Because I think the devil is running it right now.
I am officially in medical limbo, the CPAP machine still hasn't been ordered, months later, and now medicaid is requiring a fresh authorization for the medicines that keep me (mostly) upright and not in severe pain. Combine that with the fact that they're trying to wean me off the severe pain pills (a thing I DO NOT agree with right now), I am hurting. A lot.
I hope to get back to writing soon ish, but right now, a lot of it is outside of my control.