The end of the world has come to me
Copyright© 2024 by danbaifen
Chapter 7: Love Has Always Been a Waste of Time
Guo Siyi cried in bed for 4 hours.
The first thing she did when she got home was to block Lin Cuizhi’s WeChat and hang up his phone call. She had no choice but to send a text message asking him not to contact her for the time being.
After doing these things, she began to lock the door of her room and completely covered herself with the quilt. The tears that had been suppressed for a long time finally burst out.
Why did things turn out like this? Everything was obviously the best, childhood sweethearts, predestined relationships in previous lives, and a perfect romance standard. How could it become a farce?
I can’t figure it out, why!
Guo Siyi grabbed her hair randomly. She had never been as crazy as she was now since she was a child. She kicked her feet randomly, wanting to vent all her strength on destruction.
In the end, she could only kick her bed helplessly.
She heard her family coming back.
“Siyi, are you home?” Gou Li’s voice came.
Guo Siyi said with great effort: “I’m in the room. I’m so tired. I’ll take a rest first.”
In the past few years, she recovered her memory of her previous life after seeing Lin Cuizhi’s birthmark. Although her learning progress cannot be said to be rapid, her learning efficiency has improved significantly. Gradually, her family has formed an attitude of great confidence in Guo Siyi.
She just said this, and they stopped disturbing her.
Since her family is back, she can’t roll and kick on the bed like she did just now. She hugged her knees tightly and sat on the edge of the bed.
Her bed was next to the window. She opened the curtains and let the bright moonlight shine into the room. She wrapped herself in a quilt and stared blankly at her shadow reflected on the bed.
Would she be Brother Cui Zhi’s mother?
Or was she Brother Cui Zhi’s mother Cui Xue in her previous life?
That birthmark was so unforgettable that she would not make a mistake.
Why does she have no birthmark in this life? Is it because she recognized the birthmark when she saw Lin Cuizhi being born in her previous life and knew the past, so she used laser scar removal technology to remove the birthmark on her right shoulder?
Cui Xue originally had no memory of her previous life and lived a happy life, but when Lin Cuizhi was born, she remembered her past. Brother Lin Xia will become her son in this life?
After so many lives, this life has the same result?
She can tolerate that she is not important, but when Lin Cuizhi grows up and sees the birthmark on his right shoulder, will he remember anything?
Will removing the birthmark allow him to live happily as Lin Cuizhi for the rest of his life?
Guo Siyi put herself in Cui Xue’s perspective and speculated on her behavior from a conjectural perspective.
She doesn’t know Cui Xue, and if she is really Cui Xue’s reincarnation, she can’t know her either - how could she be born if she didn’t die?
But if she is really the reincarnation of Cui Xue, then now she puts herself in Cui Xue’s role and guesses her behavior, which may really be 80% similar.
After all, she knows that in the past lives she remembers, her words and deeds are more or less affected by the past life.
Is this the retribution for her and brother Lin Xia?
In every life, there is no good relationship.
She once roughly calculated that since the beginning of Lin Xia and Lin Qiu’s brother and sister, she has gone through dozens of lives. In addition to the love story of age-gap relationship and Brokeback Mountain, there are about a dozen lives in which she has never met Lin Xia’s reincarnation.
She remembered that when it was still in the Qing Dynasty, Lin Xia’s reincarnation was an old man. When she was a little girl, he told her that he had not seen Lin Qiu’s reincarnation for more than ten lives.
It is a great fate to meet each other, but every time they meet, it is a conflict of identity due to some mistakes.
In this life, I was a neighbor of Cui Zhi, only 7 years apart. It was a perfect childhood sweetheart script. How could I suddenly become his mother?
It may not be true, it may just be a coincidence.
Guo Siyi cried and tried to convince herself, but no matter how she hypnotized herself, she could not convince herself that it was false.
If it was false, then all the examples of established marriages in previous lives were fictitious.
However, there was so much evidence to prove that this was what really happened. Although it was more than a thousand years apart, the love between Lin Xia and Lin Qiu had been entangled for many lifetimes.
She wanted to give up these past life experiences so that she could devote herself to the story of Guo Siyi’s love for Lin Cuizhi without any background that added a lot of fantasy to the story.
She didn’t want to see Lin Cuizhi, and she planned to give herself time to adjust this mentality.
