Chapter 6

I spent the next few days hold up in my room, trying to pretend nothing was bothering me. But truth be told I was still confused, the last time I masturbated and I had a fantasy of my brother watching me play with myself. I still felt a bit turned on by it and a bit ashamed by it. It was my brother after all.

I knew it was wrong to think of my brother like that but my body was turned on by it. My head was so messed up that I couldn't bring myself to play with myself. Slowly over the course of next few days I did began to fell less ashamed and less guilty. Part of it was that I distracted myself by looking forward to Jen coming over on Saturday.

I woke up Saturday morning excited to be seeing Jen. We planned to go shopping at the mall for a new pair of swimsuits. We both had out grown the ones we had from last year. Her mom was going to take us to the mall and I couldn't wait to go.

I rummaged through my closet looking for a fun outfit to wear. Finally I found a cute blue tank-top and a white skirt that only reach my mid-thigh. I knew it was a bit risqué but I like it. I put them on and headed downstairs for breakfast.

My brother was downstairs eating when I got there. I'm sure I blushed when I saw him. The memory of the fantasy had popped into my head.

"What?" He said, looking at me funny.

"Nothing." I said softly.

"Whatever." He said, as finished up his breakfast and left the kitchen.

I grab some cereal and went into the den to watch some TV while I waited for Jen to come over.

A while later a got a text from Jen. "Be there in a few."

I excitedly ran upstairs and grabbed my purse and went outside to wait. A few minutes later Jen's min-van pulled into the driveway. I ran over and hopped into the back.

"Hey."

"Hey," Jen replied.

"Hello, Mrs. Williams." I said.

"Good morning Katie. How are you doing?" Jen's mom asked.

"I am good. Thanks for taking us to the mall."

"You're welcome," she replied as she backed out of our driveway and headed to the mall.

It was then that I noticed Jen's younger brother in the backseat. He was too busy playing on his Gameboy to notice me. I looked over at Jen and mock gagged as I pointed to her brother. She giggled in response.

"I'm so glad we going to the mall. I can't wait to find a new suit," Jen said.

"Me too." I said.

She told me about her trip as she we drove to the mall. Disneyland sounded fun except for the part of having to share a hotel room with her older step-sister and younger brother.

Her mom dropped us at the curb and told us she would be back for us at two. We got out and all but ran into the mall. We spent the next few hours going into different stores and trying on suits. We must have tried on a hundred suits but didn't find any we like. There was a lot we liked hanging up, but went we tried them on, we either didn't like the pattern and or color or the fit. But we had fun.

By one-thirty we were a bit desperate to find a suit. We went into this small clothing store in the corner on the mall. It only had bathing suits and felt like the kind of store that was only there for the season and then was quickly replaced buy something else. The only other person in the store was a college aged girl that was looking quite bored behind the register. She didn't even look up when we walked in.

We started looking and almost right away I found a two piece suit that I fell in love with. It was this pink and black two piece bikini. The top was pretty much just two triangles of cloth with tie strings around the back and around the neck. The bottom was like any bikini bottom. I hoped it would fit when I tried it on.

"Hey Jen look at this one."

"Oh wow that's hot," she said. "Man I wish I found it," she laughed.

After looking around some more we found her a purple two piece suit that a bit less revealing then mine.

"Come on lets go try them on," Jen said.

We headed for the changing rooms and stopped up short when we saw there was only one.

"Uhhhhmmmmmmm," I said.

Jen looked around and then gave me a funny look. "Come on," she said as she grabbed my hand and pulled me into the changing room. It was a pretty tiny room and we both barely fit. She pushed me into a corner and then locked the door behind her.

I watched from the side as she started to take off her top to try on the suit. I watched as she grabbed the bottom of her shirt and pull it up towards her heads. It seemed to be in slow motion as I saw more and more of her flat stomach being revealed, then the bottom of her white bra.

I kind of stood there a bit dumb founded as I watched her reveal the rest of her bra as she continued to lift her shirt up over her head.

I mean I had seen other girls change at the end of gym glass and had seen Jen change in my room, but something seemed a bit different this time. Maybe it was that we had never tried on clothing together in the same, and very small, dressing room.

She turned her back to me as she took off her flip-flops and then unbuttoned her shorts. I watched in awe and her panties came into view as her shorts dropped down her toned legs to the floor. I'm not sure why I found this very sexy, her standing there only in her bra and panties. I had seen a lot of girls in the locker room in just underwear, but this was the first time I felt turned on by the sight.

I watch Jen unclasp her bra and turn to face me. It felt like forever for her bra to fall away and reveal her two big boobs. I was a bit envious of them; they were a lot bigger than mine. Her light brown nipples were protruding out from her skin and I seemed to be entranced by them. It seem like she stood there forever before bending over to get the bathing suit to try on. I could feel a slight tingle and warming sensation between my legs as I looked at my best friend half naked.

