Chapter 12: Learning Another way to Love

We keep kissing for a long time. We keep kissing until I feel his penis harden again.

Then he pulls away and says, “Now it’s time for me to feel your soft lips and your slutty tongue on my cock”

I know I couldn’t imagine bringing my mouth to anyone’s penis. But right now, as I imagine his penis, I want this. I want to kiss his penis, lick it and do whatever he wants me to do. I want this more than anything in the world.

He sits up keeping his back on the bed’s headboard. I see his fully erect hard penis for the first time. The head is joined to the shaft with thick veins running down like roots of a tree. I can’t believe something this big and this thick was inside me.

“Come on, grab it and start sucking”, he says.

I grab his penis and move my head towards his penis.

As I move closer, a pungent dirty smell fills my nose. It burns my nose. But somehow I still want to taste it. I want to make him happy. I want to make him love me.

I wrap my lips around the head. It tastes worse than anything I ever tasted. It would have made me puke if it was not attached to the only person who loves me. Instead I realise I love the taste.

I hear uncle grunt in pleasure and just like that my nipples harden and I feel myself getting moist.

I start licking the head inside my mouth.

“Ahhh ... fuck ... suck it ... lick the hole ... uhhhh ... llick it ... fuck yeah ... suck harder ... hmmmm”, I hear him moan and order as he pushes my head up and down on the head. I look up to see his face in pure ecstasy.

His moans and his expression are driving me insane. I feel my pussy throbbing and aching for attention.

He let’s me suck and lick the head for some time. Then he grabs my head and slowly slides his penis in and out my mouth.

“Uhhhh ... keep sucking ... licking ... ugghhh”, he moans. I try my hardest to suck and lick him while he is going in and out of my mouth.

Each stroke excites me, arouses me, but in a different way than when he was sucking my nipples or rubbing me in between my legs. It’s like something is missing. I feel desperate for more.

He starts going deeper into my mouth while going faster. I keep licking every part of it that is inside my mouth.

Sometimes it hits the back of my mouth. Everytime it hits the back, I feel like getting punched in the throat. But I don’t say anything, I let him enjoy my mouth. I let him take me in whatever way he wants. His grunts and excitement is arousing me. I feel my growing wetness on the lips in between my legs.

Suddenly he slows down and pushes his penis until it’s rubbing against the back of my mouth. It hurts, it feels nauseous but I hang on. I know he would slide out anytime now.

But instead he starts pushing it more. Suddenly I am scared for my life. Doesn’t he not know? Doesn’t he realise he is at the end. But he keeps pressing.

I am about to push him when I remember I tried to fight he was trying to put it inside me, in my vagina. He was so angry.

I don’t try to push him away but pain is unbearable and I grab sides of his thighs for support.

Finally, he starts to slide it out. I feel relieved.

Suddenly I feel him rush in and push past the end. I feel like my throat is suddenly on fire. He keeps going inside, making it feel like he is sawing off my throat with a hot knife, he keeps going until my nose is pressing and rubbing against his pubic area.

“ ... ugh ... it’s throat is so fucking tight ... fuck...”, he says.

This sends an immense sense of relief. He knows he is in my throat. So, this must not be unusual. Even though my my throat feels like it’s on fire, like I have drank molten lava and I can’t breathe, I know I will be fine. I know I have to trust him.