Chapter 1: VBS and Me

For about as long as I can remember I’ve been involved in a variety of church youth group activities. Sunday School, Pioneer Clubs, church camp, mission trips, Wednesday nights out ministries, you name it. As I grew older my interests turned more towards the boys and I quickly learned church was also a great place to meet guys - and not just boys my age. Although most of the time it involved just flirting and teasing, I knew a lot of the fathers kept a close eye on me as well although most were too scared to do anything. Such as shame as the opportunity was there whether they realized it or not.

Since losing my virginity the summer before I started high school, I’ve had sex with quite a few people. Depending on your point of view I guess that makes me either “sexually active” or a slut - or worse in some people’s opinion. Yet when you average it out, I’ve only had sex with about five new guys a year if I only count those guys I was fucking on a one-to-one basis. Personally, I don’t think that’s exactly is a HUGE number when you look at it that way. OK, so to be technical, actually the total number of dicks that have penetrated my pussy is well over 150. While to some people that may sound ridiculous, keep in mind when I’m being fucked by half a dozen guys or more at a party the numbers add up quick! I really don’t think it’s fair to count those the same as being with six guys individually on different nights.

While I check off the “bi” box in sexual questionnaires, my preference is definitely for guys. Let’s be real ... they have the something special down under! Thus when it comes to my sexual resume with girls, it’s a bit of a different story. In comparison to the number of guys I’ve been with, the girls are not even a fraction of that and even then, most of those have either been family members or within a close circle of friends. Rarely do I do anything with a woman I don’t already know. If you take into account my mom, her sister and daughter, and another cousin of mine; then put them together with a couple of roomies and a few best friends, that leaves only about ten girls in comparison to well over a hundred guys that show up in my official “history” of people I’ve had sex with.

The only reason I mention all this is to help explain why when people ask me if I’m bisexual, my response is typically something like, “I like girls but I prefer guys.” For whatever reason, I find sex with girls I don’t really know to be much more intimate when compared to strange men with whom I sometimes simply go out with to release some “tension”. Hence I don’t typically flirt with other women or even actively pursue a “relationship” with them. Usually what happens just happens and I leave it up to God’s will to decide if and when it does.