Chapter 18: The destined peach blossom

An Baili nestled in Lu Li’s arms and slowly narrated the story of her first rebirth. Time passed by minute by minute. The night outside the window became darker and the noisy city fell into a long silence, as if time had stopped flowing. The only thing that was still moving was the slight murmur of the girl in her arms. An Baili was a little tired, but she still held Lu Li’s clothes tightly and refused to let go. She asked listlessly: “Have you forgiven me?”

“Yeah.” Lu Li nodded gently, “I forgive you.”

An Baili smiled foolishly and fell asleep in his arms like a cat. Her sleeping face was particularly pitiful, her body curled up like an abandoned animal. Only when Lu Li hugged her tighter did she relax a little. Lu Li took out his mobile phone with one hand, sent a message to his sister to report that he was safe, and then put An Baili on the simple flat bed. On the hanger by the window hung the girl’s school uniform of Chuanhai No. 1 Middle School, a pair of pantyhose was taken down, and there was needle and thread on the table. An Baili must have secretly repaired the worn-out school uniform, right?

The wind stopped, the dust was fragrant, the flowers were gone, and I was tired of combing my hair at night. Things are different, people are different, and everything is over. I want to speak but tears flow first. During the days when he deliberately ignored An Baili, would she secretly cry on this small table? I think so. Lu Li covered An Baili with a quilt, and could still hear the girl’s mumbling: “Don’t leave me...”

His eyes drifted to the bright moon outside the window, and his thoughts were full of thoughts. He actually had a lot of things to say to An Baili. Even he himself couldn’t figure out, now Lu Li, is it more love or sympathy for An Baili? Or, from the beginning, he married An Baili out of sympathy? It is precisely because of the “sympathy” mentality of a superior that he tried to change An Baili and demanded his wife with strict standards.

I am such a self-righteous bastard. He thought so.

Since his rebirth, hasn’t he looked down on the world with a detached attitude? But at this moment, Lu Li asked himself, is he really qualified to look down on them? Is he worthy?

What flashed through his mind was Chu Jingyi’s face. At this moment that hit his heart, the first thing he thought of was this naive girl. Chu Jingyi likes him. This should be the clearest fact. Otherwise, she wouldn’t pretend nothing happened after the forced kiss, otherwise she wouldn’t be jealous ... He laughed at himself, such an obvious thing, why did he figure it out now?

Then is he worthy?

The process of human growth is a long process of self-deconstruction. Admitting one’s meanness, one’s vanity, one’s mediocrity - constantly analyzing oneself is growth.