That word probably more defines me more than any other word. Thus I know why I don't succeed at most anything I try. Why? Because I don't believe it's possible for me. I look and honestly don't have any faith that anything I try will work. I don't set goals, what use are they to me. The universe doesn't care? Oh heck yes it does, I swear the universe has painted a bullseye on me, not for death, just for the laughter of watching pratfalls happen to me.
Heck of a solipsist, ain't I?