. Or that you could kiss the way you kiss. Did I know you so little before?”

“You couldn’t have foretold how I would be as a lover,” Sebastian struggled to offer an explanation that could make sense. Milo was right, on all accounts. But, on the other hand, Kai, the real Kai, would have reacted completely differently.

Sebastian was doing a poor job at being someone else, and he couldn’t resist, not for a moment, when Milo embraced him and kissed him like that. His entire body, no, his entire soul, wanted nothing but to make him happy. And he was not in the least in any position to do so, for the simple fact that he was who he was.

“Yeah, yeah, you’re right.” Milo laughed. “It’s just that you’re so different now. But I guess we’re both different. Love changes people, right? Oh, damn, I’m saying corny stuff again.”

“Is it bad?” Sebastian asked while caressing Milo’s shoulders. “That I’m different? Would you rather have me, the one from before?”

Would you rather have your friend?

He was just grabbing at straws like a mad drowning man.

Milo shook his head again. “No. If this is you now, heck, how can I complain? I mean, you went down on me --” He pursed his lips and blushed again.

“Just because of that?” Sebastian asked, dissatisfied about being reduced to that.

“No. Oh, fuck, you’ll think I’m a pervert, now, only thinking about that. But you’re so hot, you know? I mean, I’m so glad no one knows you’re like this on the inside. Anyone looking at you, they wouldn’t suspect, not for a moment. You know, that you can kiss like this, or touch like this, or have that kind of look in your eyes. I think I’m in love with the person inside you, Kai. Does it make any sense?”

Sebastian buried his fingers into Milo’s shoulders and looked down. A new strange feeling was growing inside him, so overwhelming that he could no longer speak or breathe.

“Kai, are you all right?”

Milo’s worried voice brought him back to his senses. He looked up. “I think I’m in love with you, Milo Bennett.” He couldn’t keep the astonishment he felt as soon as his words left his mouth.

Milo snickered. “Are you that surprised about it? I mean, come on, just look at his wonderful guy here.” He pointed at himself. “What’s not to love, right?”

Sebastian nodded. It was true. He felt drained, a bit empty, but happy and light in a giddy way that was not himself at all. Was he changing into Kai Martin? Was he losing himself? He tried to stop the bubble of laughter swelling in his chest but to no avail.

He snorted in the most inappropriate manner as he struggled against it. But then he was laughing. It was so beneath him to express emotion in such an unbridled manner, but it was beyond his power to hold it in anymore.

“Hey, I was expecting another compliment, you know?” Milo scolded him playfully. “Not to be laughed at.”

Sebastian stopped and kissed Milo one time hard on the lips. “I’m not laughing at you. I’m laughing at me.”

Milo grinned. “If you say so, dude.”

They were about to kiss one more time when something cut through the air with a swish, and Sebastian felt something hard hitting his temple. He brought one hand to his head, and when he put it back down, he noticed the blood.

Milo let go of him and broke into a run. At the end of the alley, rushed steps and someone yelling insults could be heard.

“Are you okay?” Milo returned to him as it seemed like he couldn’t get a hold of the assailant.

“It’s just a small cut,” Sebastian concluded.

If that had been an assassination attempt at Prince Kai’s life, the one to carry it had to be a simpleton. He picked the stone that had been thrown and was now on the ground. He examined it and sniffed it—no sign of poison.

“Are you sure?” Milo asked, prey to a heightened state of agitation.

Sebastian took out his handkerchief and wiped the blood from his hand. Then he pressed it against his temple. “Yes. Why are you staring at me like this?”

“Correct me if I’m wrong,” Milo started hesitantly, “but as much as you fight monsters and whatnot in video games, you’re pretty squeamish when it comes to your own blood.”

“Squeamish? About a little thing like this? Look, the bleeding already stopped.” He turned his head so that Milo could see.

“Yeah. Still, we need to take you somewhere to disinfect it.”

“Your place?” Sebastian said promptly.

He felt somewhat vexed about having his big moment with Milo being interrupted like that. He couldn’t understand his own feelings, but he surely desired to have the time to explore them at length.

“Yeah, sure. Let’s go,” Milo said and took his hand. “You sure you’re all right?”

“Stop worrying so much.”

“How could I not? I can’t lose you now that you just confessed to me,” Milo said in a theatrical voice.

Ah, he was making fun of the situation. So that was quite all right. And Sebastian was now eager to be back at Milo’s house where they could kiss, and maybe the beautiful young man would tell him again those incredible words.

Where could he go to find some food? He should have taken advantage of Pepin no longer being mad at him and ask about it, but he had missed his chance. Who knew where the servant was now? He most probably had better things to do than just be at His Majesty’s beck and call all the time. Not that Kai minded all that attention. He had only been there for days, and he was getting used to the good life.

He wandered into the castle. He needed to have on his order of business to map the place so that he finally knew where he was going. The last time he had wandered around like that, an assassin had almost ended up killing Conrad.

Kai shivered and grimaced. That wasn’t so nice, weird-looking people trying to kill him. Well, maybe they had their reasons since Sebastian was a pretty ruthless guy, but still, they were on the side of evil, and he on the side of good, so, in a nutshell, they shouldn’t be able to succeed.

Of course, there was still the matter of him being trapped in some kind of game, although he hadn’t noticed any possibility to level up or stuff like that. That was disappointing; he had completed a pretty huge quest, getting the dragon’s tear and all that.

He stopped in front of a large wooden door. He sniffed around. There was no way that was the door to the kitchen. It smelled nothing like food. However, it smelled of something else, but Kai couldn’t quite put his finger on it. There was only one way to find out, and it didn’t look like a forbidden door or anything like that. No ominous runes were written above the door, and no ominous smoke came from underneath.

It was okay, he decided, as he pushed the door open. For a while, his eyes struggled to adjust to the low light in the room.

“What brings Your Majesty to me?” A female voice came from the darkness. “I thought you were quite displeased the last time you visited.”