Chapter 1

These are all true accounts of my life growing up. No names have been changed ... details are best that I can recall. I am now 24 and openly gay. I do not know if I would have ended up gay if I had not been abused and used so often growing up. Who knows, I am not here to bitch about it or bemoan the point, I do know I was VERY interested in girls until the actions that started in camp when I was fourteen.

The first time

I was fourteen and sent to camp for 14-17 year olds. This was back 11 years ago, so mid 2000’s, I know we have progressed some since then, I would hope boys are put in this predicament any more, or at least are closely watched if they are. I did not want to go to camp, I had friends around home, was small for my age (about 4 foot 3 and under 90 pounds). Not only that, but I had just started jerking off and was able to cum, so I really wanted to be home and able to pleasure myself in my own room or bathroom. I think Mom and Dad wanted to get 2 weeks free of kids (I had an older brother who was 17 and never really home).

It was an all boys camp, it was about 2 hours from home, but one of those remote locations in the woods. No cell phone reception (cell phones were out now but not common), there was a pay phone in the main office that we could use for emergencies. We were driven in on buses, I seem to recall three buses in total. I am guessing there were about 70 kids there, and like 8 councilors and one top guy (I think he was called head scout or some corny thing). We would see this top guy like twice a week ... he would not be staying on location. The councilors were like 18-20 year old former campers.

We were assigned cabins on day one. It was alphabetical, nothing to do with age or friends, etc. There were 8 cabins, so that meant each cabin had 8 or 9 boys on cots.

As it turned out, my cabin had 9 including me. One boy was fourteen like me, one boy was a geeky kid with glasses and even more shy than me I swear, but the others were the ones who scared me. Of the 6, I think 4 were 17 and 2 were 16. They cursed, smoked, and were mean (looking and in actuality). I was designated the smallest trunk for my stuff, the last pick of cots, etc. The councilor assigned to our cabin was Andy. He seemed OK, he was 19, had spent 3 years here growing up, and gave us the layout. The rules were simple ... everyone had to be up and out of bed by 730 AM, we ate at 745 in the mess hall, we had activities we had to sign up for, there were free periods we could take. Some activities were mandatory (because our parents paid for them) such as swimming, canoeing, and overnight tenting (to toughen us up he said). Lights out happened at 9 PM sharp ... no exceptions. Daily showers were set by time and cabins ... due to water pressure, so each cabin would have half shower in morning, the other half at night. He then went on to say he knows that boys like to horse around and stuff, just don’t get too rough and no broken windows or bones and laughed. He then left us and told us to get used to each other, we would see a lot of each other in the two weeks.

As soon as he left, the older boys started picking on us three younger, smaller boys. Here is the run down on the cabin.

David – the geeky 14 year old.

John – the other 14 year old, he was fat, and had pimples all over his face.

Louis – 17 years old, long hair, smoked.

Glenn – 17 years old, long hair, smoked

Roger – 17 year old, looked like the meanest of the group

Jimmy – 17 year old, short hair

Chris -16 year old

Frankie – 16 year old, real scrawny looking kid, but seemed like the nicest of the 6.

As I was putting my stuff in my trunk, they saw my pajamas, and underwear. They started mocking me for wearing PJs and my small underwear. They commented “small underwear for small dick kid” and laughed. And then said “no PJs in this cabin boy ... if I catch you in them I will tear them off you and burn them” and more laughter. I soon put everything away and sat on my bed ... just begging for something to be happening to get me out of here. As I was, I had nothing to do but look around.

Roger was undressing and got NAKED in front of me, I was shocked, never having seen a boy strip in front of me before, let alone see a boy naked ... I saw his penis right away and remember the shock at how big it was (I only had me to compare it to). He caught me looking and commented “take a picture kid, it will last longer” and smirked. The others heard him and started whispering. Then they all started “changing” in front of me, no matter which direction I looked I saw boys undressing, and soon 6 different penises were around me and the other two young boys. I tried my hardest not to look, but I did, and they again caught me.

Louis walked over to me and rubbed it in my hair and said “there boy, you have dick hair now” and stepped back. The others took this as a cue and did the same ... all 6 wiping their penis in my hair and laughing at me. Finally I pushed away at one guy and as I did, I brushed his bird.

“FUCKER, trying to give me a handy this kid is” said Jimmy. I started to stammer “No, just wanted to get you off” I said. They roared at that (I did not know the other meaning of getting off). Then Chris stepped forward waving his bird to me and say “oh Kevin, get me off please” and it was inches from me ... I tried to get off my bed and leave but someone pushed me back down on the bed as all 6 surrounded me. One of the other boys tried to say something like “leave him alone” but one of them told him “if we leave him alone, we are coming after you” and he shut up quick.

Soon all 6 were noticeably playing with their shafts and getting hard with me helpless there. A few times a dick head would brush my hair, or arm, or hair as they continued. One of them (I cannot remember which one) began to openly start jerking off in front of me, and the others soon joined in. Soon all 6 were rock hard and enjoying the torture of me. “Oh Kev, your cute little mouth is making me so horny” one said. I had no clue what that meant either and looked to him strangely. This only made them hotter as he the said “oh yeah Kev, look at me as I jerk off on you” and they continued. I remember looking at them and seeing 4 of the 6 that looked different than my bird. I am circumsized, and I later learned that these 4 were not ... the other two (Glenn and Roger) were cut like me. I would say they all had large birds at the time (I was about 3 inches long at that age), and they were all like 6 inches at the smallest ... and about 8 inches at the biggest. I also recall their balls were massive (along, comparison to me).

