Chapter 1: Fantasies and Tutoring

One of the key things I try to make sure that everyone understands about me is that when it comes to my fantasies, there are NO limits, at least none that I don’t impose on myself. Really, why shouldn’t I be able to fantasize about anything I want - no matter how taboo, illegal, unethical, or immoral? After all, it’s not like I’m actually DOING anything. For me, the key is separating fantasy from reality. Unfortunately, this is a concept many people can’t seem to grasp which is what leads to many of the horrific sex crimes we read about every day. Even so, why would it have anything to do with me?

For example, besides the “usual” fantasies I’m sure most girls have, I’ve dreamed about sex with various animals, public sex, prostitution, and so forth. Now before you start think badly of me or wondering what kind of kinky or perverted girl I am, PLEASE remember that just because I fantasize about something does NOT mean I would EVER even consider doing it. For instance, there is no way I would ever have sex with a horse. There is no rationalization for such a thing - none, period, case closed. Given that, what’s the harm in some naughty daydreams when I masturbate?

All that said, one of those fantasies that stays well locked inside of me, yet provides plenty of masturbation incentives, is to be sexually involved in one way or another with some of the kids I have baby-sat and tutored. I’m not ashamed in the least to admit that there have been more than a few times when I’ve come home practically dripping from what I’d been imagining might happen when I was with them. There have even been a few cases where I couldn’t wait and so I masturbated BEFORE I left for home. In ALL cases, that the kids knew nothing about anything I was thinking or doing with myself. To be honest, just because I would never actually DO some of the things I fantasize about doesn’t mean I’m some sort of saint. For instance, I don’t see any harm in flirting or teasing anyone of any age just so long as it’s appropriate for the person I’m flirting with.

For example, I might flash some pussy to a guy my age or older but I would NEVER allow an underage person (boy or girl) to see my pussy other than maybe in a public shower or someplace similar where it’s acceptable - and even then NOT in a sexual context. What does it hurt to let a young boy think he’s sneaking a peek down my blouse or up my skirt (assuming I’m wearing panties)? He gets to go home thinking he saw something I didn’t know he did and if he ends up masturbating as he dreams about me, so what? It’s not like I’m letting him touch me or anything improper like that.

Unfortunately, as I mentioned earlier there are a lot of sick people who can’t differentiate between reality and fantasy which is why society has banned certain things. Looking at the big picture, I have to agree such bans although they are a pain in the neck for people in a situation like mine where no harm is being done. Frankly, I hate it when people lump me and my father into the same category as the freaks and perverts you see on the Internet! Even so, I would never support legalizing incest no more than I would support legalizing drugs.