Chapter 1

Finding my biological father was never in the cards since I never knew that my mothers husband was not my biological father. I grew up thinking he was my father and strangely enough he thought he was my biological father too. He never knew that my mother strayed from their marital bed and while doing so was impregnated by a young man that fell head over heals in love with her and she with him but it could not be. She was the young wife of a very powerful politician and an affair could ruin his career. Although she never really loved him, she would not disgrace him or her family. He was good to her but he was not the lover she wanted or needed.

My mothers father set it all up just after she graduated college. He introduced his 22 y/o daughter to a 40 y/o career politician as a favor to get an appointment to an office of great importance. She wanted to please her dad so she married him after a short courtship and moved to the capital city. At first it was all new and exciting but soon the parties were a bore and his inability to satisfy her made her long for more. His idea of a romantic evening was a social gathering with old politicians followed by a few minutes of kissing, a few minutes minutes of fondling, undressing and 4 minutes of sex. He was a larger man with a big stomach and a small-short penis. He enjoyed sex fast, hard and never varied the pace or pre-sex routine. He was a grunter and moaned as he pumped into her and came well before she was close to orgasm. He typically collapsed after he orgasmed and quickly went to sleep and snored like a pig. She often cried herself to sleep and wished things were different. Outwardly and in public she played the part of a proud politicians wife but she was an empty shell of loneliness.

She started volunteering as most political wives do to break up the days and add value to her husband's career. After a while she found that she liked working with children in the local public library, a volunteer opportunity another political wife told her about while she was at a coffee. It was a great place to volunteer and she really enjoyed being around people that were trying to improve their lives.

After two years of marriage her husband came home one day and said he wanted a child. Although it was initially a surprise, they tried to get pregnant. She detested the thought of planned sex since sex with him was already bad enough but once again she played the part. She thought that a child would make her life feel fulfilled. It was during this time that she met a young student studying to be a physician. He spent a lot of time in the library and, although was very focused on his books, she occasionally caught him looking at her. He would quickly advert his eyes and go back to studying. She began to feel attractive again. He was a beautiful boy so it excited her to think that he was checking her out. She used the her connections to find out more about him and soon uncovered that he was a presidential scholar and a part time model. He had graduated high school at 15 and immediately started college. At 18, he was already accepted into medical school and would start the following fall. She had studied pre-med in college but didn't really have the grades to go forward. She was excited that she had a lot in common with him.

Tom, the young student's name and my father was 6"2' and his hazel eyes made her weak in the knees. She was soon thinking of him all of the time and would often imagine it was him rather than her husband as they has sex. The countless trips to fertility specialists and scheduled sex was not what she wanted but it was something she felt she needed to do to please her husband. She dreamed of Tom's beautiful eyes looking into hers as he pushed his manhood into her and how it must feel to be wrapped in his arms. Her imagination would go out of her control and her thoughts of him were passionate and erotic although she had never said more than hello to him. After a few months she finally got the courage to speak to him and found him to be a very pleasant person which fueled her secret and erotic dreams even more. It would have been easier for her if he was a jerk so she could just move on. His eyes looked right through her and her spirit was on fire with desire. She began to volunteer more and would always try to find out when he would be there so she could say hello and start a conversation.

After a short conversation one day she asked if he would ever be interested in going to lunch. He said that it would be nice to meet for lunch and that they would have to plan it one day. As he walked away she wanted to make herself thing it was just an innocent lunch but she knew it was more. How much more, she didn't know.

When the day actually came she was nervous. They had decided that she would meet him near the college campus at a very hip sub shop. That was safe she thought. She didn't think it would go anywhere anyway but the more public the safer it was. He was so handsome and his smile and laugh were contagious. She smiled so much at lunch that her cheeks hurt! More than once she had thought he was checking out her cleavage and chest but passed it off as her imagination. On a whim and maybe to prove she was still a desirable woman she excused herself to go to the restroom and while she was there she unbuttoned an additional button on her shirt and took off her jacket as she sat back down. Her hunch was validated when she returned! Tom couldn't keep his eyes off of her as much as her tried. She actually felt guilty but started getting turned on at the same time. Quickly she noticed that her nipple were clearly visible so she put her blazer back saying it was getting cold.