New Girl
Copyright© 2020 by Samantha K.
Chapter 2
Coming of Age Sex Story: Chapter 2 - A new girl moves into a rural town and makes new friends.
Caution: This Coming of Age Sex Story contains strong sexual content, including mt/ft Ma/ft ft/ft Consensual Lesbian Heterosexual Fiction Interracial Cream Pie Oral Sex Petting Sex Toys
The day was pleasantly warm with a light breeze coming off the ocean. The sun shone down on a disused picnic/scenic view area on a long-since bypassed state highway. Two beautiful, breathless, sweaty girls in their late teens lay at opposite ends of an antique redwood picnic table that had survived several vandals with pocketknives looking to immortalize themselves by carving their initials into its top. Connecting the busty, bare duo at the groin was over two feet of plastic dildo in the shape of a double-ended horsecock that swelled from two inches in diameter near the flared tip to nearly three times that in the middle. The two girls had mastered the tip and the first six inches at each end, but rather than continuing to pursue their path to mutual destruction, each was lost in a sea of erotic bliss, searching for the next sexual peak, an orgasm that seemed tantalizingly close yet maddeningly out of reach.
They were so lost in that fog or arousal that neither Kathy nor Linda noticed the two men standing not six feet away, both holding their cellphones out to capture the moment in a video. Neither did they notice when after a few minutes of observing, the men felt moved to try to participate in the action.
Despite her attempts to force herself onto the huge dildo, Linda’s head was hanging off the end of the table. Her lips were parted as she took short, gasping breaths. Those lips were parted further by the glossy-smooth head of the cock that was slowly pushed between them.
It had been over a week since Linda had last sucked her brother’s cock, but the presence of a masculine member in her mouth still felt familiar and it was rewarded by some of the same reactions – her lips slid over her teeth, she relaxed her jaw, she slid her tongue out along the shaft and did her best to welcome it into her mouth. It wasn’t until her tongue and the required extension of her jaw told her that the dimensions of this cock were significantly larger than her brother’s that she was sufficiently roused from her erotic fugue to open her eyes and focus them on the pair of black testicles hanging beneath the pink and black cock that she now saw had a length to match its girth.
“Hmmpphhhhtt!” was all she managed to utter, as she twisted her head to one side to try to escape the oral intruder.
“Don’t be like that, baby.” The man told her, “You were doing so well there. You’re a natural-born cocksucker.”
Linda struggled to sit up while holding one arm across her breasts. She gave up the attempt at modesty when she remembered that she still had several inches of horse-shaped dildo stuffed inside her and hiding her breasts with one arm was a largely-futile gesture anyway.
“Kathy!” she called, when she saw that her lover had fallen into a similar trap. Kathy was groggily licking the underside of another man’s cock, this one coal-black along its whole length except for a purplish-hued head at the end that reminded her of a large ripe plum.
“Hunh? Wha? Who the hell are you? What are you doing here?” Kathy almost screamed.
“How did you sneak up on us?” Linda snapped, just to show she was equally offended.
“I’m Kel,” the man closest to Kathy answered, “and that’s Earl.
“We came up on those ATVs we rented,” Earl said. “They’re electric, so we can sneak up on bare-assed bitches fucking on picnic tables. We came up here to blow some weed, ‘cause the cops already hassled us once since we got here and the guy at the gas station told us the local fuzz never come up here.”
“Dave!” Both Kathy and Linda said in chorus.
“He couldn’t have known,” Kathy said in an uncertain tone. “Could he?”
“I sure didn’t tell him.”
“So that’s why we’re here,” Kel continued. “And I guess we don’t have to ask why you’re here.” He looked pointedly at the dildo connecting the two girls. “But I am curious about why two phat White chicks like you would want to wreck your pussies on this hunk of plastic.”
“I am not fat!” Linda asserted.
“Not fat, f-a-t. Phat, p-h-a-t. Pussy, hips, ass, and tits. It means you’re hot as fuck.”
“Oh,” Linda said, her anger subsiding.
“I thought it was ‘pretty hot and tight’,” Earl said. “Whatever. If you two want to get your pussies upgraded a few sizes, there are better ways than this.”
At this point both girls became painfully aware that neither man had bothered to put his cock back in his pants and they both of them were still erect and in plain view. The point of Earl’s suggestion needed no further explanation.
