Chapter 19

I saw my mother leaning softly in Father Shen’s arms like a kitten at the corner of the stairs, with her hands weakly supporting Father Shen’s chest. They all turned sideways to me, and then the voice-controlled lights on the stairs went out.

“Lili, come with me! Just once, I will send you back once!” Father Shen lowered his voice, but his deep voice could not be suppressed at all. It echoed in the stairs with some tremors, causing the voice-controlled lights to turn on the street lights on the stairs again, allowing me to see Father Shen’s hands around Mother’s back and hold her tightly in his arms again.

“No, I said it’s not possible when Lao Zhang is here!” Mother’s clear and beautiful voice could not be suppressed in the silent night, and it was clearly transmitted to my ears.

“He’s already drunk and unconscious!”

“That won’t do, this is a principle!”

“That won’t do, that won’t do, today is my birthday, can’t you fulfill one of my wishes?”

“...” Mom was silent, lowering her head and not looking at Dad Shen, and then a second before the street light went out automatically, I saw Dad Shen holding Mom’s head with both hands and kissing Mom’s beautiful face.

A cool feeling surged in my heart and went straight to my head. I had never experienced this feeling before. I was panicked. I wanted to stop what happened at the stairs, but I couldn’t muster any strength. I was angry, angry that Mom was lying in the arms of another man. I was lost. Why didn’t Mom have this kind of tenderness when I was a freshman. My body was depressed against the door, helplessly looking at the darkness in front of me, only hearing a slight sucking sound, but that sound could not trigger the reaction of the voice-controlled light.

Fortunately, I put my palm in the crack of the door, otherwise the force of pressing on the door after I lost the ability to control my balance would definitely make the door click shut.

I imagined what happened at the corner of the stairs, wondering if Mr. Shen would put his hand into Mom’s clothes.

“Enough!” As Mom’s angry voice sounded, the street lights came on.

The two appeared in front of me again. Mom used both hands to push open Mr. Shen’s body, looking up and glaring at him, while Mr. Shen’s big hands had already got into Mom’s straight pants, making her proud buttocks look exaggerated.

“Don’t let me look down on you! Take your hands out!” Mom’s voice was full of majesty.

“Lili...” Mr. Shen took his hands out of Mom’s pants angrily.

“Hmph!”

“Lili, I’m sorry, I was drunk and fooling around, but it’s been three months, and I miss you very much.” He stretched out his hand and held Mom’s shoulders. This time Mom didn’t resist, and was obediently hugged by Mr. Shen.

“Go away~ Nana and Xiaorui are waiting for you at home!” Mom suddenly became determined, broke free from Mr. Shen’s arms, and was about to turn around and go upstairs, but was grabbed by Mr. Shen’s shoulders.

“Lili, go to Blue Bay when you need it, okay? Give me a call, I’ll be there right away!” Father Shen’s trembling voice was full of tenderness, or pleading.

Mom turned her back to me and looked at Father Shen. I couldn’t see her expression, but I saw her head tremble slightly, and then Father Shen’s face showed joy, loosened his hands and let Mom turn around and go upstairs, and I fled from the door the moment Mom turned around, not caring that the door was still open a crack, and flashed back to the bed.

I didn’t know how to face Mom, how to face myself, their conversation made me instantly associate the result, they had an affair, more than once! My cognition was indeed correct, Dad couldn’t satisfy Mom’s desires at all, it turned out that Mom relied on Father Shen to satisfy her physical desires, it turned out that Mom’s humble flattery of Dad was a kind of compensation.

Mixed feelings, excitement, anger, loss, disappointment, countless emotions fought in my mind, I closed my eyes and clenched my fists to control the trembling of my body, but the harder I tried, the more my body trembled, and sweat kept pouring out of my forehead.

“Squeak~” My door was pushed open. I quickly relaxed my body and pretended to sleep, letting my breathing become long and heavy. My mother’s body fragrance came to my face. I didn’t dare to move. I kept breathing long and relaxed all the muscles in my eyes to prevent my eyelashes from fluttering.

