Chapter 1

Saturday morning, 8am. My 14^th birthday was finally here. Dina, my mom, fell out of her bed, somehow stood up and was stumbling around, barely recovered from an entire bottle of gin last night. The cheapest brand of bottled swill the liquor store carries. Now she’s taking another Advil overdose to kill the searing headache. Once she clears her head a bit she’ll realize she’s getting sober again and rush to grab another one of her many hidden bottles in the house. Then she’ll collapse in her bed again.

She used to be a good mother. Yeah, like an eternity ago! Not real loving, perhaps, but at least she seemed to care. Essentially, my mother’s dead now. Sorry if that sounds cruel but, for me, it’s true. A drunk, empty shell took her place. She mumbled something just now. I have no idea what, and I don’t give a shit. Three trips to rehab plus joining Alcoholics Anonymous, and this is the result?! AA. Alcohol and Advil is all that it stands for.

Meanwhile, back in the land of the living Dominic, my father, is wiping the sleep from his gorgeous blue eyes. The covers are kicked down to the foot of the bed, his long muscular legs spread wide to keep cool. His wide, modestly hairy chest and his forehead showing beads of sweat. He’s a hot-blooded, very sexy man. A really good man. I know he wants to buy a window AC, but my zombie mom spends so much cash on booze that there’s nothing left to buy one. Even when he smiles I can detect a sadness in him. It’s as if his wife had died and left him. I know the feeling.

Dominic wears tightie whities, his rather large package bulging noticeably. I saw his cock once right after he got up. The bedroom door was ajar for air flow and he didn’t see me peeking in. He dropped his briefs and his morning boner sprang up at attention! God, how huge!! I couldn’t get it out of my mind. At least 9 inches long and thick, really thick. I remember fantasizing about trying to fit that monster inside me. It was a sexy thought and a paralyzing fear, all at once!

Daddy looked up at me from his bed and, without delay, said “Happy birthday, Sarah!”

I knew he wouldn’t forget! I threw myself on the bed alongside him and hugged him. He responded with his usual, loving bear hug. We were lying face to face, and a large bulge developed right against me. And, he didn’t pull away, not that I wanted him to, you understand!

“Today is your party at the bowling alley!”

Daddy had arranged a party and invited all my BFFs. Actually I only had one real BFF, and that was Annie, a year older than me. That afternoon at the party Annie took me aside to give me a special gift.

“What is it?!” I asked.

“It’s what you said you wanted once.

“I did? I don’t remember asking for anything.”

She giggled and said “Just open it for Christ’s sake?!”

I scratched and clawed off the wrapping paper. Inside, in all its glory, 8” long and imposing, was a gorgeous silicone vibrating dildo.

“OMG! OMG! Thank you, thank you, Annie!!!”

Annie was my teacher, my mentor, my personal talking encyclopedia of all things sexual. Annie had a drawer filled with every imaginable sex toy. She had already been with several older guys, including her own father! I envied her closeness to him.

“You’ll love this one, Sarah. It’s long and thick so you’ll be ready for the real thing, soon I hope, and the vibration will curl your fucking toes! And it looks and feels like an actual cock! Isn’t it beautiful?!”

I gazed at it in pubescent awe. All I could think about was taking it for a test drive. Haha!!

“Sarah, you gotta call me after you try it!” “I will, Annie!”

That night mom was passed out in her basement bed, as usual. Daddy and I were watching TV. It was normal for us to watch together on Saturday nights until bedtime, but I said goodnight and went to my room at 8. He gave me another bear hug and wished me happy birthday once more. I wrapped my arms around his neck and planted a long, slow one right on his lips.

“Hey, Sarah, what did I do to deserve that?”

“It’s just for being you! I love you, Daddy.”.

“I love you, too, Sarah.”

As I walked away I caught a glimpse of another unusually large bulge in his lounge pants. Hmmm. I think he liked the kiss. Now I really need that dildo.!!

Once in my room I left my door ajar just a tad in the hopes Daddy might see me like I once saw him. Dominic’s so damn handsome! Just 34 years old, 6 ft. 3 inches, blue eyes, reddish blonde curly hair, adorable freckled face, ripped biceps, wide shoulders, narrow hips, long muscular legs and, oh yeah, a monster cock! God, just perfect!

