Chapter 1: Missing Steve

Last summer when I was fourteen and getting ready to start high school I gave up my virginity to Steve, my girlfriend’s older brother. At sixteen, Steve was going to be a junior so naturally I was thrilled that an older boy would be interested in me in that way, especially since I wasn’t exactly at the head of the class in terms of physical development. While my boobs may not have been cooperating, the desire was certainly there!

Fortunately for me, especially when I compare myself to many of my friends in similar situations, my first time went rather well. Of course it helped that it wasn’t Steve’s first time. If even half the girls rumored to have had sex with him were true he was quite experienced indeed! Not only that, my mom and I had spent quite a bit of time discussing it as well. Perhaps the best part was that Steve didn’t just fuck me and then drop me like I was just another notch on his belt. We stayed together afterwards and he was essentially the only boy I had sex with until his mom was transferred and he had to move away.

With Steve now gone I was facing a dilemma I’d never had to deal with before. Over the months we’d dated I always felt secure thanks to the familiarity we shared. It didn’t take me long to learn what he wanted during sex and each time we both learned more about my own needs and desires. It didn’t bother me that our relationship was based almost completely on sex because frankly that’s exactly what I wanted. Having sex for the first time was like a blind man who could suddenly see and I simply couldn’t get enough of it. Of course Steve was more than willing to accommodate my needs, thank goodness, so it wasn’t like I needed to get laid by every guy in school or anything like that. But now, besides the feelings of loss stemming from losing Steve as my boyfriend, there was also the question of dealing with the sudden loss of someone who had fulfilled my newfound sexual needs.

Sexually speaking, you could say that for me losing Steve was like a smoker going cold turkey. Of course the big difference was that instead of depending on gum or a patch all I could do was masturbate - and boy did I ever! Things even got to the point where my mom commented sarcastically one day about how often I was doing it, something about how I was going to wear it out. My problem was that as much as I loved to play with myself, it just wasn’t the same as having Steve’s wonderful cock in me.

It wasn’t just the fucking either. While I knew some girls who did it just to please their guy, I truly enjoyed sucking Steve’s dick. Well to be completely honest, I LOVED sucking his cock. There was just something about taking him in my mouth, licking and sucking on him, feeling him grow and harden as he responded to me. Mmmmmmm, I could never get enough of it! I especially loved it when he would cum in my mouth. I’d swallow every drop and then proudly extend my tongue and show him my empty mouth afterwards. I loved everything about sex - and no amount of masturbation could satisfy THAT need within me.

With Steve out of the picture it was like immediately guys started asking me if I would go out with them. Although I’d dated Steve up to now, I was well aware that he’d told all of his friends about me so the word was out that I wasn’t exactly a prude on a date. Now with Steve gone they probably thought I was easy pickings for a quick suck and fuck. Admittedly my pussy would tingle when they asked because I knew full well what they wanted to do to me. Despite my ever growing feelings of need, deep down I just couldn’t quite bring myself say yes although it didn’t take long for me to start considering taking a few up on their offers. When I looked at their crotches I’d find myself thinking about Steve and how his would expand whenever we were out together. It didn’t help that they weren’t very subtle about it either, leering at me when they asked if I would go out with them with one guy being so bold as to ask straight out if I wanted to go to his car and suck him off after school! The sad thing was by then I was so horny for a dick I almost said yes!