Chapter 44: Staying 100

April 14th, 2019

Hello Everyone,

I know it’s been awhile since I updated and there’s a reason for it. I promised that I would keep this 100 and I just didn’t want to be 100. I didn’t want to be honest with myself much less you with some things that have been going on in my life. In some ways, I’ve been regressing and it scared me. I had a meltdown like the one at the bank at a restaurant. My wife had to tell the staff I have a medical condition. My mind has had moments where the fogginess has started creeping back in. The fogginess is nowhere near as bad as it was.

The fact is I was scared shitless. I thought I had a solid handle on this and apparently not. It took awhile for me to man up to it again. The pain and pressure has returned. Thankfully, it’s still so light I can usually ignore it and when I can’t it’s more like an owie from bumping into something that fades in a few minutes than an OMG SHOOT ME NOW! kind of pain. I now have Aphasia every day to varying degrees, but so far have managed to keep my job -Yay me! Usually, my voice lasts long enough to finish my work day then I have trouble speaking the rest of the day. Some times my voice says fuck it and goes on strike at 10:00 am. It’s a crap shoot every day.