And there his “wife” usually lies passed out in her bed, dead to the world and to me. Daddy deserves so much better than that! He’s a good provider with a heart so big. How did such a good man get cursed this way? He tried for years to save her. For such a long time all I’ve wanted was to make him happy again, to fill the hole in his heart she created.

I laid down on the bed and started diddling my clit. I felt it getting harder as I rubbed and pressed into it. My own moisture was building and made the rubbing feel amazing. I was getting pretty hot. I grabbed the dido, coated it with the KY jelly Annie also gave me and turned it on. OH! This’ll be good!

I pressed it against my pussy and swirled it all around so it hit my engorged clit. I couldn’t wait and began pushing it inside me. At first it seemed impossible, but my vagina eventually began to give way and, finally, in it went an inch at a time. The KY jelly paving the way. It was tight, God so tight, but I knew I could take more. I’d have to because I intended to be everything for him.

So, I pushed it in further, held, then further, held, all the while working it. Before I knew it I had the entire 8 inches all the way in, just touching my wall and, OMG, it felt soooo good to be filled so completely. And the vibrations! Suddenly I let out an unexpected yelp. Did Daddy hear? With nature leading the way I started withdrawing and then thrusting it back in, withdraw and thrust, in and out, over and over and over. Sweet baby Jesus! Thank you, Annie!!

That’s when, out of the corner of my eye, I saw a darkness in the doorway. It was Daddy peeking in, but I acted as if I didn’t see him. Instead I let myself make whatever noise I wanted as I climbed the mountain to my ultimate climax. Daddy stayed perfectly still and watched as I was writhing on the bed sheets, my legs flailing all over as I pleasured my pussy. I moaned, cried out, and whimpered. I was at the mercy of my dildo master, but in my mind it was him buried inside me, Dominic taking me.

I felt an inner volcano about to erupt. It got stronger and stronger as my pussy clenched hard on the dildo. Oh, God!! Suddenly, without thinking I quietly whispered...

“Oh, Daddy!” as my pussy exploded in ecstasy like never before.

I closed my eyes and envisioned him thrusting and thrusting, pounding me, making me his woman. Replacing his wife. Then I said aloud...

“Thank you Daddy.”

I heard a hushed gasp from the doorway. I looked. He was suddenly gone. The earth had moved. The aftershocks of my orgasm still rumbled through my body. After I had settled down and caught my breath I grabbed my phone and called Annie.

“Annie, holy shit!! What a thrill ride!” Annie couldn’t stop laughing.

“Careful you don’t kill yourself. It’s a weapon of mass penetration!”

Laughing so hard, I thanked her profusely for the amazing gift.

“Sarah, I know this cute guy. He’s 17 and he really knows how to fuck. He’s got a thing for you, Sarah, and he’s got a big one!”

“He does?!!” I asked.

“Uh huh. You want me to set it up for you? It’s time you had a proper fuck.”

She was right. I knew it was that time for me, the time when I wanted, no, needed a real cock inside me. But I wanted it to be with someone I loved, and who loved me totally. Some cute guy who just wants to fuck me wasn’t what I’ve been dreaming about. Maybe later on it would be fun, but not for my first. All I could picture in my head was my poor father, the abandoned and lonely husband, needing to give his all to a new lover ... me.

That gorgeous, good man who loved me more than life itself. And, dear lord, his cock was so beautiful. It was all I could think about. I imagined looking up into his sparkling blue eyes, his warm, lean body on top of me as his rock hard cock slowly, but surely, was penetrated me all the way to orgasmic heaven.

“No, Annie. Thanks for the offer, but I don’t think so. You’re the best, really, but not right now.”

“Ok, Sarah, but careful! You don’t want to die an old maid. Hah! Seriously, Sarah, we’re at the age when sex is the absolute best!”

“I know, just be patient with me, OK?

“No problem. But when you’re ready just say the word. Hey, maybe you could get me together with that hunk you call a dad someday, huh?!! Or, maybe you want him for yourself!?”

“Annie!!! Stop! OMG, Annie! You’re terrible!”

