The Falling Oak - Learning How to Die
Copyright© 2018 by Darian Wolfe
Chapter 36: I Met My Shrink
Jan. 30th 2019
Today I met my shrink. I wanted to hold off updating until I met her. So here goes. The last week or so has been rough. My job has shifted my schedule over two hours which has fucked with my body clock and raised my anxiety levels as well as problems with Aphasia. I’ve lost a lot of work because of it. They say it’s only temporary i.e. a couple of weeks, but it’s very uncomfortable. I have to wake up every day at 6:00 am to take meds rain or shine because I take them every 12 hours. Most days, I have a child to take to school and a lot of days a spouse to take to work. Moving my start and end time doesn’t help me especially as my speech medicine starts wearing off about 2:30pm. This is manageable when I get off at 4:00 but not when I get off at 6:00pm.
Due to the added stress the headaches have returned. They are nowhere near as bad as they were though one or two has gotten my attention. I’ve had one red letter day when I was hitting a full 99% of my capacity. Not only was my mind crystal clear I was able to work on a plumbing problem WHILE discussing philosophy on the phone with one of my best friends. That absolutely rocked! Not only multitasking, but doing philosophy - WOOHOO! I had some trouble naming sources, but still I was kicking ass.
I was apprehensive about my meeting today. I worried about it for like two days. I was like this is gonna suck. I don’t want to talk about the Night of Hell, but I have to if I want to get better. My therapist is a Malaysian cutie with a Masters in counseling. She was very nice and easy to get along with. Today was mostly a meet and greet with a couple of explorations into the hot spots. For a youngster, she’s not too bad and her heart’s in the right place. We might be able to help each other. I need to learn to deal with this anxiety and she needs experience dealing with people who have suffered deep trauma. I think we can do it. She’s still full of sunshine. It’s kinda cute.
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