"Come on, aren't you going to try on the suit?" she asked.

Her question was a jolt back to reality and I couldn't help but feel relieved the she didn't seem to notice that I was staring at her boobs. I quickly took off my top and skirt. Then shyly I removed my bra. I looked over at Jen and she was admiring herself in the mirror. The purple bikini looked great on her. It covered her a lot, but there was a nice bit of cleavage and it left little to the imagination. And it was hot!

I quickly put my two piece bathing suit on. I looked at myself in the mirror and felt a bit disappointed. My suit was more revealing then hers but she looked hotter than I did.

"Wow!" Jen said to me. "You look great in that."

That made me smile.

"Your suit is hot!" I said looking her over.

"Yea we're both two hot and sexy girls!" She laughed as she did a small twirl as to show off.

I had to agree with her as I laughed along with her.

"We need to get these." she said.

"Oh yea! We'll be the hottest girls at the pool this summer."

"We better change. It's almost time to meet my mom."

We quickly changed out of the suits into our clothes. I have to admit that I watched her change out of the corner of my eye. And that I felt a bit disappointed when she put her bra and then her shirt back on.

We left the changing room and went up to the counter. The girl there almost seemed annoyed that we were bothering her. Grabbing our purchases we ran outside just in time to see her mom pull up at the curb. We got in and her mom drove us back to my house.

"See you tomorrow, mom." Jen said went we got out.

We quickly ran upstairs to my room to change into the suit and try them out in my pool. We spent the rest of the day laying out in the sun or swimming in the pool. We both really enjoy being in the water and we both are really good swimmers.

I'm not sure why but I couldn't help myself and I kept finding myself stealing glances at Jen's body all afternoon. There was just something exciting about seeing my best friend nearly naked body glistening in the sun.

At one point I had gotten out of the pool first and was drying off with a towel, I couldn't help but stare at my friend as she slowly walked up the steps of the pool towards me. The water dripping off her body, off her beautiful boobs, really got me going. I really wanted to touch myself, run my hands over my boobs, caressing my nipples. Run my hands down my body to between my legs and slide my fingers through my slit. But I couldn't do that in front of my friend.

I really tried to ignore my desires, but found that the restraining only made my desire increase. Feeling very frustrated, I lay back in the lawn chair and closed my eye so I wouldn't be tempted to look at her again. It took a long time before I felt myself calm.

When it started getting cool outside we went in and made some dinner. I am not sure why but neither of us made a move to change out of our bathing suits. I really didn't mind too much. I got to keep looking at Jen's body.

After dinner we moved up to my room and Jen headed the bathroom to shower and change. I just lay down in my bed while I waited for my turn. I tried to figure out why my friend's body was turning me on. I never felt this way before. I had seen her a lot of time in a sexy bathing suit and never felt this way before. I was no closer to an answer when Jen came back.

She had out on some PJ's, a loose fitting light pink stripped top and matching short. I grabbed my PJ's, a light green tank top and matching shorts, and went and showered. After my shower we hung out in my room talking about her vacation and stuff girls talk about.

"So did you like the book?" Jen asked me while pointing to the book she loaned me.

I could feel my face turn red as the vampire sex scene popped into my head.

"Looks like you did." She laughed.

I felt so embarrassed because I couldn't help but feel excited by the sex from the book.

"I bet it make you feel excited." She continued to tease me.

I couldn't look her in the face, I felt so guilty.

"Did you touch yourself?" She teased.

My face felt like it was on fire. I was blushing so hard.

"Oh my god! You did! Didn't you?"

"No!" I protested.

"Come on tell me the truth."

I just nodded.

"Yea me too" she quietly said.

I looked up at her and saw she was pleasantly smiling at me.

"I found my brother's porn stash." I blurted out.

"What..."

"I found my brother's porn stash."

"Oh my god. You didn't!" She giggled.

"Yea. Hiding under his bed." I giggled.

"I want to see." Jen said.

"Umm."

"Please?" She pleaded.

"Ummm. I'm not sure if Alex is home or not."

"Come on. Let's go."

Jen grabbed my hand and all but dragged me out of my room and down the hall. We stopped outside my brothers closed bedroom door. I tried not to giggle as we both listened to the door, hoping my brother wasn't in the room.

Jen looked questionably at me and I shook my head no, I hadn't heard anything. She reached out and very slowly turned the door knob. I heard the lock unclick and then she gently pushed the door open. I let out I sigh of relief as I saw my brother wasn't home.

"Where are they?" Jen asked in anticipation.

"Under the bed." I replied as I walked over to my brother's bed.

"Show me." Jen giggled.

