Chapter 19: Sunday

JASON

Morning time. Again. Mornings haven’t been good to me lately and today was the worst. My bed felt nice and warm and my pillow extra comfy. It was a good consolation however my body was sore. I didn’t want to get out bed but the sun was coming in through the window and woke me up. I could feel Gracie’s presence here in my room. I could feel the warmth of her massive, to me, body. I was still laying down with my eyes closed.

“Are we late for the play, Gracie?” I mumbled.

“That was yesterday.”

“Oh good.”

I blinked as I lay on my side and I saw the most beautiful sight in the world: a nice big ole titty.

A BIG OLE TITTY?

I opened both of my eyes and sure enough -- two big old titties were staring back at me. I sat up right away.

“Owwwwwww!” I said putting my hands on my head.

“What’s wrong?” someone asked.

“My head. It hurts.”

“Can I get you some aspirin?”

“Yeah, sure.”

“Do you want aspirin or ibuprofen?”

“Whatever.”

“Give me a sec.”

“Hold up.” I looked over to see a familiar face. “Mary? What the fuck?”

“And a good morning to you too.”

“What are you doing in my bed?”

“I’m not. You’re in my bed.”

“How did your bed get in my room?”

“You’re in my room.”

“How did your room get in my house?”

“Silly boy. You’re in my house.”

“How did I get in your house?”

“You don’t remember, do you?”

“Remember what?”

“The party. Sue coming to get you. Any of that ring a bell?”

“Uh I’m not sure. It’s a blur.” I rubbed my eyes to get the sleep out and then my temples.

“Are you starting to remember now?”

“Some of it. How did I end up here?”

“We slept together. I’ll be right back.”

Slept together? Shit! Did I do it again? I didn’t want to know. Mary went to her bathroom. Her bedroom had its own bathroom, imagine that.

“I couldn’t find any aspirin. How about some acetone?” Mary said coming back into the room.

“Ew, no. Not acetone.”

“No. Not acetone. It’s um, assetin.”

“Ass of woman?”

“No! This stuff.” she said holding out the bottle.

I squinted to read the bottle “Oh, acetaminophen. Sure, that’ll do as long as its extra strength. I’ve got a splitting headache, Mary.”

“Let me get a glass of water.”

“I’ll just chew it.”

“No, I’ll get the water; only take a sec.”

This was all too confusing. I heard water run then Mary reappeared.

“Here ya go.”

“Thanks.” I was sitting straight up now, a little wobbly and a bit nauseous, but upright. “Mary?”

“Yes?”

“Why are we naked?”

“Well, you lost your clothes.”

“What about you?”

“They’re in my dresser.”

“Why?”

“Why not? I thought you’d like me this way.”

Boy, did I? Her boobs were round, big, with big areola, perky and oh so perfect. And ... fuck. This is Mary! My sister’s best friend. Uh, that is, my sister’s sister? I mean half-sister. My head was hurting too much. Come on acetone, work!

“Did we sleep together like this?” I asked, sheepishly.

“Apparently so.” came the answer from the bedroom doorway. It was Sue standing there, hands on hips, looking pissed. I laid back down and covered up.

“Get up, Jay.” she commanded. I complied.

“Oh, h-hi, Sue.”

SUSAN

Jay looked pitiful. He was naked and scared of me, trying to hide under the covers. I don’t know when Mary got naked, but naked she was. I let her take Jay with her last night, or rather very early this morning and I suppose she couldn’t help herself. I’m gonna have to have a talk with that girl. But right now, it was Jay’s turn.

“Good morning, Jay. Did you sleep well?”

“I, uh, don’t exactly know.”

“How do you feel?”

“Awful.”

“Good. You look awful.”

“Thanks. Look Sue, I’m sorry.”

Mary was trying to stifle a giggle.

“We need to talk, Jay.”

“Now?”

“Now.”

“You’re not going to hurt me, are you?”

The little guy was terrified. “That depends.” I said. I wouldn’t dare physically hurt him, but right now would it be so bad if he didn’t know that? He got out of bed and stood behind Mary a little and to her side and hugged her. It didn’t look like he wanted to leave her side.

“Jay! My room.”

“Okay.” he answered. He seemed reluctant. I guess with everything that’s happened I wouldn’t blame him. He knew I was mad. He didn’t know how mad, but then, neither did I. I made him sit on the bed while I took a chair.

“Do you want me to get dressed?”

“What do you want?”

“Yes. But I don’t have any clothes.”

