I told you how much I loved you
But I don’t know if you knew
How deep my love for you ran
Because the feeling defied description

I told you how special you were
But I don’t know if you knew
How dear to my heart you were
Because there weren’t enough words

I told you how close I felt to you
We spoke of being kindred spirits
But I don’t know if you knew that you
Were the first to get so close in so long

I sat in your corner and encouraged you
When you faced those uphill battles
But I don’t know if you knew
How much of an inspiration you were to me

I made a lot of mistakes along the way
I asked for and received your forgiveness
But I don’t know if you knew
How I treasured that measure of faith in me

I sit and stare at my last words to you
So casually e-mailed that morning:
“How are you today, my love?”
I don’t know if you ever knew I asked

I sit and stare at the words you wrote:
“I love you more than anything in the world”
And today I wonder if you knew that last night
I would sit and read those words and cry

I know some questioned my intentions
But I do know one thing you knew:
You saw my heart, wanted it, and took it
And though you’re gone, it’s yours forever.

In memory of CJC