Kyle Taylee: Blog

Thanks to those who have given me your continuous support, yes, I'll be continuing RSI (for now).

Chapter 5 is currently in the final editing phase. I expect it to be up soon.

I went on a holiday and found it difficult to get back into the headspace to write what’s in Ken’s head.

Work is also getting very busy. It’s harder to find time to write. I long for the day when I can do nothing but write erotic fiction every day.

I'm also looking for more editors/beta-readers who could give me more feedback on how the story is developing and advance copies of future chapters.

Main things I'm looking at are continuity, plot holes, story ideas, and other thoughts you have about the plot and characters.

If you have experience working with writers (and their fragile egos) and are also invested in RSI, I would love to get your input.

I'm excited to introduce a new character in Chapter 5. It's someone I've been dying to feature since the start of RSI. Guess who? ;)

Major Spoiler Ahead - Don’t read this if you have not read Chapter 4 of A Reluctant Sex Instructor.

This blog post explains a little about chapter 4.

The time-skip and ‘the Incident’ are something I’ve planned right from the beginning. It’s a pivotal chapter with a lot of subtext. I had actually wanted it to happen earlier (in terms of word count) but I felt the need to showcase the relationship between Ken, Lisa and Denise first. I also wanted the readers to know (and care) more about the MCs before introducing more girls.

I didn’t want the story to be just about “I had sex with this girl, then bang two more girls, then an orgy with twelve girls. I’m a sex god.” It gets boring after a while. RSI still has a lot of sex with different girls (he’s going to be a sex instructor after all). But I don’t want it to be that kind of stroke story. There are already plenty of such stories out there.

After posting chapter 3, I was toying with the idea of delaying the events of chapter 4 to show more of Ken’s growth.

But the reader in me went, “50k words and still no anal sex? Harry Potter had defeated Voldemort in Book 1 earlier than that! And Ken still only had sex with two girls? You call yourself a smut writer?!”

The writer in me also wanted Ken to grow up faster so I can get into more of the good stuff, including the changing relationship with the girls.

In my personal life, I had attended a lot of sex parties and they were a lot of fun (See my profile). I want to write about those.

So in the end, I decided to do a little exposition with more telling (rather than showing) to quicken the pacing a little. I wasn’t sure if the readers want to read a day-by-day account of how Denise orchestrated Ken’s development.

At the same time, I’m also toying with the idea of including more backstory of what happened during the one-month time skip.

I had actually written out a few scenes of Denise teaching Ken how to kiss and how to eat a girl out etc, but then it was starting to feel like I was writing a sex manual without advancing the plot or reveal more of the character. I was also planning to showcase all these when Ken becomes an SI, teaching another girl all these. So I cut these out to avoid the repetition.

Let me know if there’s any part you’re interested to read in the one-month time skip.

I hope you’re enjoying the story and the pacing so far. Feedbacks and comments are always welcome.

P.S. With readers demanding more of RSI, I’m starting to feel the need to more sooner. But as much as I want to publish new chapters asap, I also don’t want to rush and post sub-standard quality.

I’ve been receiving two very polarizing feedbacks on Ken.

1) Ken’s too annoying, neurotic, weird, unreal, exaggerated. Unrelatable.

2) He’s very relatable. The experience feels very genuine.

First, the good news is whether you hate or love Ken, this story is going to be a “hero’s journey” where he learns to be less annoying and more like a stud. Think Karate Kid. Lisa and Denise are making him do "wax on wax off". With enough practice, Ken will be less neurotic and less wimpy.

By the end of chapter 4 (coming soon), there will be a shift in Ken’s attitude and personality. I hope you enjoy seeing Ken grow as much as his friends.

(Just to manage expectations, Ken will still be annoying at the end of Book 1, I think. People with mental conditions don't get 'cured' easily, no matter how much they want to. But hopefully, there would be less 'I just want to smack Ken a couple of times' moments.)

For those that said, “Ken is too annoying to read.” - I agree. It's annoying to write him too. But I had a reason for that.

