Chapter 4: Mom Blushed

“Thank you for coming out to accompany me so late.”

My mother has always given people the impression of being rational and calm. Whether at home or at school, she is always calm and composed, and seems to be able to deal with anything calmly. Her indifference and stability seem to make all the storms have nothing to do with her.

In the eyes of others, she is the kind of woman who is never in a hurry, as if any difficulties or predicaments cannot touch the fluctuations in her heart. She seems to be born to be able to deal with everything calmly, and her rationality makes people dare not approach easily.

However, at this moment today, Chu Jiangchen realized that she also has a fragile side, and even shows that kind of unknown weakness in front of him.

He has never seen his mother show such an expression. At that moment, her eyes revealed a kind of fatigue and helplessness that is not noticed by ordinary people. The seemingly indestructible shell will actually collapse quietly at a special moment.

Chu Jiangchen’s heart was filled with complex emotions-both surprise and heartache.

His mother’s consistent calmness once made him feel that she was omnipotent, but at this moment, he realized that she would also feel helpless in the face of pressure and loneliness.

Seeing her fragility, Chu Jiangchen realized for the first time that the “strong man” he had always relied on also had moments when she needed to rely on.

Chu Jiangchen had never seen his mother like this. Is this the emotional side of his mother? It makes people want to protect her all the time. His mother’s weak appearance is even more fascinating. Isn’t that what a woman should be like? She needs a figure to stand in front of her and protect her from wind and rain.

I want to be the man standing in front of my mother.

“No, it’s okay, it should be.”

Chu Jiangchen thought of himself as tall and majestic, but what he said was a little humble. After all, he was facing his mother, and it was normal to lack confidence.

There was another silent silence, and the room seemed to be filled with heavy air. Lin Feifei remained silent.

She lowered her head, her back looked particularly lonely in the dim moonlight, as if she was waiting for something, perhaps a warm opening, or perhaps just some kind of comfort that she herself didn’t know.

Chu Jiangchen’s heart was filled with anxiety and helplessness. He felt as if he was standing in front of an insurmountable distance. Every time he faced his mother, he could handle it easily, but he had never encountered such an embarrassing situation. At this moment, he suddenly didn’t know how to touch her seemingly strong but fragile heart. He wanted to speak and say something, but the words seemed to be spinning in his throat and couldn’t be spit out smoothly.

Chu Jiangchen began to think subconsciously. His mother was usually a dignified and gentle typical intellectual young woman, and today’s mother was weak and loving.

Both personalities are so fascinating.

What was it like when my mother and father had sex in their youth?

Would she be like a piece of wood? Or like a slut?

I sincerely thank God for letting me meet my mother when she was the sexiest and most mature. Can I pick it and enjoy this rosy and plump peach?

It seemed like a long time had passed, why didn’t my mother say anything? Did she calm down?

No way?

She wouldn’t really change her mind, would she?

It had come to this point, if my mother changed her mind, Chu Jiangchen would definitely not dare to force it, not to mention that a forced melon is not sweet, he also couldn’t bear to let his mother suffer, what he wanted was his mother’s willingness.

Although he was a hungry wolf, he was also a wolf with conscience.

“What are you thinking about? You haven’t said anything for so long.” Lin Feifei said.

Chu Jiangchen’s face was red and his heart was beating fast. He was just thinking about evil thoughts. On the way, he just wanted to take off his pants and have sex with his mother. He didn’t expect to chat with her. At this moment, his mind was still hot. He held it in for a long time and said, “I, I bought condoms.”

After speaking, Chu Jiangchen’s heartbeat suddenly accelerated, thumping, and his cheeks were hot as if on fire. He was afraid that his mother would change her mind, and what he meant was a bit straightforward, that is, he wanted to have sex.

After a moment of silence, Lin Feifei smiled gently and finally broke the silence: “I know.” Her tone was calm, but with a hint of inexplicable relief, as if she had finally made a decision. After a moment, she asked again: “Are you thinking that I might regret it?”

Chu Jiangchen was stunned for a moment, then shook his head: “No, I don’t think so.” He knew that his mother had always been a decisive person, and once she made a decision, she would never look back easily. Lin Feifei’s character has always been direct and firm, and she is always rational and decisive when facing problems. Looking ahead and behind has never been her style, let alone her choice. Therefore, Chu Jiangchen also understood that the decisions made by his mother were usually well thought out, but today, he couldn’t help but feel a little worried about this decision, fearing that she would change her mind for some reason.

After hearing this, Lin Feifei’s eyes flashed with a gentle light. She sighed softly and said softly: “Since you don’t think so, can’t you sit down and chat with me?” There was a relaxed request in her words, as if she wanted someone to accompany her in this quiet night, even if it was just a simple conversation.

“This...”

Chu Jiangchen was really afraid that he would talk too much and that his mother would recognize his voice.

“Then what to talk about?” Chu Jiangchen hesitated slightly, asking with a hint of ease in his tone.

Lin Feifei looked at him and smiled: “Just tell me about your life. I see you like to talk about these things.” Her tone was gentle, with a helpless ease. Usually when chatting on WeChat, Chu Jiangchen always talked a lot, and she listened more. Today, she decided to let go and let him talk by himself.

Seeing that he was still standing at the door, Lin Feifei patted the sofa gently and motioned him to come over: “Come and sit down, don’t stand all the time.” Her tone was still gentle, but also with a little expectation, hoping that he could relax.

Chu Jiangchen waved his hand and smiled slightly: “No, no, standing up will help me think more clearly. Let me think about what to say.” His words were full of refusal and decisiveness, without any hesitation, as if standing up would allow him to think more clearly, and he was unwilling to break the temporary silence.

What a joke, if I stand far away, my mother may not notice it. If I sit next to her and don’t have sex, but chat, isn’t this playing a joke on my life?

I originally thought it would be great to just take off my clothes and have sex, why would I chat in the dark? I was really afraid that I would make a lot of mistakes if I said too much, and if I accidentally let you know my identity, not only would the show not be able to go on, but something serious might happen.

“Okay, whatever you want.”

Seeing that he couldn’t hold on, Lin Feifei stopped persuading him. Chu Jiangchen gently raised his collar, wrapped himself tighter with the thin black long windbreaker, and began to think about what to say next. Then, he made up an opening sentence temporarily, and stopped after saying a few words. Lin Feifei asked in confusion: “Do you have a cold? Your voice is a little hoarse, and you don’t sound like a person in his twenties.”