I was blindsided when Chris announced “oh Kevy, I am cumming, all because of you” and his cum splattered on my tee shirt and arm. “GROSS dude” I said but he just smiled. Then another boy came and this hit me on my hand which I jerked back before his next squirt hit me on the cheek of my face. I went to wipe it away but someone grabbed my hand and said “you wait till we all are done nutting on you punk” and he held my arm. In the next couple minutes, the other four boys all came on me ... on my face, in my hair, on my shirt, and one boy (Frankie) made a point of cumming right on my crotch ... which I found odd. Once they were done, they high fived each other and started walking away.

“you fags better tell NOBODY, or there will be worse done to all you” said Roger. I started to cry, but nobody (not even David or John) seemed to care. I remember crying for about 30 minutes until I nodded off. I was awoken to a banging on our cabin door being told to be in the main hall in 10 minutes. The boys told me to change my clothes and get cleaned up. I did as told, put a hat on, and tried to get the crusty cum off me best I could, before joining the others in the main hall.

The meeting was to finalize schedules and sign up for activities. Our shower times for our cabin were 715 AM and 715 PM. Glenn was assigned out cabin lead, so he had responsibility to ensure 4 went at one time, and the other 5 at the other time. We also had to sign up for activities each day, and the guys told me to go around first and sign up for what I wanted, they followed as a cabin (except for David and John) and I noticed them either all signed up for the same as me, or nobody did. Archery saw none of them sign up, but hiking saw all of them, arts and crafts saw none of them, but cave exploring saw them all sign up.

When we were dismissed to our cabin to prepare for lunch, the older boys made us all rearrange bunks. I was given bunk 5 (right in the middle), Glenn on one side, Roger on the other side, then Louis, and Jimmy, Chris, and Frank ... at the very ends were David and John. I found it real odd, since the end cots seemed best.

Lunch happened and then we did some light chores and activities. We were all back in cabins by 630 PM and showers started. 15 minutes was all each group had, so we had 715 to 730. Glenn said it would be him, Roger, Louis, and me tonight, the other 5 in the morning. I was TOLD to strip naked and wear my towel only. I tried to object, but was soon told “do it or I do it for you” by Chris. I thought WTF, he was not even showering tonight ... but I did and quickly tried to cover up my privates, but all the guys watched and commented on my tiny cock, boy dick, etc. I got red as a beet out of shame and anger. Soon Glenn, Louis, and Roger got naked and stood around a while before wrapping a towel around and ushering me to the showers. We got there a few minutes early, and were waiting outside for 715 to come. As we did, Louis put his hand on my bum and rubbed it a couple times and commented my bum felt like his girlfriends Tina does ... the others laughed. “see if it looks the same” said Roger and Louis lifted my towel up revealing it to the others. I quickly pulled it down and tried to hold it there. Glenn then began rubbing my hair and face and commented on my sweet little mouth. Again, what is up with the mouth I thought.

Then the bell went off (they had a bell programed for 15 minutes) and soon 4 campers scurried out and we went in and they shut the door. I was shocked to see one wide open area with 6 shower heads. Was I expected to shower in plain sight of these goof balls I wondered. Soon the all dropped their towels on the bench and tore mine off. They then ushered me in to the middle shower head and all stood near me and again started jerking off. I looked at them in total fear now. I turned on the shower and started to shower hoping they would do the same, but all they did was watch me and jerk off. Not two minutes into it they began rubbing my bum more and rubbing their dicks on my body. They were rubbing it on my back, arms, chest, and bum.

“please guys, I am not gay” I tried to plead. “Neither are we kid, but that mouth is so damn inviting, I cant wait to have you suck this cock” said Roger. WTF I thought.

“Oh no, I said I...” I said when POW, one of them punched me in the stomach and I doubled over and fell to my knees.

“yeah Kev, we like you on your knees” said one and I felt my hair being pulled and my head lifted up and there in front of my face was Louis’ hard dick. “now be a good boy and open up and suck my dick”. I shook my head defiantly ... barely catching my breath.

“do we have to punch you again” said Louis and I started to cry again saying “no, no”. “Well, you can suck us or we can shove this up your cute bum kid” said Louis. I had no idea about anal sex, but knew that was not normal or good ... so the tears really flowed and I started pouting. Louis then rubbed his cock head on my lips and yanked my hair saying “open up and say ahhh”. The force of the yanking caused my mouth to open and he put a couple inches of his yet unwashed cock in my mouth”.

“you bite my dick, and you are dead” he said and his eyes glared. He then began moving his hips back and forth a bit and was moving his bird farther and farther in my mouth as my shower beat down on us. He did this for about a minute before pulling out and I thought my ordeal was over, but Glenn took his place and did the same, then Roger. After he pulled out they all turned on showers and took a quick shower. They told me to do the same, and I did, as I stood in shock.