We laughed so hard, but Annie had really stumbled on the truth. Or, did Annie somehow sense it?? I knew Daddy would eventually hook up with somebody. After all, he’s a virile man with needs. Mom couldn’t get herself off any more, much less please a real man like him. Before he found someone else I had to make my move, and soon. Anyway, Daddy had been peeking and he had a major boner that night just from kissing me. I need to strike while the iron is hot, as they say. And Daddy’s iron was definitely hot!

I decided right then and there that it was time, and I was going to make it happen. It was 10:00. I went out to the living room. Daddy had turned off the TV and was ready to go to bed.

“Sarah! There you are, sweetheart! I thought you’d be asleep by now. I’m ready to hit the hay.”

Daddy didn’t sleep with the drunk any more. She always collapsed in a bed down in the finished basement. She knew better than to go near Dominic’s bed any more. She had her own bathroom and a kitchenette there, and even an outside entrance. So, mercifully, we didn’t see a whole lot of her.

Deep down Daddy probably still loved her. He’d done everything humanly possible, but to no avail. It was at the point now where he even stopped searching for her hidden booze bottles and throwing them away. He knew she’d just buy more and put him into more credit card debt than they were already in. Divorce was looming large, and I actually couldn’t wait. Whatever love he still had for her died a little bit more each day.

“Daddy, can I sleep with you tonight, please? It’s still my birthday!”

I looked up at Daddy with my big hazel eyes, the ones he always told me were so captivating. I also knew how to form my lips to create the perfect, pitiful pout. I knew Daddy was powerless to resist that combination, and I knew he was lonely. Yeah, maybe I was a bit devious, but I was doing it for our own good. He ran his fingers through my long blonde hair.

“Well, since it’s still your birthday, honey, how could I say no?”

My heart skipped a beat and pounded in my chest. I hugged him tightly and felt that wonderful bulge building between us again, and he didn’t seem to mind. I certainly didn’t. I pressed myself against it, hard. He didn’t stop me. Daddy was turned on, and I loved it! Was Daddy sending me a quiet message, hoping for the right answer?

He got into bed and held the covers up for me to get under. The night air was cool and I looked forward to his generous body heat. Daddy laid on his back, I on his right with my head burrowed under his neck, rested on his manly chest. His right arm under my neck and wrapped around my tiny 4ft. 11 inch frame with his hand on my tummy. Mmmm, I felt so safe, so secure ... and so fucking horny!

I lowered my hand from his chest to just above his groin and stopped there. I waited for some resistance, but it never came. He was wearing just his briefs. I wore the satin PJs he gave me for my birthday at the party, but I somehow never put on panties. You know, I can be so forgetful at times!

“I love you so much, Daddy.”

“Oh, sweet baby, I love you, too.” he said. “More than anything in the whole world, Sarah. You know that, don’t you?” I nodded my head, still against his warm, manly chest.

“Daddy? I really need you, you know? I ... I, don’t know how to say it, how much I need you.”

The room was dead silent. Daddy hadn’t said a word, yet. I was sure I had opened my big mouth way too soon! How do you tell your father you’re falling in love with him? That you need him, his love? His heart, mind and his body? What words? Ever since mom descended into her self-made hell Daddy and I grew closer and closer. But, what if he’s shocked and fights his attraction to me? The bulges, the peeking? So many questions raced through my head. Finally, the silence was broken.

“Sweetheart, do you mean what I think you mean?”

Too nervous to be specific I carefully chose my words.

“Um, what do you think I mean?”

That saved me from having to say it, at least for the moment.

“Sarah, sweetheart, I do love you, but...” Then silence, again.

“But, what? You only love me as a little girl, a baby? I’m young, but I’m not a baby any more. I’m a young woman. Tell me how you really feel. I saw you peeking. I’ve seen and felt your bulges. Don’t say it’s just my imagination!”

“Ok, Sarah. I admit it. I’ve noticed you more and more as you’ve matured. You’re just beautiful, and so sweet. Any red-blooded man couldn’t help but notice. I know you’re a woman, now. But, baby, I’m your father. No matter how I feel, there are rules.”

Now getting upset, I snapped...

“What rules?!” Who wrote those stupid rules? I love you, and you love me. I can’t get you out of my mind, and I know I’m on yours, right? I don’t care about 2,000 year old superstitious rules. All I care about is you. And I know you care about me. Please, don’t reject me! I know what I want, what I love and who I love. It’s you. Don’t worry, Daddy.”