“I don’t know why you’d want to. You seem to enjoy being naked.”

“So do you.”

“Oh really?”

“Didn’t you spend Friday night naked out in public?”

“Okay, fine. I did.”

“I’m at a disadvantage if you’re clothed and I’m not.”

“I don’t have any clothes to fit you.”

“It doesn’t have to be like that.”

“Like what?”

He looked me up and down and raised his left eyebrow.

“Don’t pull that Spock shit on me, Jay. Okay fine, I’ll get nekkid too.”

“You look good naked.”

“Stop trying to flatter me.” I told him. I wanted to be mad. I really did. I took off my clothes instead. I hate to admit it but I felt better this way, especially with Jay here a me naked with him.

“What did you want to talk about, Sue?”

“Why don’t we start with Mia? Do you like her?”

“Of course I like her. But what we did wasn’t planned. It wasn’t like with us -- you and I -- not that we planned anything either but I think we both knew where we were going, what it was all leading to. Am I right?”

“Yeah. You’re absolutely right.”

“It wasn’t like that with Mia. I couldn’t help it, Sue. I’m weak.”

“She forced you?”

“No. We were both naked, we were together in the bathroom stall, and she asked. I agreed and the next thing I knew I was ... well, you know the rest. Ohhhh, my head hurts.”

“In a bathroom stall?”

“It was the only place that had any privacy in the locker room.”

“So it is true. You fucked Mia. And in the bathroom stall, to boot.”

“Yes, it’s true.”

“She’s pretty, isn’t she?”

“Yes.”

“She has bigger boobs than me.”

“No. She does not.”

“Do you want someone your own size? Is that it?”

“Have you been talking to Gracie?”

“No. Why?”

“Because she thinks I do. Besides, Mia is bigger than me. Yes, even little Mia. Shit, everyone’s bigger than me. The fact is, Mia’s nice, Sue.”

“I’m nice.”

“Okay.” he winced.

“I was mean to you, wasn’t I?”

“No, not really.”

“I’m being mean now, aren’t I? And what about before?”

“It doesn’t matter. Let’s put all that behind us.”

“Is that why you like Mia, because she doesn’t ignore you like I used to?”

“It’s not important. Mia was just a one time thing. I think.”

“You do like Mia more than me?”

“I don’t know, damnit!”

From the way he yelled I knew he was getting mad now.

“It’s okay, Jay. Relax.”

“Sue, I really fucked up. Yes, I like Mia but I like you too.”

“Okay, forget that. What about Addison?”

“She invited me to the party.”

“So you fucked her too?”

“Oh, you heard about that?”

“I would think by now the whole town knows.”

“Did Nora tell you?”

“No. Emily did.”

“Oh, gosh, she was really ticked off about that. I don’t blame her.”

“She was more worried. You had me worried too, Jay?”

“I didn’t mean to.”

“What’s the deal with Addison?”

“It’s ... it’s a secret.”

“Don’t pull that shit on me either. I’m tired of secrets.”

“Me too. But, it doesn’t concern you.”

“You screwing around with other girls doesn’t concern me? Okay. Fine. That’s it then. We have nothing more to talk about.” I was getting mad again.

“Sue. Please. I did it for Emily.”

“Well that makes all kinds of sense now. Thanks for enlightening me.”

“I mean it. If Addison doesn’t give her approval then Emily won’t get back on the squad.”

“And you think that if you get on Addison’s good side that she’ll do that for Emily? I had no idea that you were so naive, Jay.”

“We made a deal.”

“Do you expect Addison to live up to her end of the deal?”

“Yes.”

“That’s naive, Jay.” I couldn’t believe he would allow himself to get duped by Addison. He’s not thinking this week with his brain. He’s thinking with something else.

“No, it’s not naive.”

“You don’t know Addison.”

“And you do?”

“Yes.”

“Did you know that her mother and brother were killed in a car crash two years ago?”

“No.”

“Everybody else does.”

“What does that have to do with anything?”

“Everything. You know something? You wouldn’t understand, would you? You never lost a loved one. Just forget it. I’m fucking naive.”

“I’m sorry.”

“You don’t know Addison. You don’t know anything, Sue. You’re right. We have nothing to talk about.”

“What about us?”

“I don’t even know if there is an us anymore, Sue. I don’t know if there ever was.”

“That’s not true. I loved you.”

“You what?”

“I-I spoke too quickly, Jay. I’m sorry. I mean, I liked you. I did. Really.”

“Liked. As in past tense.”

