Dear Diary
Copyright© 2026 by callmeQ67
Chapter 1: June
Coming of Age Sex Story: Chapter 1: June - On a girl's fifteenth birthday, one of her gifts is a journal which she uses to record her innermost thoughts. She’s ashamed of her body because she is developing more slowly than her friends and classmates. Little does she know that there’s at least one man who finds her attractive for the very features that make her feel deficient.
Caution: This Coming of Age Sex Story contains strong sexual content, including Ma/ft ft/ft Consensual Black Male White Female First Facial Masturbation Small Breasts
June 1, 2025
There were days when it felt like I’d be fourteen forever.
My body changed a lot last year. I have boobs now, for one thing. All my friends have had boobs for ages, so I’m happy that I finally have some. They just kind of popped out and I’m still getting used to them. They’re not very big and they have weird fat puffy nipples, but it’s still a lot better than having a flat chest.
Apparently I’m a late bloomer because I didn’t get my period until long after my friends, either.
All these changes, and I have no control over any of them. If I had any say in the matter, I’d have hips to go with my new boobs. But I don’t have a choice. I’m totally at the mercy of some hormones, which regulate both my body and my moods.
So anyway, my birthday was last Friday and I got a bunch of awesome gifts, like a cute little quilted backpack, a necklace, perfume, and of course I got the newest AirPods, my top choice.
Not a bad start. Maybe fifteen will be better than fourteen.
I also got this journal. My English teacher, Mr. McWilliams, said that keeping a journal is a good idea if you want to be a writer and I really want to be a writer. My favorite genre is fantasy, especially romantic fantasy. It’s so exciting. And if I’m being totally honest, it can be arousing (blush, blush)!
June 2, 2025
My mom gave me this journal, but after just one day I’ve decided that I need to find a really good hiding place for it. I would be so embarrassed if she read what I wrote yesterday!
June 4, 2025
Why do I have to be such a dork? I think sometimes that I’d rather be hot than smart. The boys at school pay no attention to me. It’s like I’m invisible. Maybe it’s because my body is only half-developed. Or maybe it’s because I still have braces (they’re supposed to come off in November).
The funny thing is, my mom is really pretty and I look a lot like her. But her body is all lush curves, especially her booty and her big breasts. My body is like a stick. She says I just need to wait another year or two.
That’s easy for her to say, right?
June 5, 2025
I found the perfect hiding place for my journal and there’s no way my mom will ever find it. So here’s my biggest secret: I love to watch pornography.
I got an iPhone for Christmas like three years ago and it was only a few months later that I discovered porn. I wasn’t searching for it or anything. I was just a kid, you know? One of my “friends” from social media posted a video so I opened it.
When I saw what it was, I closed it right away. I thought it was nasty. And that wasn’t the only time I inadvertently opened a porn video, just the first one. Each time it happened I scrolled away as quickly as I could.
Then one day I started watching another video. It was cute and funny, and I thought the girl in it was really pretty. But then she slowly took off all her clothes and masturbated on camera, and it was so freaking hot!
I watched the whole thing and it made me so excited that I had to touch myself.
Like I said, this was a few years ago. Some of the stuff I thought was gross back then I now think is really sexy. I guess I’ve matured in some ways.
Full disclosure—I used to play with myself when I was even younger. When I was really little, I noticed that it felt good to touch my kitty so I started doing it a lot. My mom saw me and told me it was okay but I should only do it in private. That was good advice, right?
So I only touched myself when I was alone in my room. I tried lots of different ways of making myself feel good. One of my favorite things to do was to kneel over my stuffed unicorn and rub my kitty on it. I spent many happy afternoons pleasuring myself that way, but I never had an orgasm until I started watching porn. Now I usually have two or three orgasms a day!
I wonder if my friends started playing with themselves when they were that young.
June 6, 2025
Today was the last day of school. Summer vacation at last! But I’ll miss seeing Liz and Janice every day. I wish they lived closer. My mom drives me to Liz’s house sometimes to swim in her pool, but not often enough. It’s only a twenty-minute drive but she acts like it’s the other side of the world.
The only problem with going to the pool is that Janice and Liz both have great bodies with plenty of sexy curves and I look like a kid compared to them. Liz is tall and blonde, and she’s really pretty. Janice has jet black hair and blue eyes which is a really striking combination in my opinion. She’s absolutely gorgeous.
They both have perfect teeth, too—no braces. I have brown hair and brown eyes, and my body has hardly any curves. Well, I do have boobs now even if they’re kind of small. I hope they’re still growing.
June 8, 2025
Sometimes I hate my mom. Why would I say that about my own mother? Well, now that I’m old enough to understand, I think she cheated on my dad. The night before he left, they were yelling at each other and he called her a dirty whore among other things. Why would he call her that, unless she was fucking another guy?
I miss you daddy!
She’s dated a lot of guys since my dad left. I mean, a lot. And I know she has sex with them because I can hear them doing it I her room. I can’t blame her for that, I guess. She’s still pretty young, like thirty-six, and she looks really good. But I don’t always like the guys she dates. Some of them seem pretty sleazy to me. She never stays with one guy very long.
June 9, 2025
I really wish I had a big sister. I’m envious of my friends who have a sister they can talk to and ask for advice. I don’t have anyone like that, so I guess that’s why I’m writing in this journal.
There are some things you just can’t share, even with your best friends.
June 10, 2025
I started reading The Catcher in the Rye today. It’s one of the books on our summer reading list. Mr. McWilliams says it’s a good thing we don’t live in Florida because they banned that book in school. Isn’t that crazy? Somebody asked why and he said we’ll probably figure it out when we get to the end. I like Mr. Mac because he gives us credit for having brains. He says that even ninth graders are capable of rational thought.
Hey, I’ll be in tenth grade next fall. Does that mean I’ll be even better at rational thought? Lol
June 11, 2025
Watching porn and masturbating is one of my favorite things to do when I’m alone. My teacher in middle school told me that I’m a visual learner, so maybe that’s why masturbation is so much better when I’m watching attractive people have sex.
Some of my favorite porn videos are the ones without any guys, just two hot girls kissing and touching and licking. But I like watching guys and girls fucking too. Is that weird?
One thing about porn that I didn’t like at first was when the guy shoots his semen all over a girl’s face. Why would they do that? Why would the girl let them? But now that I’m older, I think it’s hot. I love it when guys shoot ropes of gooey cum across a pretty girl’s face.
I wish I could talk about this stuff with Liz and Janice but I don’t dare bring it up. They’ve never mentioned it so they’ll probably think I’m a perv if I tell them I watch porn. Sigh...
June 13, 2025
My mom went out with a new guy tonight and I’m not sure how I feel about it. She’s never dated a black man before, at least not that I know of. We live in a very white suburb and my school only has like three black kids. Her date’s name is DeWayne and he was super nice to me when we met. He’s very good looking and he’s huge! He’s like six foot five and muscular.
June 14, 2025
When I got up this morning I asked mom how her date went last night. I knew it was good because she couldn’t stop smiling. She said they’re going out again next weekend. Then she made pancakes for me which she hardly ever does. She was singing to herself the whole time! I guess I’m happy for her but it’s only one date.
She’ll probably dump him because he’s too nice.
June 15, 2025
Another weird thing about my mom: she has no tolerance for alcohol. On the rare occasion when she does have a few drinks, she acts stupid and childish. Then after she’s made a complete fool of herself, she passes out. I mean, like, out cold. I can yell in her ear and it doesn’t faze her. If the house was on fire, I’d have to drag her out bodily lol.
June 17, 2025