“No thanks,” Linda said, making the first attempt to squirm her way off the dildo. “We’re lesbians.”
“Oh!” Earl said, in a mocking tone. “See, I couldn’t tell that from the way you were sucking on my dick.”
“I just ... My...” Linda stammered, then fell silent when she realized that she didn’t want to tell two strange men where she’d acquired her oral skills.
“Get out of here or we’ll tell the cops you tried to rape us!” Kathy said, hoping she could pull off sounding tough while naked and impaled on an ultra-kinky fetish toy. Once she’d said it, she hoped her threat hadn’t put the idea in their heads.
“No you won’t,” Kel told her, calmly. He held up his phone. “We got vids of you two fucking this thing. If you tell anybody anything, this goes public. You two may be queer for each other, but you’re not ‘out’ or you wouldn’t be coming up here to fuck. I bet both of you still live with mommy and daddy. They don’t know, do they?”
The silence dragged on as Kel waited for a reply. Finally, Linda shook her head and Kathy followed her example.
“What do you want?” Linda asked. As soon as the words were out of her mouth, she realized how dumb that sounded.
“Well,” Kel began, “I could act noble and say I wanted a chance to change your mind about being queer. But that’s my head. My dick just wants to feel the inside of your pussy.”
“If we let you fuck us,” Kathy said, “will you promise to delete that video?”
Linda was shocked to hear Kathy negotiate with the two men. She was also shocked when the mention of a cock inside her pussy caused that part of her anatomy to experience a brief spasm. Leaving the conversation to Kathy, she put both feet on the bulge in the middle of the dildo and forced it out of her body.
“Ohhh!” She moaned involuntarily, as she felt the end of the dildo being pulled through her opening. She put a hand between her legs, both to cover herself and to see how much she had been stretched in the short time the big dildo had been inside her. When she felt herself close-up, leaving barely enough room for two fingers, she didn’t know if she should feel disappointment at her lack of progress toward their mutual goal, or relief that her body was more resilient than she thought.
“No promises,” Kel told Kathy. “No guarantees. No nothing. You do what we say or everybody sees you getting it on with each other. And this piece of crap.”
With that, Kel grabbed the dildo and pulled it out of Kathy. Both she and he were surprized at the resistance he met when the flared end seemed to get stuck, making her pussy bulge before stretching enough to release its captive.
“Looks like we got to you in time, girl,” Kel said, smiling. “You still got some snap left.” Then Kel’s smile grew wider, but he didn’t say what he was thinking. Only, “Now get down off there and start sucking!”
Linda and Kathy looked at each other, hoping for some flash of brilliance or cagey ploy that would allow them to escape their fate. When hope quickly faded to resignation, they swung their legs off the edge of the table and slid off it to kneel in the sparse weeds.
Kel and Earl presented their cocks to two reluctant but meekly obedient girls, who opened their mouths and extended their tongues so that the men’s cocks could be inserted.
“Not so fast,” Kel said. Then, aside to Earl, “These are a couple of damn eager cocksuckers, Earl! I think they plan to gulp down a couple of loads and be out of here before we can get our dicks back in our shorts. Well that’s not how it’s gonna be.”
“You!” Kel said to Kathy. “What’s your name?”
“Kathy.”
Kel gave Kathy a stern and expectant look while he stroked his cock. It took Kathy a few seconds to figure out why he was waiting.
“Kathy,” she repeated, and then added, “Sir.”
Linda needed only a glance to respond, “Linda, sir.”
“Good girls! I’m glad to see we’re getting off on the right foot. Kathy, you may kiss my dick.”
Kathy leaned forward and planted a chaste peck on the end of Kel’s cock.
“No! That’s not how you kiss a man’s dick! Kiss it like you mean it. Kiss it like you love it. If you’re nice to it, it will be nice to you.”
Armed with clear instructions, Kathy took Kel’s cock in one hand and wrapped her fingers around it ... or tried to. When her hand failed to circle his girth, she added a second, noting that there was still plenty of his shaft uncovered. With the beast in hand, she kissed the tip once, then again, and again, moving her mouth around to cover the entire head with passionate kisses. Only then did she allow her lips to part and her tongue to add its contribution, flicking and licking as she kissed. At one point she even teased his pee-hole open, and was shocked to find that she could get a good bit of the tip of her tongue inside.