“Ah~” With a sigh from my mother, the water dispenser at the head of the bed made a gurgling sound, and the warm wet tissue began to gently wipe my face until my face was wiped all over.

My mother’s soft fingers reached into my clothes to test whether the clothes were wet with sweat, and then she went out to close the door. Then the door next to me also made the sound of opening and closing.

I opened my eyes, and there was no sleepiness at all. What I just found shocked me to the extreme. I tried to understand my mother and father Shen, but in the end I found that I could not understand anyone, even myself. I murmured to myself and asked myself what I was?

The messy thoughts formed a closed loop that trapped me inside. Sometimes I gave up on myself, sometimes I complained about the world, and imagined countless truths and countless futures.

It was not until the old alarm clock at the bedside rang that I realized that although I had imagined a lot of things, I still kept a lot of luck in my heart. I was unwilling to admit that my mother and father Shen had an affair. I just thought it was just an impulse of father Shen after drinking.

I got up, took a shower, brushed my teeth and washed my face, slapped myself hard in the mirror, and then walked to the dining room to have breakfast with my parents as if nothing had happened, and then went to work separately. Everything was the same as usual, except that I was hiding the secret I saw last night deep in my heart.

When I arrived at the company, everyone was busy cleaning and preparing for the holiday. I walked straight into my office and sat in the boss chair in a daze. What I saw last night solved all the doubts in my heart. Why did Mr. Shen and Mom have such a tacit understanding? He even knew Mom’s favorite food. Why could Mom’s car pass the license plate detection of Lanwan Community and enter the community? Why did they communicate about my affairs privately?

Thinking about it, I didn’t even notice Lulu coming in until she spontaneously lay on my desk and turned her buttocks around, waiting for my daily morning routine exercise.

I didn’t have the desire to make love. I reached out and grabbed her waist and hips and pulled her over to sit in my arms. I held her lower abdomen with both hands, hung my chin on the shoulder of this woman who looked like my mother, and kept my face close to her, and continued to think about it.

This woman obediently put her soft body in my arms, obediently, letting my hands wander around her chest and abdomen, letting me face close to her, breathing in her body fragrance.

Gradually, my chaotic thoughts began to calm down. I held Lulu, who was as gentle as a cat, and thought of nothing, as if I had entered a state of emptiness.

When I regained consciousness, more than an hour had passed. Lulu had already rested her head on my shoulder, exposing her slender and graceful neck to me.

This woman is really a treasure. Not only does she soothe my body every day except during my menstrual period, she can also soothe my spirit.

I hugged her with gratitude, kissed her shoulder lightly, let her go, and prepared to hold a department meeting, and then go on vacation.

I didn’t go to the ministerial meeting. I didn’t know how to face Father Shen. He was really good to me, but what happened last night made me disgusted with him, extremely disgusted. I couldn’t help that my father robbed my mother’s body and mind, but I couldn’t stand that he, Shen Lin, robbed my mother’s body. I was extremely unhappy and even angry, but I had no right to say anything about them, I had no right to intervene between my father and mother, and I couldn’t intervene in the relationship between Father Shen and my mother in a way that destroyed my mother’s dignity.

If I had been impulsive last night, I might have been able to scold them for their shamelessness, but now that I have calmed down, I find that I am so redundant...

I drove back home at around 10 o’clock. After getting off the car, I suddenly remembered that this car was also bought by Shen Lin for me. I kicked the wheel hard, as if doing so could relieve some of the anger in my heart.

After walking around the house and making sure that no one was at home, I opened the door of my parents’ room. Usually, they did not lock the door when no one was at home. The valuable items were in my father’s study.

I carefully searched the wardrobe, bedside table, and inside and outside of the bed in the room. I didn’t know what I was looking for, but my intuition told me that a careful search would yield something.

The excitement of being a thief and the eager expectation made me only pick up my mother’s sexy panties and sniff them before putting them down, and then continue to look for unknown targets. Diary? USB drive? I can’t be sure.