Writing this story has been a deeply personal journey for me. It’s my way of processing the struggles I’ve faced with addiction and anxiety—things I’ve spent years trying to understand with the help of countless therapists. For me, these challenges sometimes manifested in unhealthy fetishes, as I sought ways to cope with the overwhelming emotions. Through my writing, I’ve found a way to heal, to make sense of the chaos in my head, and to finally give my experiences a voice. I hope that by sharing this story, others who feel lost or overwhelmed can see that they’re not alone.