Occult Stories
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Chapter 2: The demon of the bowels
Title: The demon of the bowels
Eternal day, eternal night. What makes the cycle something perpetual? Why can’t I find happiness in the natural? What makes natural something that doesn’t add to my pleasure? What steps should I take to find my true self?
Whispers “Blame the little stars that torment you”
How?
Whispers “Aren’t you the protagonist of your life? Blame the world for not adding anything to you.”
How can I be the protagonist of my life, if my actions are guided by something that I have no direct control over? The world not adding anything, is a mere phenomenon of my physical and mental needs not being met.
BUT, there is always a catch. My illusions, my desires, are not guided by completely tangible reasons. They can be predictable, but never completely self-aware. A man may understand that he has failed, but he may refuse to understand how he failed.
Whispers “Even the being with the greatest self-control under him will collapse under the most exacting conditions. I ask you; How would you feel if everything that was most enjoyable was taken away from your life? And you were subjected only to the purest pain?”
You ask clearly relative questions. What can bring me pure pain? Perhaps something that I imagine in a terrible or wrong way will destroy my mind and nerves. But what doesn’t kill me makes me stronger, right?
Even the most incapable of the living is able to find a way out, regardless of the thorns. But it is necessary to separate imagination from reality. Many are able to find fault with others and their works; but they hardly see anything wrong in themselves.
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