Chapter 1

Yeah, I’m moving to the UK. For college. I told everyone it’s because I wanted to explore, to get out of my comfort zone, to try something new. But the truth is a little messier. I fought with my parents. I felt stuck in a version of myself that never really fit. And maybe, deep down, I just wanted to forget him.

Luke.

The guy I was in love with. Maybe I still am. My pillow definitely knows how much I still cry over him. He took my virginity and then told me we were better off as friends. It wasn’t that simple, of course. It never is. But that’s where this story starts. It starts with him.

Everything Meant Nothing is a story about first love, first heartbreak, and all the things you don’t know how to let go of. The first three chapters take place during the summer before college; an arc I’m calling Summer After Him. That’s where it all begins.

Then we move. New city. New country. New dorm. New roommates. New distractions. New feelings I’m not ready for. But we’ll get there.

Right now, it’s still him.

Character Introduction

Troy

I’m Troy. I just turned nineteen. Gay, closeted, freshly heartbroken, and currently trying to pretend I’m fine. I like journaling, iced coffee, video-games and overthinking every single thing I’ve ever said. I grew up in a conservative town where I learned how to keep my voice down, hide my lock screen, and smile through questions I didn’t want to answer. This summer, I’m trying to figure out who I am without him. And without everything else I was supposed to be.

Luke

And then there’s Luke.

Twenty. Quarterback. Broad shoulders, ridiculous jawline, that cocky little smirk people fall for in movies. He was sweet, sometimes. And careful. And confusing. He said I was important to him. He kissed me like he meant it. And then he said it wasn’t love.

I wish I hated him.

But I don’t. Maybe I still love him deep down. Getting over him hasn’t been easy but I’m trying.

P.S. As the story unfolds, you’ll get to meet new cast of characters along the way.

Everything Meant Nothing | Part 1: “We Weren’t Even a Thing”

Author’s Note: The first arc, Summer After Him, is now live This one’s a little different. I’m leaning more into storyline and emotion, though yes, there will be steamy scenes. I promise. Think of it as a slow burn with heart.