She didn’t know if she could do it, but she knew that if she still saw him these days, this knot would be unavoidable in this life.
She fell asleep unconsciously in this kind of fantasy.
Lin Cuizhi also looked at the ceiling and thought for a long time before falling asleep.
In the dream, he experienced Lin Xia’s fragmented life in the first person, which was different from listening to Guo Siyi’s description. This realistic feeling was different from the plot he imagined at that time.
However, these plots were scattered and vague, but very real.
Then some fragmented memories of Brokeback Mountain and Ageless Love flashed, which were even more scattered, with only some fragments.
The last scene before waking up was actually the last words of his mother in the car accident.
When he opened his eyes, Lin Cuizhi found that he was sweating all over, and his tears had soaked the pillow unconsciously.
He tried to recall everything in the dream, suspecting that it was just an ordinary dream.
However, he found that the usual dreams would gradually dissipate as he woke up. Even if there were clear scenes, most of them were half asleep and half awake, or even the content he imagined after waking up.
This time it was different. Everything in the dream was like a memory in his mind. No matter how he wanted to shake it off, he couldn’t forget it as if it had really happened.
Is this the case with Guo Siyi?
So she was so persistent in finding him?
Lin Cuizhi didn’t know if this dream was the past life that Guo Siyi mentioned, but he did start dreaming about his past life after seeing her birthmark, just as Guo Siyi said.
He didn’t know if he would dream more and more in the future, and he would be immersed in the past life and couldn’t extricate himself.
He began to understand Guo Siyi’s emotions. It turned out that he had always looked at this matter with a questioning eye. Even if there was a lot of evidence in front of him, he succumbed to the evidence and still didn’t agree with it in his heart.
Don’t advise others to be good without experiencing their suffering.
Such a real memory can’t be confused with an ordinary dream.
It was just that the sad look of his mother at the end hurt Lin Cuizhi’s heart.
If my mother really remembered everything because she saw the birthmark on her arm, it is not difficult to understand why she had laser birthmark removal surgery when she was a baby, so that he never saw her birthmark during his growth.
My mother didn’t want me to remember the past in this life, even if she really wanted to be with Lin Xia, the secular and realistic made her decide to give up everything forever.
What a heartbreaking decision, a thousand years of promise and waiting, and finally became mother and son.
Giving up the birthmark means that Cui Xue will no longer have a mark that Lin Xia can recognize in her future reincarnations, just like Guo Siyi.
Did my mother plan to take me to remove the birthmark after I grew up? Would Guo Siyi know?
Would she want to cut off this fate that had not ended well in many lifetimes in this life?
But my mother is back!
She turned into Guo Siyi and came back to me. In this life, the two of them have no identity constraints and can be together openly!
What else is there to be entangled about?
After this life, Lin Cuizhi will never know Guo Siyi again. Without the birthmark, she will not have the memory of the past even if they are together. Just like most people in this world, they only love this life regardless of the past life or the future life.
God has given himself and Guo Siyi the most perfect opportunity to love her twice in this life!
Why can’t Guo Siyi figure it out?
Thinking of this, he got up immediately, opened the door without changing anything, and rang the doorbell opposite.
Guo Jia saw that it was Lin Cuizhi, his face looked a little bad, he asked: “Cuizhi, what’s the conflict between you and Siyi?”
Seeing Guo Jia’s slightly angry look, no matter what, Lin Cuizhi first admitted his mistake, he said: “I’m sorry Uncle Guo, I had a little conflict with Siyi, she blocked me, I want to talk to her face to face now.”
Guo Jia’s face became better with Lin Cuizhi’s attitude, but he shook his head and said: “Look at what time it is now, 10 o’clock, early this morning, Siyi said she wanted to go back to school, you go back to school to find her.”
Lin Cuizhi hurriedly thanked Guo Jia, but Guo Jia added: “Cuizhi, you have grown up with us, I know you are a very good person, we are very satisfied with you, today I saw Siyi seems to have not slept well, the expression is also Something was wrong, so I suspected that you had bullied her. She said no and spoke well of you. We know that she likes you very much and that you will most likely be our son-in-law in the future. In the past few years, we have seen her study so hard and skip grades just to be able to study in the same school with you before you graduate.”
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