I’ve created Ken to have several mental conditions, including social anxiety, depression, and neuroticism. He also don’t do well with too much mental/physical stimulant. His brain will struggle to process them, so he ended up “spiraling”.

Why I chose Ken as the main character

Other than making it interesting and not the usual “stud with big dick” trope, I also wanted to showcase people with debilitating mental conditions.

For someone like Ken, without his friends, he’s essentially non-functional as a human being. I used to be like that to some extent as well.

For people with severe anxiety, sometimes the most minor thing can send them “spiraling” like Ken.

I used to have severe anxiety in college. Then I developed social anxiety after a traumatic accident. The social anxiety was so bad, I couldn’t speak to strangers. Words would form in my mouth but stuck at the throat.

I remember going to a party with my friends. It was supposed to be a fun night. When I took the train on the way there, I saw someone reading a book.

My mind started spiraling at the sight of the book:

- The book reminded me I was supposed to read 3 journal articles and write an essay

- Essay reminded me I needed to maintain a certain grade for the dean’s list

- It reminded me I need to do well in school

- Then I started getting worried about my future

- Then I wondered if I should be going to a party instead of doing my essay, even though it’s only due in a few weeks’ time.

- For the rest of the party, I was anxious about something I shouldn’t even be anxious about

All these anxious thoughts just for seeing someone reading a book. Go figure.

I had taken the liberty to apply how anxious people feel in sexual situations. I suspect that those in camp (2) had experience with anxiety, even if it’s not as exaggerated as Ken’s.

I tend to have a few themes and sub-goals in my stories. One of them for RSI is to show how difficult life could be for people with anxiety and/or depression. And how having good friends could help.

When I was suffering from social anxiety in college, I met a grad student who designed a series of practice sessions for me to overcome my social anxiety. It was an adaptation of lab experiments and translated into real world. One such practice was walking up to someone, saying hi, smiling at them, and walking away before they could react. It was to teach my subconscious brain that people are not as scary as my anxious brain thought.

In case you’re wondering, we got together for a while, but no threesomes or butt stretching involved. (RSI is not my life's story).

I also had a life version of Tony as a friend, who always tried to help me with my anxiety through very brute force methods (more about this in chapter 4). But no, I didn’t have sex with his girlfriend.

I enjoy writing stories that feature the MC who wants to have sex but suddenly gets thrust into situations where there’s too much sex too fast. Female characters have to persuade MC to have sex.

I already have at least 4 story ideas I’m developing. I can’t wait to finish RSI book 1 before diving into other stories eventually. One story I’m excited to publish is about a virgin finding love in a sex commune. Another story is about an orphan who suddenly got invited to live a billionaire life, with tons of hot girls clambering to have sex with him.

At the moment, I intend to finish at least book one of RSI for now (though that might change). Beyond that, we’ll see. I’m can't wait to start other stories as well.

Many erotic writers have the attitude of “I write what I like, not for others.” (Nothing against that, but I wonder why they publish if that’s true). For me, it’s the opposite. I like to write for others. While I have visions for my stories, I want people to like them. If they don’t, I will stop writing. Throw it into the bin and never touch it again. A failed story doesn’t deserve to end. Life is too short to end stories with bad reviews. I don’t want to finish stories that no one wants to read.

All this is to say, please continue to give me your comments, feedback, and votes. As long as enough people show me they like it, I will continue RSI (at least to the end of Book One). If not, I’m eager to start other stories.

Chapter 4 of RSI should be coming soon. I hope you will like it. And please let me know what you think.

When I started to write A Reluctant Sex Instructor (RSI), my plan was simple.

I was going to write and publish 20-30k words and see if it gained traction. If it doesn't, I will start a new story and try again.

My reasoning is two folds:

(1) I want to see if the story idea is good enough.

(2) I want to see if my writing skill is good enough.

I've already created an outline, plot, and ending for RSI. There's also an option to create sequels.

But first, I need to make sure both (1) and (2) are good enough.

So your feedback and comments are greatly appreciated. Please leave a score on RSI. If it's not good enough, let me know. The last thing I want is to continue a bad story. There's already enough stories here that I don't need to add mine into the mix if there's no demand for it.