Aaron Adams: Blog

I just posted chapter 20. I liked it, I really did. But a large part of me is saying this is crap - crap because I wanted to write a story that was realistic. One I could imagine living myself.

No one is REALLY like these characters - especially the females - in real life. And if there were really women out there like Amber and Emily, surely no one would ever agree to take them on unless they were a sadistic bastard who wanted a playthings, not a naive do-gooder like Aaron.

The story isn't supposed to go like it has. Mother and daughter are supposed to learn to be better and I hinted that they were actually doing some things right, despite Amber trying to drive things.

But IF the character Aaron becomes a sadistic bastard and plays with them until his playthings get used up - destroyed mentally and physically, then said sadistic bastard would just blindfold them, drive them to the desert and dump them, never knowing or caring if they survived.

I wanted a clean, fun story of light bondage and exciting dares. This has become something else. I don't know if I can change it now.

Please, please someone take it over and fix it. Make it fun. I'm just not a good writer. My dark side is too deep, I guess. I don't want to keep writing it but I'm kind of hooked.

Someone recently told me that my chapters are too short. Well today I submitted three and I want to know if it really gets annoying reading little chapters like this person helpfully suggested.

Do you think I should just hold everything until I can submit an epic chapter or, like today, submit as many as I have the time to write? This story is for everyone else, as much as me, and it doesn't hurt me to ask.

I just spent a day reviewing the cartoon artwork of a Canadian artist called Dolcett. As a result, my mind was spun out of control once again - it's been several years since I originally stumbled across his fetish work - so I put something together and have submitted it. Maybe there's someone out there as creepy as I feel for writing it and they in turn enjoy it.

A reader recently suggested I could submit two versions of my story; one with and one without the sex. So chapter 8 has been posted in a version A (almost sex-free) and version B (uncensored). Should I continue censoring it or not?

This story was supposed to have no actual sex but the characters seemed to think differently, so apologies to anyone who is repulsed by human contact - although those readers would be on the wrong website anyway!

As it stands, as soon as the actual sex scene started, I stopped writing, so I've posted what I have in the hope I'll get encouragement to keep going, or be given an idea of a way out of having to subject the reader to more sexual stuff than you've already been subjected to.