Linda watched this with a slack jaw and a shocked expression, until Earl slapped her cheek with his cock. At that point, she applied the technique she’d just learned to the best of her ability and carried on with what she hoped would be the right amount of passion and enthusiasm.
After a prolonged, sustained effort by both girls, the cocks that they had thought were already erect had swelled to their true proportions. The two girls, both gasping for air from their effort, sat back on their heels to examine the result of their efforts. Their mouths hung open, tired tongues lying limp inside, with threads of drool running over their lower lips to fall onto their full breasts as they rose and fell with each deep breath. They stared fixedly at what they had achieved. Both cocks now sported rope-like veins standing out prominently along their shafts. The glossy skin over the large plum-like head of Kel’s cock was so taut it looked like it might burst.
Earl’s cock bore a wide spade-shaped head on it that resembled that of a snake. From the hole in the tip oozed a clear liquid that, when it threatened to drip from the end, Linda caught on her tongue before closing her lips around the end of his cock to give it a quick suck to forestall any further leakage. If you’d asked her why she had done that, she wouldn’t have been able to give you an answer. An objective observer might think it was because after such a lengthy, intimate encounter with Earl’s manhood, she felt a certain connection, a sort of possessive bond with it.
Kathy felt a similar affinity for Kel’s cock. She demonstrated this by giving it a series of tender licks and kisses, and she smiled whenever something she did made it twitch or jerk in her hands.
“Good job, girl,” Kel told Kathy as he used his hand to lift his cock up and out of reach of her pursed lips. “Now kiss my balls.”
As Kathy leaned in to put her face deeper into Kel’s groin, she saw two clearly-defined shapes in his wrinkled sack that were easily the size of hen’s eggs. After kissing them both, she opened her mouth and sucked one inside before running her tongue around it. She had thought she might be able to accommodate both of his balls at the same time, but she quickly realized that would be impractical. Because of their size, her cheeks would be bulged out like a chipmunk’s and she wouldn’t be able to do justice to either like that.
Kathy was giving equal time to Kel’s other testicle when he said, “That’s enough. You got my balls warm and my dick’s as hard a teak. I hope your pussy is ready for me.”
Shocked at the reminder of what all her efforts had been leading up to, Kathy released Kel’s testicle and sat back to put a hand between her legs. She was shocked again to find that not only was she wet, she was so sloppy-wet that she had been dripping into the weeds.
Kathy tried to stand, but after so long on her knees, her legs weren’t cooperative. She needed Kel to help her up and still had to lean back against the picnic table to stay that way.
Seeing how unsteady she was, Kel put his hands on her waist and lifted her up so she was sitting on the edge of the table, then he stepped up close to her and, with his hands on her shoulders, lay her down on her back. He smiled at her, seeing her firm breasts sag only the slightest to either side of her chest; her tight nipples now pointing in different directions. He smiled wider when she lay her hands on either side of her head, as if signaling surrender. As if amplifying the message, she also opened her legs for him.
It briefly startled Kathy when her left knee bumped into Linda’s right. She had been so deeply involved and intensely focused that she had forgotten that she and Kel were not alone, even though the other two were mere inches away.
“Pull your feet up and grab your ankles,” Kel told her, turning her full attention again to him. “don’t let go or I’ll hog-tie you.”
The prospect of being bound, even if by his command rather than physically, ignited a perverse spark of unbidden heat inside Kathy that quickly spread through her body, making it tingle.
“Yes, sir,” she said, taking a firm grip on her ankles and pulling them back while letting her knees fall apart until her bottom was nearly lifted off the rough wood.
“Good girl,” Kel said.
The words sounded so much like what one would say to an obedient dog that Kathy thought she should have felt humiliated. Instead, she felt a wholly irrational sense of pride at having pleased the man who was holding a big, hard cock at the entrance to her pussy.
Her moment of pride was abruptly interrupted when Kel let the end of his heavy cock fall directly onto Kathy’s stiff clit. The impact made her jump. The intensity of the sensation took her breath away for a moment, then she felt him swipe the end of his cock through her wet slit, up and down, and up and down, fanning the flames inside her with each passage.
“Please!” She said, and was surprized at the pleading tone of her voice.
“Please what?” He asked, leading her to the answer she knew he wanted to hear.
“Please fuck me! Sir!”
“Good girl! Now you get ready, ‘cause I’m about to make you my bitch!”
