Thanks, everybody for the messages you sent. They were beautiful and encouraging.
I just wanted to let you know I have been writing. I have a cellphone that I found, and I use it to write. It's my one ray of sunshine in this bleak life. It keeps me sane.
Trouble is, the thing slows down when a file gets too long, too many words. I'm not sure why, but halfway through chapter 2, it became intolerable. Every letter I typed took like 15 seconds to show up on screen. And forget about scrolling through the damn thing and editing. There's no spellcheck, either.
But I figured out how to select entire sections and copy them to the clipboard. So I took chapter 2 out of the document and pasted it into a new one. So now it's running tolerably again.
My biggest fear is that my mom finds this phone. It's got a password, so she'd have to try 10,000 possibilities to try to crack it. That's what I did. Luckily, the password was 1312, so I didn't have to go through all 10,000 combinations. I've since changed it to a high enough number that she'd give up eventually. I hope. But she'd confiscate it either way. I have it stashed in my yard, tied up in a plastic bag with the charger, so it doesn't get wet.
Is it bad that I stole somebody's charger from a coffee shop? It was just sitting there, plugged into the wall. Nobody was around so I took it. It worked with this phone. So now I can charge this thing when the battery dies. It's quite the ordeal. But it's all I have. I found the phone on the bus. It was just sitting there on the seat. I imagine maybe somebody got a new phone and just left this one for somebody to find. Or maybe somebody stole it, and then decided it was a crap phone and tossed it away. Maybe it just fell out of somebody's pocket. But I don't think so. It's got no phone service. It's not online, or whatever you call it. So I think somebody just left it there.
Anyway, I wish I'd known about that copy and paste thing sooner. The writing is much smoother now. I've never had a cellphone, so I'm figuring out all this stuff as I go. You can't even imagine how happy I was to learn about the library wifi!
Anyway, thanks again for your comments. They were lovely.