“No. I like you. I like you now.”

“No, you don’t. You’re mad at me. You shouldn’t like me at all.”

“Why not?”

“I do bad things. I screw around, okay? I can’t help it. I’m no good for you, Sue. You deserve someone better. Someone taller.”

“Don’t say that.”

“It’s true. Isn’t it?”

“No, it’s not.”

“Yeah, sure.”

He looked like he was going to cry. I was going to cry.

“Jay? I love you.” I said in a very soft voice.

He sat there not saying anything, just looking at the floor.

“Aren’t you going to say anything?” I asked.

“I want to say I love you too, Sue. I really do. I thought about it so much. I thought about us. I thought about how good that would be. But now I just don’t know. This week has me so confused. I feel like shit. This is not a good time to talk, Sue. What if I said I loved you but I didn’t? That would be even worse.”

“So, ... what are you saying?”

“I’m not saying anything. I just need to think about it. I can’t think right now. I need some time.”

“We didn’t say we were going steady, did we?”

“No. I guess we didn’t.”

“Then I have no right to tell you not to screw around.”

“Yes, you do. I let you down and you don’t know how bad I feel about that. But, I just didn’t haven’t it in me to say no to all those others. Do you know the temptation I had?”

“I think so.”

“This should not have happened. I wasn’t ready for The Program.”

“It’s not your fault.”

“Yes, it is. I should have known better and told Dr. Bruce that I wasn’t going to through with it. I should have dropped out when I had the chance.”

“We would still be back to the way we were before our Program week if you didn’t.”

“No. It was meant to be. Somebody or something wanted to put me through this.”

“What if I told you they lost your exemption papers on purpose?”

“It was an accident, Sue. Shit happens.”

“Can we start over?”

“Do you want to?”

“Yes.”

“I do too. But I need a little time. Let me get my head straight or at least wait until it doesn’t hurt so much. I have a plan first.”

“What’s the plan?”

“I’m going away.”

“Where?”

“Tibet.”

“Tibet? Why on earth would you want to go there?”

“So I can become a monk.”

“A what?”

“A hermit.”

“That’s so stupid.”

“It’s not stupid. I need to meditate.”

“You don’t need to do that.”

“That’s the only thing I can do to make my boner go down.”

“Are you messing with me?”

“No. Maybe. I don’t know.”

“Oh Jay. When can we talk seriously?”

“Tomorrow. Maybe.”

“Do you still want to see Mia?”

“See her, yeah. Have a relationship, I don’t know.”

“What about Emily?”

“I don’t want to hurt Emily. She’s been through a lot.”

“She brought it on herself.”

“But she’s been punished enough and I care for her.”

“You do?”

“Yes.”

“Then I’m in competition with her.”

“No. Don’t think of it like that. I’d rather you two be friends. I just don’t want her to lose her spot on the squad.”

“Is it that important?”

“It is to Emily.”

“That’s why you slept with Addison?”

“Yes.”

“She knows you slept with Addison. What are you going to tell her now?”

“I’d figure she’d find out eventually but at least now she’ll get her chance on the squad again.”

“You didn’t care if she found out, did you?”

“Yes, I care.”

“But you’d rather see her happy?”

“Yes.”

“Even if you two were going to break up? Right?”

“We don’t have a relationship to break up. We’re just friends. Or maybe not anymore. I don’t know. Yes, even if we never speak to each other, I want her to be happy.”

“So, I never had anything to worry about from Emily. Is that right?”

“You shouldn’t have. I told you that before. You shouldn’t even be worrying about Mia. But here we are and I don’t know what to do.”

“I was so mad at you, Jay.”

“I know. I deserve whatever I get. Just, dish it out.”

“At least we’re talking.”

“Thank you for talking and not ignoring me, Sue. I know sometimes it’s hard to talk.”

“I’m glad we’re talking too.”

“As for relationships, let’s wait. I have to sleep on it.”

“I think you need your rest.”

“You have no idea how bad I feel.”

“You nearly choked the toilet up last night.”

“I did?”

“You should have seen how much you barfed.”

“It was yesterday’s theme.”

“What did you eat yesterday?”

“Cereal, that’s all. I don’t know what I had in me to throw up.”

“Booze.”

“Oh, yeah. Sue, don’t ever get drunk. It’s the worst.”

“I’ll try not to.”

JASON

I’m such a fuck up. I felt like I was still ready to throw up. My head hurt. I guess this is what a hangover feels like. I do not recommend it.