Despite the workout she had given her pussy by trying to ruin herself on the big dildo, Kathy’s reaction to feeling the fat head of Kel’s cock plow into her was overwhelming. Her mouth fell open, her eyes rolled back and her head dropped onto the table with a thud. It was instinct rather than volition that made her lift her hips up off the table to meet his thrust, a slow yet forceful penetration that seemed to go on and on and on.
“How deep... ?” Kathy’s fleeting thought was chased away by the sound of a sharp squeal from her friend and lover lying next to her.
Earl had one of Linda’s legs draped over each arm with his hands braced on the table as he worked his cock into the redhead, who was squirming whenever it inched it’s way deeper into her body.
The question on Linda’s mind, what little of it remained under her control, was the same as Kathy’s – how deep was this cock going to go. Almost as soon as the query formed in her head, an answer appeared. Earl’s cock bumped into something inside her, before pushing past it, then ground to a halt as it reached her deepest part.
“Hunh!” Earl muttered when he realized that he could go no further. Reluctantly, he pulled back a few inches before using his cock to revisit the same territory again. Then again. And so on.
Linda’s question morphed into an exclamation. ‘Full!’ was now the only coherent thought in her head, and that was tinged with amazement that she’d never had something so deep inside her before.
The flitting thoughts in both girl’s heads vanished under the waves of sensation each felt every time the rigid member inside them moved in or out. In minutes, those waves began to build on each other until finally reaching a peak that crashed over them, sending them both into convulsive climaxes so violent that the table creaked beneath them.
Neither Kel nor Earl so much as paused. It was as if, to them, this was just the first jolt in a long, bumpy road.
Miles later, to continue the analogy, Kathy and Linda were weak, exhausted and nearly limp from the onslaught of orgasms they had experienced. When Earl slowed, Linda barely noticed. He had to reach up and tweak her nipple to get her to focus what little attention she had on him.
After blinking a few times, her vision cleared and she was able to see his face clearly when he told her, “Gonna nut you now.”
It took longer than it should have for Linda to process the words. When their meaning became clear, her reaction was one of terror. She felt her belly clench as every muscle inside her clamped-down in a futile attempt to drive the intruder out of her.
“N ... no!” She managed to say, “Please! Don’t! Sir!”
All too late. Even as she pleaded, she felt a new warmth inside her that meant Earl was spending himself in her body, and that it was in a large enough quantity for her to feel it.
Linda had felt this sort of terror before, she’d been cum in and had the same sudden fear that she might get pregnant both times it happened. But this time was different. This wasn’t something that got out of control in the heat of passion. This wasn’t an accident. This was deliberate. Earl had even roused her from her stupor to make sure she was aware of what he was going to do. He’d looked her right in the eye and told her he was going to cum in her. And then he did. Whatever else he intended, it was clear that he wanted her to be aware of the moment he inseminated her, which was possibly the moment she conceived and her life changed forever.
Somehow, that instant of his complete domination of not just her body in the present, but possibly her whole future struck Linda as intensely erotic. The fear was quickly swept away by a flash of carnal heat that hit Linda like a bolt from Zeus. Once again she felt herself get sucked up into a whirling vortex of a climax, only this time she was keenly aware of her cervix as it jerked and dipped into the pool of semen inside her, trying to draw sperm up into her womb. Somehow, the idea that her own body was doing its best to get her pregnant was as hot as the center of the sun and she felt her orgasm double and redouble with each convulsion.
Kathy was no less fatigued by her ordeal, but she’d managed to hang onto her faculties better. When she felt Kel slow and become perfectly still, she was already watching his face and knew exactly what was about to happen.
“You ready?” He asked, in a husky voice that showed the effort he’d put in to get to this point.
“Yes, sir.” Kathy answered. Then, in as defiant a tone as she could muster, “Give it to me!”
Kathy’s feeble defiance was quickly extinguished by a torrent of cum and, while she resisted it as much as she could, she too was sent back into a maelstrom of a climax, helpless while her body betrayed her by trying to get pregnant with Kel’s child.
Linda’s eyes flickered open. She had no idea how long they had been closed. Orgasms always seemed to stop time for her, and the one she’d just experienced had been the most powerful she’d ever felt. When she looked up, Earl was still standing over her. He appeared to be waiting for her to recover. When she looked down her body, she could see his cock lying stretched-out on her belly as if resting. It was coated in a layer of white cum.
