Chapter 1

I come from a well-off respected chinese family. I still remember when my parents were still together. But they parted ways later. I would find out later that my mom would become a bitch slut nymphomaniac that is why my father left her.

When I was young, I dreamed that my mom was also being touched inappropriately by lowlife boys. In the dream she was sitting with a dining table in front of her. The place seemed to be a diner. Then some lowlife punk sat in front of her. He touched her legs starting from the knees going up until her crotch, pushing up her skirt in the process, exposing her legs underneath the table. To my surprise her face looked like she was aroused. And instead of reacting or getting angry, she just appeared to be afraid or ashamed of the pervert, afraid of causing a scene, she just surrendering to what his filthy hands were doing to her legs and pussy. In my dream I stood some distance from the table so I can see how she was very much exposed underneath while getting aroused in being molested. When I woke up I hated that dream. But today it makes me horny thinking about how bad boys dominated my mother and me shamefully forcing arousal humiliating us in the dream. Ohhhhh.

I saw my mom also got touched inappropriately by our company driver. We were in the front seat of the delivery van. I was sitting next to the window. My mom was sitting in the middle next to the driver. My mom was mouthing off in anger about something, then our driver suddenly touched her back which was exposed in the upper part. Then he started massaging her beginning at the back, ordering her to relax and keep quiet. My mom who I knew to be a tiger suddenly became a submissive kitty! She appeared shocked but kept silent (like in my dream). She stopped mouthing and became afraid. She fearfully whispered to me in our chinese dialect that the driver is already molesting her. But she never protested against the driver for being inappropriately touched by him. It is as if she was giving him free reign what he wants to do to her! In my young age I was upset with the driver. But today I feel aroused from the fact we felt helpless from his rough advances. Aaaahh I feel like masturbating over it ohhh! I think my mom secretly got horny because when we were in her room she lay down naked in bed and asked me to massage her breasts. She instructed me to massage it in a way like I was mashing her breasts roughly. I think someone got to her that I did not know of. I think something already happened that I did not see. Because there was an instance when I suddenly barged into her room I would find her naked on top of another naked man. I would be very ashamed on what I saw and immediately close the door not wanting to disturb them. I would here that man talk to my mom asking her if I already had sex. As if he was eagerly awaiting the day I would also be initiated.

Most of our employed laborers would talk to me about sex. How they forced women until they would be craving for their cocks. Even if they don’t take them seriously they just use them as sex toys fuck-pigs. In my innocence I know it is wrong but a part within me is getting aroused. But I did not show it to them. Sometimes they would stick out their tongue showing to me how they would lick a woman’s pussy. Even though it looked obscene to me I did not reprove them.

I also often caught our store laborers staring at may mom as she goes to the comfort room to pee. I wonder if anyone of them did something to her. She must be very vulnerable from what I have seen. Later i will find out she will be impregnated by one of our poor squatter houseboy laborer, who also milked her of our money. The boy helper was not only content with my mom, I also caught him touching my sister inappropriately! Although I did not want something to happen to my younger sister I did not tell my mom because she was already his sex slave. Since my mom is older than him, I am sure he also wants our family fortune. But after getting a property transferred to his family name he would no longer be with my mother.

Another guy would also milk her money and impregnate my mom. I am having a hard helping to take care of my bastard siblings. Since he is just one of them, I would be sarcastic to him. Sometimes shout to him that I did not want him for my mother. Later he would spank me to put me in my place! I learned to submit never to defy anyone of them from then on. Then after he milked all he can from my mom he left her giving us a hard time taking care his bastard children too.

Then another lowlife guy would also try his luck on my mother. I know he was also planning to fuck her and milk her of money. He frequently went to see my mom. This time around I would never complain because I learned my lesson from trying to show my anger at them. I tried to show respect to him. When he sees that my mom is not around, he would grope my breasts, mashing it as though I was just another piece of meat for his side dish of satisfaction. I felt helpless, degraded humiliated and did not complain. He also told me stories how he fucked decent rich women, that after milking their money he treat them like trash, leaving their body very much spent after defiling their purity. Even though I know what he did was wrong, I would later feel aroused thinking about it. I know it is wrong to be aroused for my family’s demise but I don’t understand why I can’t keep myself from masturbating over bad boys taking advantage of the weakness of well-off women. Ohhh!

Our family money was gradually devoured and I had a hard time helping to raise my half siblings bastard babies. My mom later pawned her jewelries to make ends meet. Even the land title of the property was changed to name of one the lowlife boy who impregnated her.

I remembered how we along with the lowlife lover boy opportunist went to our rich family friend to borrow money. The pretty family look stunned that my mom would fall for the bad boy. Her face was grimacing in disgust at the thought that her close friend would submit to the lowlife guy since rich people have their standards. I only went with them once. I wondered today if my mom was able to borrow money and at the same time did our houseboy helper also lust after my mom’s best friend. The thought of it gives arousal that I know is ethically wrong. Of course the lowlife guy did not stay long.

My mom changed from being a decent person. Most of the time she would be the one approaching guys to befriend them. There was a time a cried and argued with her.

But I realized a part of me was like her. Because of her cravings for promiscuity she would buy a lot of sex magazines like Hustler Playboy O.U.I. Without her knowledge, I also secretly read them. I learned to masturbate almost everyday reliving in my mind all my bad experiences in the family and getting off from it. I know that it is shameful to get-off from it that is why it is my deep dark secret none of my relatives know. I just do not understand myself why I am giving in to these feelings.

There are times i dreamed that i was naked and shamefully exposed outside in public! I felt humiliated that anyone especially lowlife thugs could see me naked!

I would have an encounter of interracial violations and molestation from lowlife poor squatter ghetto dark skinned bad boys who are from brown skinned native race. Later this will cause me to become a more horny person secretly.