I lifted up the mattress to reveal a bunch of porn mags.

"Ohhhh my" Jen exclaimed!

She stood there for a moment before tentatively reaching for one that had a picture of a half naked, big boobed, blonde on the cover. She started giggling softly as she picked it up and slowly began to flipping through the pages.

As we stood there I began to worry about when my brother might come home. I was sure he would be mad that I was in his room, not to mention going through his stuff. That voice in the back of my head kept saying he would be home any moment now and I sure didn't want to be caught in his room going through his pornos.

The mattress began to start getting heavy as I stood there watching Jen finish the magazine she was looking at and try to choose another one.

"Come. We should go," I pleaded to Jen.

"Why? This is fun," Jen laughed.

"I don't want my brother to come home and find us in his room."

"But, I want to keep looking at them."

"And this mattress is getting heavy."

"Wuss," Jen laughed.

"Come on. Just grab some and let's go back to my room," I pleaded.

"Fine." Jen said as she grab up a bunch of magazines.

I put the mattress back in place and we raced back to my room with our haul of magazines. I felt relieved when we made it to my room without my brother coming home. I closed my bed room door as Jen ran to my bed and flopped down on her stomach and began to flip though one of the porno mags.

I couldn't help but smile as I watched Jen enjoying herself as she looked through the pornos. I ran over to the bed and flopped down next to her and grabbed a magazine for myself. The only sound for the few moments was the sound of flipping pages and Jen's giggle as she turned a page and discovered some new picture of a naked woman.

"Hey, wait." Jen said. "What were you doing in Alex's room anyway? That you found these."

"Oh. I was watching TV the other day and Alex came home and wanted to play X-Box. But I didn't want to give up the TV. So we decided to play Mario Kart. The winner got the TV. Halfway through the races we upped the stakes and the loser had to do the others laundry."

"Ha ha ha. You lost." Jen said.

"Yea..." I replied. "I was winning till that jerk knocked me off Rainbow Road."

"Ha ha ha." Jen laughed at me.

"So went I was in taking the sheets off the bed, a magazine fell out. When I picked up the mattress to put it back, I found the rest."

"Sounds like you had a fun week." Jen teased me.

"You don't know the half of it..." I mumbled. Oh my god, why did I just say that. I didn't want to tell her what happened. It would be so embarrassing to tell her that I umm played myself after watching my brother do the same.

"What... ?" she asked.

"Ummm..." Did I really want to tell her about my confused feeling towards my brother? Would she find it sexy or would she think I'm disgusting? She is my best friend and I can usually tell her anything, but did I want to share this, I wondered.

"You got a dirty secret don't you?" Jen pried, as she sat up and crossed her legs in front of her.

"Well ... I..."

"Come on spill it! What happened?"

I didn't want to share this. Or did I?

"Come on. Tell me." She commanded.

"Ok. Ok." I said. Somehow I found myself giving in to her.

"Oh. This should be good." Jen said.

I sat up, mirroring Jen's position, siting with my legs crossed in front of her, and began to tell her what happened.

"'It all started when I got home Friday." I said. "Before I could even put my school bag down, Alex started yelling at me. That it was my turn to wash the Max, our dog and all. I was like no its not. He was like it is. I was like, whatever, I'll do it.

I hate having to wash the dog. He gets everything soaking wet." I explained. "I practically had force Max upstairs and into the tub." I said. "So of course once he gets wet he starts splashing water all over the place as I am trying to clean him."

"Ha ha ha," Jen laughed at me.

"It sucked." I replied. "Especially since I never changed out of my school uniform, so I still was wearing the white shirt. Here I am soaking wet and my brother barges into the bathroom and stops short."

"Oh my god." Jen laughed.

"He just stands there staring at my chest."

"Your shirt was see-through wasn't it?"

"Yup, I looked down and my boobs were clearly visible through the wet shirt." I laughed.

"He just stood there?"

"Yea that jerk just stood staring." I laughed. "So I threw a towel at him."

"Oh my god, what a jerk." Jen agreed with me.

"Then he just took off and ran back to his room. I dry off the dog and cleaned up the bathroom. On my back to my room to change I passed by Alex's room. I heard some funny noises coming from his room. The door was open a crack. So I look in. And..."

"Ohhh. What was he doing in there?"

"You're not going to believe it." I teased.

"Oh my god. Tell me."

"Well ... He was lying on his bed with his pants down around his ankles." I exclaimed.

"Oh my god! You saw his thingy?" Jen giggled.

"Yea," I laughed. I started feeling a bit excited as I was telling Jen my story. Part of me was still like, what are you doing tell her this. The rest of me was kind of getting turned on, though I wasn't sure if it was from remembering it or from the telling of the story.

"And guess what. He was playing with it." I said.