“Come on, girl,” Earl said to her. “My dick ain’t gonna clean itself.”
“No,” Linda thought, weakly following the logic of his statement. “It’s not. That’s my job.”
Mentally and physically drained, but determined to see whatever this was to its end, Linda struggled to sit up, then pushed off the table and dropped once again to her knees in front of Earl.
“Do I start at the end and work back, or should I start up high and work down?” She wondered. “Either way it’s going to be messy.”
The decision was made for her when a glob of cum started to drip off the end of Earl’s cock. For some fuzzy, unformed reason involving not wasting it, she caught it in her mouth and found herself once again with the head of Earl’s cock between her lips. She teasingly used her tongue to lick the sensitive spot underneath and was rewarded by feeling his cock pulse and discharge a small amount of cum, which she dutifully swallowed before sucking and licking it as clean as she could.
When she’d finished giving Earl’s cock as thorough and fastidious a cleaning as she thought it needed, Linda sat back on her heels to admire her work, which seemed to her to be as good a job as could be done, even given the circumstances.
Earl apparently thought so too. He smiled and held his cock out to Linda, who didn’t hesitate before leaning over and giving the head what she meant to be a brief goodbye kiss, but which turned into a series of tender and passionate rewards for giving her so much pleasure.
“Enough!” Earl said, in a tone of mock-anger. “Jeez, girl! One load to a customer. You’ve had yours. Let me put this bad boy away.”
When she didn’t stop, Earl put a hand on her head and pried his cock out of her mouth. It came away with an audible pop. Earl slid his hand around to cup her cheek in his palm, which put his thumb close enough to Linda’s lips for her to latch onto it and begin to suck.
“Damn!” Earl said, turning to Kel, who was already zipping-up his fly after having Kathy render his own cock spotlessly clean. “We got a couple of real eager beavers here!”
“Yeah,” Kel agreed with a laugh. “Maybe we should take them back to the hotel and share them with some of the brothers who came up for the reunion. I heard a couple of them gripe about the lack of talent around here.”
“Reunion?” Kathy asked, from her knees. She looked up from staring at Kel’s crotch with a wistful gaze.
“Yeah, we’re here for our ten-year reunion of graduating from the college over in Santa Mercal. Our old fraternity put it on. But for some reason they couldn’t book a place any closer than this.”
“Yeah, ‘some reason’,” Earl said sarcastically. Then, to Linda and Kathy, “Get up. Nothing else for you down there. You drained us. Ten years ago, I could have gone another round, but I’ve been sitting on my ass in an office too long.”
The girls got unsteadily to their feet and, for want of any better place, hopped back onto the picnic table.
“Earl and I were roommates in college. Man we had some good times back then! That school was party central. Took us both an extra year to graduate, but we did it. Now I’m managing some apartment complexes in the valley and Earl is still trying to climb the corporate ladder at Mega Corp.”
“Allied Industrial.”
“Whatever.”
After a look at the two girls faces, which clearly reflected a degree of disappointment in learning just how mundane Kel and Earl were, Earl said, “Did you think we were some badass gangbangers or something? Naw, we’re just a couple of horny bucks out looking to score some local pussy.”
“Damn if we didn’t find it too!” Kel said. “You two are the hottest pieces of ass we’ve had our dicks in since damn near forever. I mean, pretty faces and great tits. Your pussies are a little shallow for Black dick, but when you cum, they squeeze real nice. I’m sure glad we got here in time to save you from fucking yourselves up.”
“Thanks!” Linda said, before wondering if she should be happy at being complimented by a man who had just forced himself on her. A second later she caught herself and amended her comment to, “Thank you, sir!”
“Which reminds me,” Kel said, “Where is that fucking dildo? Oh, there it is! Give me that thing.”
Once he had it in his hands, Kel walked over to the edge of the bluff and, with a huge wind-up, threw it as far out into the crashing surf as he could. When he came back, he said, “I’ll be damned if I’ll stand by and let you two ruin yourselves on some hunk of plastic. If you want your pussies wrecked, I know a couple of Mexicans who run a freak-show down in Mexicali who can arrange that for you. Even turn you out afterward to make a living on your knees, since you seem to have a real aptitude for sucking dick.”
“So you won’t show that video to anyone? Sir.” Kathy asked, trying to get up to speed on the latest news.
