Raw Draft
A literary coming-of-age novel about a teenage girl who initiates a relationship with her father at fourteen—told entirely from her perspective across four years. Not as trauma or cautionary tale, but as she experiences it: transactional at first, then intimate, then complicated by guilt, friendship, ambition, and the question of what she's willing to sacrifice for what she wants.
Victoria Harris is fourteen, wants to be a writer, and thinks she's figured out how the world works.
Transactions. The senior girls in the bathroom talking about their boyfriends: As long as I'm sweet about it, he'll give me whatever I want. Her father's eyes following her when she wears short shorts. The way proximity becomes possibility when her mother works night shifts at the hospital.
Vic is smart. Observational. She sees the pattern and decides to use it.
What starts as transactional—a hug for twenty dollars, sitting close during movies, escalating carefully to see if he'll follow—becomes something else entirely. By spring of freshman year, they're in a Vegas hotel room. By sophomore year, she's taking Plan B in parking lots. By junior year, she's the one lifting the condom boundary because she trusts him now.
But it's not simple.
Her best friend Madison is going through something similar with her uncle. Gets pregnant at fifteen. Needs an abortion and can't tell anyone. Vic's father drives them to the clinic—two hours away, pays cash, no conditions. Vic watches Madison afterward, broken in ways Vic doesn't feel broken, and starts questioning what the difference is between them.
Her father's breeding kink intensifies. Gonna fill you up. Gonna get you pregnant. Words that make them both lose control. Except when you're having unprotected sex on day twelve, they're not just words anymore.
Her mother is upstairs. Or at work. Or asleep. And Vic is sneaking to her father's office at midnight, tracking her cycle, living two completely separate lives. The guilt starts eating at her—not about what she's doing with her father, but about what she's doing to her mother.
This is a story about a girl who thought she understood transactions—and spent four years discovering that nothing about love, sex, family, or choice is that simple.
Father/daughter incest (biological), ages 14-18, explicit sexual content throughout, breeding/impregnation kink (becomes literal), unprotected sex, stealthing, pregnancy scares, Plan B usage. Parallel storyline: friend's relationship with uncle (pregnancy/abortion). No rape/non-con. No recovery narrative. No moral resolution from author.
For those looking for a happily ever after: this is as close as you'll get from me—but it's pretty close.