Kel thought for a moment. “Maybe just a few close friends,” he said. “But if we hear anything about either of you claiming you were raped, or if you should maybe think you need child-support down the road, then this vid goes public in a big way. You understand?”
Both girls nodded.
“Yes, sir.”
“Yes, sir,”
When Kel and Earl had gone, and Kathy and Linda had time to regain more of their senses, they lay on the table holding each other and talked it out.
“I hate to bring this up,” Kathy started. “But you remember us talking about throwing away our birth control pills because we weren’t going to need them anymore? Please tell me you didn’t do that!”
“No, I didn’t. I couldn’t think of a way to explain to my mother why I wouldn’t need them refilled at the pharmacy, so I kept them, and for good measure, I kept on taking them. Why? Did you stop?”
“No, thank goodness! The pharmacy called to let me know that mine were ready to be picked-up and I couldn’t think of a way to tell them I wouldn’t be needing them that made any sense.”
“So neither of us is going to be preggers?”
“Looks that way. You sound disappointed.”
“It’s just that after all ... that, and all that cum he put into me, it just seems like I ought to be pregnant, you know?”
“Yeah, I know. Me too! But we’re not. At least I hope we’re not! There would be no bullshitting our way out of that!”
“No shit!”
Seeking each other’s warmth and reassurance, the girls hugged closer, until they were nose-to-nose. They kissed, then drew back a bit.
“Are we still queer?” Linda asked.
“That’s a very good question. I don’t feel any different about you, so maybe we’re still queer for each other. But I can’t deny that I came like actual bombs while that guy was fucking me.”
“Yeah. Me too! I mean ... wow! You know, I think I even came just a little while I was sucking his cock.”
“I know what you mean. When he told me to kiss his balls ... I kept thinking that these were the balls that were about to make me pregnant. If ... you know.”
“I know! I know! Kathy? Do you think it would do any good if we, you know, tried to clean each other up.”
Kathy laughed. “You mean ‘suck out the venom’, like with snakebite? No, I don’t. But that doesn’t mean I don’t want to try it.”
“Great! Top or bottom?”
“Top.”
“You always pick top!”
“Because you try to smother me when you cum! OK, I’ll be bottom. Go easy. I’m really sensitive down there right now.”
“Yeah, me too.”
After assuming their familiar ‘69’ position, the girls did their best to ‘suck the venom’ out of each other’s pussy, a process that seemed to involve as much clit-licking as it did cum-sucking. After a series of minor orgasms, both individual and mutual, they seemed to lose their enthusiasm for more.
Linda rolled to one side and turned around to straddle Kathy, leaning over so their nipples brushed against each others.
“Worn out?” Kathy asked.
“I guess. I’m tired. I’m sort of numb too, but mostly it feels just ... I don’t know ... anticlimactic?”
“Yeah, after a few really big cums, anything else is going to feel ... less.”
“Trouble is ... I’m still horny.”
“You’re always horny!” Kathy laughed. “That’s one of the things I love about you. ‘Pet my pussy!’ ‘I need your tongue in me!’ You’re insatiable!”
“Guilty. But it was your idea for us to go commando when we’re together.”
“True. I do love it when you jump in my car and the first thing you do it flip up your skirt and show me you’re bare and it’s just for me.”
“Kathy, I love you so much!”
“Me too! But I hear a ‘but’ coming.”
“Sex with you is ... wonderful! But ... I need a man’s cock too.”
“Maybe one that’s big and Black? No, don’t say anything. I know how you feel. Yesterday, I would have sworn you were all I needed. Now, my body tells me I have other needs too. Something in me has been ... I guess you could say ‘awakened’. Call me a slut if you want, but I feel ... empty ... now, and there’s a longing ... Linda, that man told me he was going to make me his bitch. And he did! I felt like I was a dog and he was my master and I would do whatever he wanted – even if it meant ... Linda, when I was sucking his cock, getting it hard for him so he could fuck me with it, I was in ecstasy! Later, when he was about to cum in me, I tried to put on a brave face, but I wanted it! I wanted to feel him cumming in me! I didn’t want to get pregnant – well, maybe I did a little, I mean, what girl doesn’t have fantasies about a guy giving her a baby – but mostly I wanted to feel ... used. That’s a bad word, but it’s the only one I can think of.”